Skitzocow DENelson83 - The Obsessed Canadian Sailor Moon Fan.

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DENelson83 here. I noticed from a Google search that you were talking about me here. http://cwckiforums.com/threads/denelson83-the-obsessed-sailor-moon-fan.4821/Believe it or not, reading this thread has been a godsend to me, as it has given me a valuable outside perspective on my behaviour. I feel I should privately weigh in with you on this weirdness that my life has been over the past few months.

Yes, I have been being quite the lolcow recently. I was off my medication for a while, and looking back at how I've behaved over the past few months, I am shocked and ashamed. I let my fanhood of Sailor Moon take over and consume my life. I went off on Viz via e-mail, Twitter, and I even telephoned the company to register my displeasure, so much so that they notified my family and asked that I stop contacting them, which I have. I am now seeing a psychiatrist on a regular basis, and that's given me the perfect forum to vent off the pent-up frustration I have been carrying around with me for these past few month.

You will notice that, yes, I have been involved in torrenting the original Japanese Sailor Moon series. However, with my warped moral code, I have not *watched* the show at all after obtaining it that way. The reason my depression only surfaced after Viz Media obtained Sailor Moon is because before then, it was completely unlicensed in Canada. I did buy the DVDs of the DiC dub of Sailor Moon when they were being sold, but those have now deteriorated to the point where they're now unwatchable.

As of right now, I am passing on Viz's Sailor Moon DVD/BD releases entirely. I have declared myself dead set on watching the show as an official Canadian stream first—without resorting to piracy or VPNs—even if I have to wait a long time to do so. My rationale for this is that I want the very same experience with Viz's Sailor Moon that US fans got back on May 19. I have only ever been able to enjoy Sailor Moon on my own, and watching it from DVD/BD only reinforces that solitude to me. I'd rather watch it publicly and feel like I'm in a party while doing so.

Here's the situation with me and Viz's June 30 download-to-own releases: I don't own a Playstation or XBox. Amazon Instant Video does not accept customers outside of the US, Google Play won't sell Sailor Moon in Canada, and here's the real kicker: I have boycotted iTunes. I feel Apple should not get any money from me, because I don't like their way of doing business. Does that make me a hypocrite in some way? I don't know, but I bet some of the people you've been talking with on this know the answer to that.

I recently posted this final statement about the impasse between Viz and Canada, and I would like to know if there's anything wrong with it. Feel free to post it on this thread discussing me and dissect it. http://www.saiyanisland.com/2014/02/neon-alley-to-be-free-starting-april-1/#comment-1614117302

I also posted a YouTube video talking about my fanhood of Sailor Moon. Feel free to watch and dissect that as well.

The Obsessed SM Fan, Yesterday at 9:29 PM
Your favorite cartoon might be considered girly by the people around you, but it takes a real man to admit his mistakes and try to correct them. Keep up the good work!
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Mental health issues are the worst, especially when they lead to thoughts that (at the unmedicated time) seem like the most rational and justifiable thing in the world. The fact that he was able to both recognize that there was a problem and seek the help he needed for it is really admirable. Well done, Mr. Nelson! I hope you keep on this path and continue to feel better. Good luck with your goals!
 
There's something about this guy that rubs me the wrong way and I feel bad for him. It's one thing to spergrage about something going on with a cartoon show and then there's having the stuff of said cartoon affect your health. Chris got angry over Sonic's arms in Sonic Boom (and Equestria Girls before he loved it) but that probably doesn't top the things that give him stress (maybe in the short-term but no further). Sailor Moon fans have a significant crazy division but this is more disturbing than amusing. I hope he gets well.
 
There's something about this guy that rubs me the wrong way and I feel bad for him. It's one thing to spergrage about something going on with a cartoon show and then there's having the stuff of said cartoon affect your health. Chris got angry over Sonic's arms in Sonic Boom (and Equestria Girls before he loved it) but that probably doesn't top the things that give him stress (maybe in the short-term but no further). Sailor Moon fans have a significant crazy division but this is more disturbing than amusing. I hope he gets well.

That psychiatrist has got their work cut out for them.
 
I think George R.R. Martin has the right idea about accessing shows through unofficial channels. Basically, if a country isn't delivering a product the people there want they have every right to seek it out for themselves in a way that's affordable and reasonable for them. If VIZ isn't releasing SMC (or whatever it is) in Canada when they have the license, Canadians absolutely have the right to access the show through other means.

But he's such a self-righteous dick about it. If he actually wanted to solve his problems he'd find a way to get his hands on the show, but since he constantly makes excuses I can only conclude that he likes having something to bitch about.
 
I think George R.R. Martin has the right idea about accessing shows through unofficial channels. Basically, if a country isn't delivering a product the people there want they have every right to seek it out for themselves in a way that's affordable and reasonable for them. If VIZ isn't releasing SMC (or whatever it is) in Canada when they have the license, Canadians absolutely have the right to access the show through other means.

But he's such a self-righteous dick about it. If he actually wanted to solve his problems he'd find a way to get his hands on the show, but since he constantly makes excuses I can only conclude that he likes having something to bitch about.

