Secret Gamer Girl / SecretGamerGrrl / Googleshng / "Violet Hargrave" / Jacob Lawrence (Jake) Alley / Violet Cassandra Ocean - Delusional Zoe Quinn Stalker, Libelous Tweeter, Thirsty Gnome, Faux-Tranny Neckbeard Incel, Micropenis, "Known Troubled Person", Creator of "Massive vs the Masses", Self-Described "Noise Making Thing"; Lives in Niantic, CT

[Tragi-Chan]

And lol at him claiming that half his friends have been driven to suicide. He'd have named them if it were true. His failure to back up his claims is exactly why his Zoe post bombed.

Possibly they died of boredom after reading his tweets.

 

[TheMonkeyMan]

It's really cute how Jake thinks that anyone who would read his tumblr doesn't already know about his Zoepost.

 

[Positron]

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"...a hate group that has driven half my friends to suicide, and the other half to cut me off..."
Half of zero is still zero.

 

[Water-T]

Jake sill clings to the delusion that RANDAY!s blocklist is responsible for people ignoring him, and not because he bores them shitless.

 

[MirnaMinkoff]

I am never OK, and if you ask me, I’m not going to tell you

I mean, it's all been said before, but still: he's being a dick to his mom again probably because she's the only person who still tolerates his lazy ass so she has to bare the brunt of his impotent rage.

People are somehow supposed to believe he keeps all his misery bottled up when he's done nothing but be miserable every single day on twitter for hours on end for the last, like, 2-3 years?

And: No, Jake. We don't want you to kill yourself. We'd lose a lot of fun content. But Zoe's still not going to be best buddies again no matter how much you whine on twitter/tumblr/whatever.

Jake is definitely a BPD headcase. The summary of that entire post, and Jake’s tweets, are that everyone needs to rush to meet his demands with unfailing support and that other people make absolutely no demands or expect any responsibilities from him, anything else makes you a hate Nazi trying to make him kill himself.

(Suicide baiting is a fav manipulation tactic of BPD ppl and one of Jake’s favorite faux-threats. It’s always other people making Jake suicidal too)

I don’t believe at all that some of the things Jake claims his mother said occurred when he was a child, but were said to him as an adult. But he won’t get any sympathy for telling ppl his mother told a 22 year old man to buck up and stop whining because she was out busting ass every day to support him staying at home playing games.

Also now his therapist is a “gate keeper” lol. I guess that will be his new excuse as to why he’s never done one single thing to transition- the state won’t shave his beard for him and his therapist is a gatekeeper. That shit won’t fly with his actual troon twitter buddies because besides being able to easily order hormones online there is an informed consent clinic less that Jake could easily take a short train ride to in Norwalk, CT.

Many Actual trans people have gone a lot of trouble to transition, Jake won’t even take a 40 min train ride to do it or put one cent of his own money into the effort.

 

[lecher]

I am never OK, and if you ask me, I’m not going to tell you

I'm no therapist, but Imma gonna analyze this.

Spoiler

This week, when I was talking to my therapist about one of the more hurtful things I’d experienced since last seeing her

"one of the more hurtful things" ➞ Vague, mawkish.

where a family member said something absolutely unspeakable

"a family member ... something ... absolutely unspeakable" ➞ Vague, hyperbole

about me behind my back

➞ Paranoid

Her suggestion was that I should e-mail said family member about it, because I “seem to express myself better in writing than when talking to people.” There might have been some low-key contempt for me in that

"might have been some low-key contempt for me" ➞ Paranoid

but it is true, and there’s something to be said for explaining why that is.
I have a really hard time ever opening up about the problems I’m dealing with, to anyone. For reasons I’ll get into in a moment, at a very young age, I developed a defense mechanism to never, ever, let on that anything is wrong, and I swear, every time I have ever made an exception, it has lead to further trauma.

"ever opening up ... to anyone" ➞ Hyperbole
"never, ever ... anything ... swear ... every time ... trauma" ➞ Hyperbole

Hmm, definite theme in terms of style. Now let's consider the substance for a it.

My mother has a lot of mental health issues, including one where seeing me upset has always made her unreasonably angry. The logic seemed to be that if I was ever upset, it was because she was doing a bad job as a mother. And since she was doing her best, damn it, that’s an unfair criticism I needed to be punished for. Her go-to being threats.

Now on the face of it this seems like a genuinely unfortunate situation. But because this is Jake talking, who is a histrionic paranoiac, it's safe to assume that this is a wildly exaggerated distortion, if not a total fabrication.

