Then do one of two things:
1) Give up. Honestly, completely, give up. Don't try or make any attempt to improve yourself. Subscribe to the belief that your life is shit, you are shit, and nothing will change that. This means that any whining on the internet about it is as useless as screaming into the void because you have already made the decision to wither away into nothing.
2) Fucking fight. Struggle a long, hard, bloody fight. Because if you don't fight then you're just going to die in more ways than one. You will fuck up along the way, but we learn when we fuck up. We learn how to avoid fucking up in the future. The struggle is a bitch, but it's the only way out.
So make your choice, Connor, because you can't have both.