When Marianne Kirby still had some steel-reinforced soapboxes to shout from five to 10 years ago, "I'm morbidly obese because I don't eat very much! I dieted my way to 300 pounds!" was basically her mantra. She would become a poisonous bitch if anyone ever questioned or confronted that belief.
Here are some old gems from Marianne:
"Through all of this [dieting], I got fatter. I weighed 156 pounds in the sixth grade — but I was also my adult height of 5'4". I matured early, big boobs and a body shape that marched steadily toward an hourglass. The only message I ever got was that I was fat. That I needed to keep dieting so I could be normal, like the other girls. I dieted and got fatter in high school. I dieted and got fatter in college.
"And, I really do believe that there are other kids who grew up dieting who didn't develop eating disorders. Anything's possible, right? But, I wasn't one of them. The less I ate, the fatter I got until I found a magical tipping point. I lost 50 pounds through not eating or sleeping until one day when I passed out at a theme park. Even then I wasn't skinny, so no one really pegged me as having an eating disorder. And, it took me years to accept that, yeah, I really did have a problem with starving myself."
"You talk about intuitive eating, meaning that you should just eat what you feel like. Do you have to train your body to want to eat right?
Kirby: You have to train yourself to recognize what your body needs. We're adults. If we think we want ice cream, it may be that we're craving fat in our diet, because we've been eating too much low-fat stuff. We have to relearn the language of our bodies.
I do think that food, especially foods that are so processed, can have addictive effects. So you eat Fritos, and then you want more Fritos. It's almost like a drug.
Kirby: But I think you learn [with intuitive eating] that if you eat too many Fritos you feel awful.
Has that actually been your experience?
Kirby: I had Brussels sprouts for dinner the other night, because you know what? They looked pretty."
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