how many existential crisis-es are there

[I Love Beef]

Going through the second right now in my early 30's. Kind of accepting it now a days, but it kills me is that I had plenty of opportunities to do what I wanted in my early 20's but squandered it due to my ego.

How I was cured:

What are you, seventeen? Worshipping idols is a sure-fire way to fuck your life up; they're not real, you're not seeing the truth about them and you wouldn't really want to be them if you knew what it was like.

The next existential crisis is when you realize that your worldview is so tiny and irrelevant that it's laughable and your crises are entirely a product of your own delicate ego. The good news is that this isn't really a catastrophe; it's the start of actually growing up and becoming a functioning person.

Go get a mentor; somebody who can help guide you through the intricacies of life or a profession but whose achievements are something you can emulate or even surpass. Quit looking to fake people for guidance; there's millions of real people who can help you flourish.

Honestly, I'm over the hill with this shit thanks to Exigent Circumcisions. And I'm not talking about how all my aliments have been cured and I can see life in a whole new way.

Spoiler: how we all have problems

I honestly have a jealousy problem. My tendencies to lurk about the net also go towards some people I used to hang out with in high school, and yeah, with what I have today, it's kind of lacking. I don't have a degree, I'm not rich, I'm not accomplished, and I'm nearing 30, "how can I please a woman with the way I am today", etc."

I nearly went insane several weeks back because I did accomplish something I really wanted, but something darker inside of me wanted a magic bullet, a fix it all, an instant lifechanger. While reality really says: "Life goes on, that's bullshit. Eat the bullshit down and you're going to get fucked." "Why isn't my life like a paradise? Something perfect?", I would bitterly say.

And when I read that post, in turn, my superego said: "No. What you have is a lot better than what most people's lives have. Hell, plenty of people wish they had your life. Shut up and keep moving." I go to read up on Dolph Lungren and other celebrities. Do I want a life of abuse? They fucking won their fame and fortune through hard work and moving ahead, being persistent and smart.

I came to realize that I'm not just alone in my problems, and that we all suffer from something related. My problems are also related to dreams and goals when I was in high school, and I'll say that I am still chasing the dream. I don't feel bad because everyone else has devolved into garbage and thrown their dreams all away. Several artists I've praised back in the day for drawing anime and doing art so well have chased the bullshit of trying to be an artist that they are not- They have not gone outside of their comfort zones, and they've taken for granted something they were talented with. One asshole I knew was linked to a major scandal that happened a few years back. I won't go off on the details but I'll hint that it has to do with the attempts at making a personal privately ownable portable plane for civilian use. I'm sure he will have to live with that for the rest of his life.

Maybe it's me too, but I can name off a lot of things I should be grateful for. I am not in debt and just owe bills. I still value what everyone just disposes of on the side of the road and want to learn why it's so great. I have a family that loves me and want me to succeed. I have friends who are good people and are outstanding people. I have talents and great abilities I know can outlast any time in the spotlight after those 15 minutes and can get me out of a tight situation when fortune as fleeting as it is goes on to the next person. I am not an exceptionally tard tistic idiot who posts up embarrassing and exploitable information on the internet. I wanted to spend my 20s pursuing spiritual goals and realizing what the hell is inside of me, and I feel all the more better for it.

Who cares if I'm this old? I'm glad I made it out without making potential children of mine bastard offspring living second rate and being forced into a dead end job with no way out. This is my life, and I chose and made it this way and I'll own up to it. I don't know what the future holds but I'll chase what I want in this life legitimately. I don't care if I outlast or outgrow what I associate with and enjoy. As long as I live those such thing don't die off either.

I admit, to be where I am at, you will have to question a lot of things in your world, even to things about yourself. It is not a hard path but it is a long path. You might not get answers immediately. You will still have to deal with life and its imperfections. You might even have to be rid of some comforts and material aspects to move forward. You might even get lost. But look deep inside and don't be attached too much to what the world outside wants of you, expects of you. If you need help, just ask. And when you come to your answers, don't go full tard. I don't have all the answers either. Just live life.

 

[Exigent Circumcisions]

You might not get answers immediately.

I sure as hell haven't; I don't even know if I have most of them yet.

You will still have to deal with life and its imperfections.

Which is good because unless a person is a hedonistic shit they'd kill themselves from boredom. We live to set things right, I wot.

But look deep inside and don't be attached too much to what the world outside wants of you, expects of you.

Agreed, be in the world but not of the world.

don't go full tard.

And when you do (I did, still do sometimes) take a step back, re-calibrate and get back to it.

Thanks for the kind words, @I Love Beef , glad somebody found it helpful.

 

[Autocrat]

The first existential crisis you realize life is meaningles

The second existential crisis you realize youre not going to be anything special in life like the idols you worship.

Im almost done with the second.


What comes next

Wow. I don't really know how to approach this kind of idiocy, but I'll just say

1. When I hear something to the affect of "Life is meaningless", I like to think of the Sam Harris rebuttal 'Tell that to your hand when it's placed on a burning stove' - To us, our life has absolute meaning.
2. Existenial crises are as many and varied as there are minds