If she ever caught me crying, or frowning, or moping, or being too quiet, or any of a dozen other things, real or imagined, that indicated to her that I was insufficiently happy and content, she’d insist I improve my attitude, or else she would send me off, either to live with my violently abusive father, or to a mental institution, or that she’d take my cats to an animal shelter. Terrifying things to say to any child, and I absolutely believed she meant it.

Here we get to the heart of the matter. We know Jake is totally uninterested in anything except his own navel so it's not surprise he was like that as a kid. Most kids are a bit like that. But... most kids tend to grow out of it. They learn that relationships are a two-way street. They learn to put in a little effort. Jake never did. Instead he withdrew further whenever his mom tried to cheer him up or suggested some kind of activity, like going to camp or visiting his father. Because that would mean having to negotiate and genuinely interact with other people, to be mindful of others and not put your own needs front and center all the time. And Jake feels threatened doing that.

To avoid having to come to terms with his helplessness and his neediness, Jake decides to simply reverse reality. I'm not talking a bit of hyperbole or a bit or paranoia: no, a complete reversal. In the real world, Jake is a sullen, inconsiderate asshole. In Jake's world, his mother is the asshole.

I worked out such a poker face that when my best friend was having a crisis and I tried to offer sympathy, I was told “you wouldn’t understand, you don’t have any emotions!”

