❄️ Snowflake Alyssa Waldrop / Vade / Scoutgender / AutisticLeafeon / SpiritLore / Zexper - Kiwi Farms' Favorite Otherkin Tumblrina

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You know, I was thinking... Vade doesn't act like they properly mourned Kennith.

Vade avoids anything that could possibly remind them of him: his favorite games, anime, even his picture, they're all enough to "trigger" Vade. But I don't think it's triggering.

I think it's grief.

Vade doesn't handle grief very well. The fact that they didn't go to Kennith's funeral (if they were even invited in the first place) means that Vade never really got to say goodbye. In Vade's mind, Kennith is a corpse (hence corpse trigger), and is no longer the boy they loved.

Vade never talks about the memories they shared. Vade only brings him up for sympathy, or when they crave physical contact. When their co-worker started talking about him, Vade cut it off completely by saying he was dead.

He's just a corpse. A corpse with its head blown off.

My dad died last year. For Christmas, my aunt got my sister and I a photo album each for, filled with pictures of Dad and us as kids. She also gave me a framed photo of my Dad. On his birthday, she gave me a necklace with a little pewter charm shaped like a drumset, and his birthstone. I wear it every day.

I don't ask people to tag "tw: drums," or "tw: Ravens," or "tw: heart attack." I see things that remind me of Dad and I get sad, but I also try to remember the good times. I don't want to remember my dad as the cold, clammy corpse in his coffin, though the smell and the feel of his hand still haunts me. But I carry him in my heart. So long as I'm alive to tell stories about him, he won't truly be dead.

Of course, Vade's case is more complicated, since Vade pushed Kennith away and abused him. Vade knows that they fucked up, that they contributed to everything that made him miserable. Mourning him would mean confronting that Vade fucked up. Mourning him would mean no running away any time Vade sees something that remotely reminds them of Kennith. Vade has avoided the grieving process for so long, I wonder if they're capable of it.

Vade would rather shove the memories of Kennith into the closet with all their skeletons than keep him alive through their heart.

And I find that incredibly sad.
 
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Glad to see KiwiBigJ has got asks working, Jaimas, but I for one would like to see more impassioned skeleton activism. How, for example, has no one mentioned what good dancers skeletons are? There's a rich skeletal tradition of music and dance that flesh-bearers ignore. I mean, look at this moving cultural ceremony!
 
Lurker said:
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1. Shut up, you whiny pile of cunt discharge.
2. But the cold hard truth is that you're not dysphoric, and you're also not cute.
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Wait I thought people with dysphoria were truscum or whatever. Doesn't Vade hate those?

I'mma need some Cliff's Notes on this shit to keep up with everything.
 
Hey there. Long time lurker, first time poster. I see you guys kinda commenting on why people would like Vade's posts, and as I've been on the Tumblr front lines for a while as an observer, I'll give the general reason as to why. Forgive me if this is redundant or disjointed; I'm a bit nervous talking about it myself.

The culture on Tumblr is generally anxiety-packed - perhaps it was just absorbed into the general culture of it all from those who really did have those symptoms. Most of the people who like Vade's posts generally want to help them, or want to baby them or whatever the hell. It's a bit more than a hugbox, I think, since these people generally tell themselves something increasingly bad will happen if they don't help (I'd put a bet down that 90% of the people who like their posts think if they don't, Vade will kill themselves or cut themselves) rather than just blindly agreeing to their cause/post/hating them and wanting to see them suffer. I assume many of the people on Tumblr either have a anxiety disorder, or, again, just got it absorbed through the culture and most people fall into line with that (like teenagers acting like other teenagers they want to impress).

Again, sorry if this is a bit redundant.
 
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QPP means Queer Platonic Partnership

Or in other words "friendship"
BUT ITS BETTER BECAUSE IT IS QUEER AND NOT SCUMMY CIS, GOD.
 