The first Season's now available on DVD/Blu-ray. I saw it in a Canadian Wal-Mart myself. That means the bitching will stop right?
...right?
Sailor Moon fans have a significant crazy division
No fucking kidding. I was very active on Sailor Moon Uncensored during it's heyday. The stories I could tell you all...
 
I feel I need to jump in on my own thread here and set at least part of the record straight.

To begin, I do not live in Vancouver. I live on the Island of the same name next to it, in a place called the Comox Valley, an area not known for having a big local anime community. I have precisely no friends my own age in real life, and have spent my entire almost-two-decade-long Sailor Moon fanhood in total isolation. And absolutely nobody else in my family is a fan of Sailor Moon. This is an aspect of my life in which I am truly alone.

When I was in grade school, simply bringing up my Sailor Moon fanhood with other students was enough to get me ridiculed and bullied. The only friends I truly made in school were with the staff. I have never been in an environment where the people around me also treasure not just Sailor Moon, but also my very unique set of life circumstances.

Which brings me to the events of the last half-year. You probably remember seeing that "Sailor Moon Official Announcement Trailer" on YouTube for the first time back in mid-May. When I initially saw it, my first reaction was one of over-the-top elation, making me believe that the comeback of a title that I had not officially seen for over ten years was imminent. Then when I learned that this comeback would only happen in the States—since Neon Alley and Hulu cannot be seen outside the States—my elation crashed, and it crashed *hard.* The psychological effect that this sequence of events had on me was devastating—as if I was destined to be left out of the party of a lifetime. I cannot bear to watch that YouTube trailer anymore, as it just triggers too much pain and distress in me, nor can I bear to watch any other clip of the show that Viz Media has put on YouTube, as it would only serve to remind me of the experience I have wanted so badly but have been forced to miss out on. In the months that followed, my desperation began to grow at an exponential rate, culminating in late August, when I called Viz Media and warned the company that if they did not let Canada into their Sailor Moon party in earnest, I would end up taking my own life in despair. Luckily, the company passed this along to the RCMP, which moved in to thankfully save my life. I was hospitalized in the psychiatric ward of my local hospital for almost a week just before AniRevo 2014. My family then began to put a framework of social support in place for me, but not where I believe it could have really counted—making me comfortable to be a Sailor Moon fan around other people.

What I have been wanting out of Viz Media all this time is to be able to legally access their offering of Sailor Moon from the company's point of acquisition, and be able to celebrate the entire show with both the fandom *and* the company, but since I live in Canada, that was not possible. The first set of DVD/BDs may have been released, but Viz's marketing campaign for Sailor Moon has already long since passed that point in the series. Last Monday, the company released episodes *61 and 62* of the 90's anime onto its high-falutin' Neon Alley service. Getting that first set of DVD/BDs will do nothing to heal the psychological trauma that I have been bearing over the past nearly seven months, as it will only perpetuate my sense of moonie solitude.

And watching the show through piracy will not soothe my nerves either. This is not just because watching it that way would feel just as isolating to me as watching it from the discs, but because of the bad social experience I had going through school as well. There's a saying originating from that experience that I now live by: "I trust authority more than I trust peers." It is no longer fun for me to watch the 90's anime on my own—when I do not know if anyone else is watching the show at the same time as I am and no one else knows I am watching it at that time. If I am going to watch Viz's Sailor Moon offering, I require not just the permission of Viz, but also the company's spiritual support, which I have been observing the company doling out copiously on social media. The fandom is not in any kind of position to give me this—only Viz is, and the only way Viz can do this is if they get this show into Canada *through Neon Alley*; i.e., on-demand, online, regardless of if it is free or not. Viz keeps saying it is working on making this happen, but from following developments over several months, I have a *much* greater insight into the situation Viz is facing on that score than anyone in that company, and all of the indications I have received in the past half-year point to the door to Canada having been slammed in Neon Alley's face and deadbolted.

That concludes my rant. Feel free to ask me any questions here.
 
As you should. I know very few people will understand the predicament I am stuck in at this point, but I am at least glad it is entertaining for you.
Nobody will understand it, because it makes no sense. Have you bought the first DVD, which is for sale in Canada? If people don't buy the first one, it just makes it less likely that the subsequent DVDs will be released.

If you "require" the "spiritual support" of a commercial enterprise in any aspect of your life, you are doomed to disappointment.
 
Nobody will understand it, because it makes no sense. Have you bought the first DVD, which is for sale in Canada? If people don't buy the first one, it just makes it less likely that the subsequent DVDs will be released.

Exactly. No company is going to take a financial gamble if it appears there isn't a support for a certain thing in a certain location.

Not to mention he could've just used a VPN or a chrome extension if he NEEDED to see it so badly. Or if he doesn't mind the dub (and sitting through other shows) there's the Toonami Aftermath website.

Bottom line: Viz, just like any company, only cares about money. They don't care if you felt isolated, and whatever kind of 'spiritual support' you're expecting... yeah, no, it's a company. They don't care.
 
Have you been working with OCD therapists about this? Have you been working with any therapists at all? I don't have any experience with the Canadian healthcare system, but I would assume that there's some kind of aftercare in place for when patients are released from the overnight ward in psychiatric hospitals.
 
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