Again, the Jake reality-reversal: when someone tells you to your face they perceive you as a weird, non-emoting creep, that becomes proof you actually are very sensitive and have a vibrant emotional life. Other people just don't see it because you're so good at hiding it.

~~~​

And with that, I think, the analysis comes full circle. Because even though I'm not a therapist, for me this fully explains Jake's crazy troon fantasies. The more we laugh about Jake's sad-sack existence as a slovenly internet addicted man with no social life and no ability to engage with people or the world at large, the more this proves how good Jake is at hiding the fact that he is actually an exuberant, beautiful woman, who is loved and trusted by all, and also fights Nazis.

 

[Ruin]

Has anyone ever noticed Jake sounds exactly like H.P Lovecraft writing about Cosmic horrors when he writes his callout posts?

It was a vague unspeakable evil that I can't describe or elaborate on except to say it was very vague and unspeakably evil!

 

[Diana Moon Glampers]

I've seen people with very similar language patterns to Jake's when discussing relational and affective issues. Specifically, I've seen them on "estranged parent forums," which are hilarious shitshows full of 100% lolcows. It's basically tons of parents who are so very sad because their kids don't talk to them any more.

Now, sure, that could mean they have an ungrateful little shit of a kid or that the kid has real problems. Lots of them, in fact, will say their kids have huge problems: they're drug addicts! They never called on your birthday! There's a litany of complaints about them, often wrapped up in accusations that the children were in fact abusers of poor ol' mom and dad. Sad stuff.

But that's until you start to notice the other half of the pattern. Their kids have always stopped talking to them for completely nebulous reasons that they won't go into. "A silly misunderstanding" or "something that wasn't even true." If someone tries to get to the bottom of what happened, and asks about the last conversation they remember having where the kid decided to stop talking to them, they'll say "my kid accused me of unspeakable things and used incredibly vile, abusive language. This all stems from when I used to make her clean her room when she didn't want to, she still holds a grudge against me because I spoiled her too much as a child and was really too generous." But they won't say what the actual precipitating event was, and they won't detail the accusations.

The more you read of these forums, the more the pattern emerges to a point where it's legitimately creepy how these parents talk about themselves and their relationships with their kids. The kids are the "abusive" ones, supposedly ... but the parents will talk about stalking their grown children, causing them distress by continuing to try to phone them and contact them through social media long after the child has stopped communicating, will talk about how they want to call their adult child's boss or spouse or child to influence them into seeing things the way the parent does.

They never take responsibility for the idea that they might have caused their own misery, except for the kind of "actually patting myself on the back" kinds of pseudo-self-deprecation that Jake loves to engage in, as well. Jake's "I was just too sensitive and emotional, which is why it looks like I was an unemotional nerdy guy, which definitely explains why people don't like to hang out with me" is pretty much identical in form to the "I was just too giving of myself in my children's youth, I gave them too much and didn't expect enough in return, which is I'm sure why they hate me now, I was too kind and generous" that populates estranged parent forums.

It's such a hilarious way of speaking, and it's clear after you see enough of it that the speakers are totally unaware of how transparent their language tricks are after anyone's read their prose for more than 5 minutes. Anything that might shed light on specific activities or mistakes of the speaker is made so vague as to be impossible to interpret, while anything having to do with the guilt of others is cast in highly-charged terms that don't seem to correspond to any of the accused person's specific actions.

 

[Smaug's Smokey Hole]

(Suicide baiting is a fav manipulation tactic of BPD ppl and one of Jake’s favorite faux-threats. It’s always other people making Jake suicidal too)

I really don't think he's BPD, it's probably just learned behavior from the CHELSAY!'s he's been orbiting on the internet. He sees that it gets them results and what's good for the goose is good for the gander so he starts imitating them.

 

[DrJonesHat]

When you're lying, making a vague accusation means fewer details to remember than if you say something specific. "She said something mean about me that wasn't true!" is easier to remember than "she said I gave a mohawk to her cat!" when you're trying to recall it months later.

 

[Diana Moon Glampers]

I really don't think he's BPD, it's probably just learned behavior from the CHELSAY!'s he's been orbiting on the internet. He sees that it gets them results and what's good for the goose is good for the gander so he starts imitating them.

Jake's clearly been a narcissist way before that. His Googleshngs about how it's fine to be a mooch who has no interest in ever getting a job or stopping leeching off his mom because it keeps him from killing himself and his mom wants him alive, that pre-dates the Zoe saga. It's almost like Jake and a thousand people on both sides of "GamerGate" are wrong and Zoe Quinn isn't actually the causative agent of ... well, much of anything.

 

[niggers]

Cow crossover. Jake claims Twitter's Jack follows "neo-nazis" and Jake is still butthurt that Chelsea's CON got told to fuck off and Twitter declined to permaban their hitlist of accounts.

sometime i fantasize that jack dorsey will finally snap. after investing millions of dollars and hours of company manpower to appease troons, and caving to every shitty PC demand ever, he'll just throw his hands up.

i mean, people are calling him a neo nazi for eating chick fil a. he's gotta have the desire to just lose it and go "you wanna see fucking nazism? i'll give you some fucking nazism." and then change everyone's avatar to a swastika and every handle to @1488gasthekikes.

and the funniest part is jake would STILL post there, because what the fuck else is he going to do?

 

[DrJonesHat]

sometime i fantasize that jack dorsey will finally snap. after investing millions of dollars and hours of company manpower to appease troons, and caving to every shitty PC demand ever, he'll just throw his hands up.

i mean, people are calling him a neo nazi for eating chick fil a. he's gotta have the desire to just lose it and go "you wanna see fucking nazism? i'll give you some fucking nazism." and then change everyone's avatar to a swastika and every handle to @1488gasthekikes.

and the funniest part is jake would STILL post there, because what the fuck else is he going to do?

I've often wondered what would happen if either Twitter shut down, or Jake got banned. He's such an autist about it, switching to another platform wouldn't occur to him.

 

[BlueArmedDevil]