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I totally get where you're coming from and I legitimately agree. However I'm not sure how easy it would be for Vade to fix that issue. I've got kind of a similar situation going on. When I lose friends, either through time or from (as has happened to me depressingly often) them literally deciding they don't want to be friends, I get this sort of feeling like "if it's not the case now, it never was" and so I kind of start to forget what it was like to have them as a friend. I can recount memories and stuff but for the most part, since they're not my friend now, to me there's no point in thinking about the memories often, since I can never bring them up with the person again for whatever reason. My "best friend" decided last January that she literally didn't want to be friends anymore and I just completely avoid thinking about her if I can help it because even if they're good memories, they're "worthless" since I'm not friends with her now. I wonder if Vade might not feel the same way, albeit on a much more serious level (in no way am I equating losing friends to people dying).
 
DocScuttleButt said:
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QPP means Queer Platonic Partnership

Or in other words "friendship"
BUT ITS BETTER BECAUSE IT IS QUEER AND NOT SCUMMY CIS, GOD.
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"I've considered becoming friends with my dealer."

Go for it Alyssa, You two deserve each other. At least you'll finally have one friend.
 
Altissimo said:
I totally get where you're coming from and I legitimately agree. However I'm not sure how easy it would be for Vade to fix that issue. I've got kind of a similar situation going on. When I lose friends, either through time or from (as has happened to me depressingly often) them literally deciding they don't want to be friends, I get this sort of feeling like "if it's not the case now, it never was" and so I kind of start to forget what it was like to have them as a friend. I can recount memories and stuff but for the most part, since they're not my friend now, to me there's no point in thinking about the memories often, since I can never bring them up with the person again for whatever reason. My "best friend" decided last January that she literally didn't want to be friends anymore and I just completely avoid thinking about her if I can help it because even if they're good memories, they're "worthless" since I'm not friends with her now. I wonder if Vade might not feel the same way, albeit on a much more serious level (in no way am I equating losing friends to people dying).
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That's different. Your friend left you by choice. She's not dead, and she sounds like a shitty friend anyway if she just cut you off.

Vade loved Kennith. Yes, he chose to die, but it wasn't to spite Vade.

I don't know if Vade is capable of handling grief. Vade doesn't seem capable of empathy. It's likely that Vade could still very well be milking Kennith's death for sympathy five years from now, and still avoiding memories of him.

It's just kind of worrying, I guess.
 
Coldgrip said:
Nah, I've got a feeling that Vade's dealer only likes to hang around with her because she does stupid things that he likes to laugh at.
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Witness accounts from earlier in the thread have stated that Maro is drinking the punch in the Cult of Vade and is just as much a shitbag. Alyssa apparently turned him angelkin or some such bullshit.
 
Meowthkip said:
That's different. Your friend left you by choice. She's not dead, and she sounds like a shitty friend anyway if she just cut you off.

Vade loved Kennith. Yes, he chose to die, but it wasn't to spite Vade.

I don't know if Vade is capable of handling grief. Vade doesn't seem capable of empathy. It's likely that Vade could still very well be milking Kennith's death for sympathy five years from now, and still avoiding memories of him.

It's just kind of worrying, I guess.
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Actually, that sort of is reminiscent of how OPL handles death, when you stop and think about it....
 
AnOminous said:
What exactly is a "receipt blog?" Is this unique to tumblr?
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I don't know who started it (it might have been Riley, that's where I first saw the term being used), but it basically is a blog that collects evidence of a person's wrongdoing, usually by screenshots and reblogs. Riley would often be called out on their shit and angrily demand that their accuser "show [them] the receipts." Riley also collected receipts and would announce as much when they got an anon asking questions they didn't like. TF2FIP and FurryScumbags were basically receipt blogs for entire fandoms.

Despite Riley being almost universally hated on Tumblr, the term stuck. There are a ton of receipt blogs out there, of varying quality.

So these Tumblr users are basically having receipt blog wars, collecting evidence on either side, pro-Vade and anti-Vade.
 
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