Does anyone else feel lied to by trans community? It never gets better. (
self.MtF)
submitted an hour ago by
stupidstories
The further into my transition I get the worst my life gets. It's so hard to come to grips with that I'm ugly and unloveable. I've never had a bf and I never will.
Even if I detransition no man is ever going to want to be with me. But I don't want to detransition. I just don't want to be ugly and disgusting and unloveable.
I have the perfect mixture of shitty personality and ugly face and disgusting body. That no man wants to even get close to. I will never be a mother. I will never be a wife. I will never be a girlfriend. It's hard to accept that and it's a bitter pill to swallow. But I don't want to lie to myself anymore. I don't want to be lied to by the trans community.
I know people here will downvote me because people only want to read positive things. It's strange how terfs treated me with more kindness and love than the trans community. Isn't that fucked up? I don't know what to do anymore. I know this will probably also be posted all over the internet. But I don't care anymore.
I'm a useless drain on society. I don't regret getting the surgery and I don't want my penis back. I know I got rid of the only thing guys liked about me. But I don't want just casual sex. I want love.
What the fuck am I supposed to do now? Is death really the only solution?
LazyLezzzbian 10 points an hour ago
Regardless of what you look like, if you constantly put yourself down for no reason, people will avoid you. Work on improving yourself on a personal (not physical) level and you'll be more likely to make connections and find people.
TERFs prey on the negative energy you give out, don't give it out.
misscolinsxx 3 points an hour ago
People aren't attracted to negativity, in fact alot of people avoid it as much as they can. Try working on yourself and having a more positive outlook and things will get better.
stupidstories[
S] 1 point an hour ago
It's my time to die