sometime i fantasize that jack dorsey will finally snap. after investing millions of dollars and hours of company manpower to appease troons, and caving to every shitty PC demand ever, he'll just throw his hands up.

I would like to see the outcry if he decided to charge a penny a tweet.

 

[Sissy Galvez]

sometime i fantasize that jack dorsey will finally snap. after investing millions of dollars and hours of company manpower to appease troons, and caving to every shitty PC demand ever, he'll just throw his hands up.

i mean, people are calling him a neo nazi for eating chick fil a. he's gotta have the desire to just lose it and go "you wanna see fucking nazism? i'll give you some fucking nazism." and then change everyone's avatar to a swastika and every handle to @1488gasthekikes.

and the funniest part is jake would STILL post there, because what the fuck else is he going to do?

I wish Jack would crack and start banning harassers and pathetic shits like Jake Alley aka Violet Hargrave.

To clean up Twitter, a lot of shitty people on both sides need to eat a permanent ban. He’s too fucking pussy, though, to do it.

 

[Hellfire]

Jake made a Googleshng about "America throwing anyone who comes from Central America into concentration camps."

Jake thinks people get angry because "uncome bracket X are able to afford TVs and refrigerators, which they'd prefer to be status symbols of the wealthy elite. "


Jake "somehow" had a "truckload" of Rifts books.


Jake follows a bunch of spergs.

Cow crossover. It's amazing how much this stuff really is living rent free in Jake's head and all he can think about.

This is about a The Last Jedi remake/edit or something that I've seen people whining about today. "I'm fairly sure a lot of the Sarkeesian Effect money for instance got reinvested into Trump's campaign"


Which "old game" would that be, Jake?


"people getting thrown into concentration camps in America right now."

"I would like people to take a moment to process, in particular, that the 4th image in that last RT is a pile of confiscated ROSARIES.
Please find a Central American Catholic to explain this to you if that doesn't strike you as particularly horrifying."



Jake is eagerly injecting himself into and mansplaining about "DNDgate."



Cow crossover with Luke Lockhart.

Jake says he has to mansplain Googleshng conspiracies to the "women in the industry you see [him] RT constantly"


Jake's lie about having a little brother (who died) goes out the window as he tries to get attention from the Paizo troon.

Jake is still peddling his lies about "corrective rape" and lesbians who totally couldn't keep their hands off him.


TANKIES are a "hate group" according to yet another Googleshng by Jake about Twitter blocklists.






Cow crossover. In the same 'breath' that Jake says everyone can freely harass JESSE SINGAL because all the troons are doing it to "flood his searches," he spells the name as "Jessie" instead because Jake is that much of a coward.

"keeping 13 year olds away from their favorite Minecraft LPers is a pretty vital tool in the fight against neo-nazi recruitment."


JESSE! IAN!

 

[Water-T]

Jake is just a sad, little man who spends every waking hour sperging on Twitter about all these imagined scenarios where lesbian gangs want to rape him, Jesse Singal is writing hate articles about him, his mother wants to force him to dress as a man on the threat of kicking him out, Chelsea secretly wants him but can't admit to herself that she wants to rub Jake's gnome beard all over her implants, and that gamergate has ninja assassins and trained snipers stationed outside his home that is TOTALLY NOT IN NIANTIC.

If his therapist read even just a fraction of these delusions that he posts around the clock, she'd already be on the phone getting his crazy ass institutionalized.

 

[MirnaMinkoff]

Jake is just a sad, little man who spends every waking hour sperging on Twitter about all these imagined scenarios where lesbian gangs want to rape him, Jesse Singal is writing hate articles about him, his mother wants to force him to dress as a man on the threat of kicking him out, Chelsea secretly wants him but can't admit to herself that she wants to rub Jake's gnome beard all over her implants, and that gamergate has ninja assassins and trained snipers stationed outside his home that is TOTALLY NOT IN NIANTIC.

If his therapist read even just a fraction of these delusions that he posts around the clock, she'd already be on the phone getting his crazy ass institutionalized.

Nah, they wouldn’t waste institutional space on him but I’m sure his twitter feed would just further confirm the suspicions that everything is in Jake’s head and he’s simply a paranoid BPD looking to blame others for all the problems in his life in order to avoid doing anything to improve, change or take responsibility for his current situation.

I’m just waiting for Jake to slip up and suicide bait the therapist - and that will at least get him in a 48 hour psych hold.

He always refers to a therapist, not a psychiatrist, which means they can’t prescribe any meds. So I wonder who’s supposedly prescribing HRT to Jake, since he’s made that claim. He’s also called his therapist a gatekeeper so she probably recommended anti-psychotics or anti-depressives be prescribed to him by a psychiatrist before hormones.

 

[Hellfire]

This person was getting dunked on for ebegging and it went viral in the rat king. One of the earliest self-descriptions we had on Jake was that he had bad teeth.

Cow crossover.

"we" - Jake isn't trans and has never been on a date in his life. Jake also blames "forced feminization porn" for supposedly being so pervasive it "literally made it impossible for [Jake] to find any resources on actually being trans until [he] was in my 30s, yeah." @repentance



Jake projects his fetishes on others, again.

Jake is desperately trying to slide into the DMs of yet another tabletop industry insider, this one the publisher of Eclipse Phase.

 

[Tragi-Chan]

Nah, they wouldn’t waste institutional space on him but I’m sure his twitter feed would just further confirm the suspicions that everything is in Jake’s head and he’s simply a paranoid BPD looking to blame others for all the problems in his life in order to avoid doing anything to improve, change or take responsibility for his current situation.

I’m just waiting for Jake to slip up and suicide bait the therapist - and that will at least get him in a 48 hour psych hold.

He always refers to a therapist, not a psychiatrist, which means they can’t prescribe any meds. So I wonder who’s supposedly prescribing HRT to Jake, since he’s made that claim. He’s also called his therapist a gatekeeper so she probably recommended anti-psychotics or anti-depressives be prescribed to him by a psychiatrist before hormones.

I don’t believe for a second that he’s on HRT. It’s just another of his inconsistent lies about where he is in the process of transitioning. If you were a doctor, there’s no way in hell you’d look at this man and think, “Here’s a guy who’s serious about transitioning.”

In fact, I reckon that when Jake talks about his gatekeeping therapist, what he means is that they rightly look at him with his male clothes and huge beard and tell him, in psychological terms, that he’s full of shit and only claims to be trans for pity points. Then they try to get him to talk about the real issues.