Ok, this is the only time i'm gonna do this. so i found this "troon" thread about me? i thought i would address this
it's really upsetting to see things like this and it makes me lose faith in humanity. this makes me afraid of being out in the world.
I think it's very wrong and fucked up that you go on random trans related parts of the internet to talk shit about them. i don't disagree with what you people say about AGP's using a fetish to be in women spaces. but not all of us are like this. i'm NOT part of the trans subreddit. just bc i ask questions about being trans doesn't mean i'm part of it. i don't really have trans friends. i don't really know anyone on the trans subreddits. just bc i ask questions doesn't mean i take what other trans people say at face value. i honestly just go there to get another prospective. i occasionally post there, that's it.
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it's isn't right that you people randomly come after me and attack me for having bpd and being trans. i'm not the only trans person or "troon" and really not the only one with a cluster b personality disorder. big fucking deal. going after my reddit is a low blow. i use reddit as well as youtube for negativity, my toxcity. where i try to get attention, vent, and do things that a "attention whore" and "narcissist" would do. i do it on the internet so i'm not as toxic to be around irl. i literally feel like i can't go anywhere and not be ridiculed. like, holy shit, i'm talking and venting about my mental health and a subreddit called r/mentalhealth. and i even get attacked for that. i get that it's the internet and it's public but this really doesn't sit well with me.
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I've never self diagnosed myself with anything. dumbfuck. one of those screenshots were taken out of context. i was venting about my suicidal ideation and someone said i sound like i have bpd, i should get diagnosed(this is before i was actually diagnosed). i said a "it's just a label" bc me simply getting a diagnoses wouldn't help my constant suicidal ideation. i never self diagnosed myself with any disorder. not gender dysphoria or any disorder i have. and i also never help at a old person home? wtf, idk if what i said came off that way but that's not what i meant, i fucking hate old people. either way, i'm not an evil person bc i have bpd and i'm trans, and i'm really sick of the pesudo intellectuals who like to tell me what's going through my head. i doubt any of you have any degree in psychology. i'd recommend you just stop trying to gaslight me and tell me who i am and how my mind works.
i don't have a "girl fantasy" wtf does that even mean? before i transitioned, i always got mistaken for a girl. people always bullied me for being "gay" and being trapped in the closet bc my mannerisms and the way carried myself. i've always dressed very androgynously and feminine before transition, i'm alternative, so i've always wore makeup and painted my nails black. i don't have any fantasy about being a girl. i don't see "feminine clothing", painting my nails and wearing makeup as "girly" i just wear wtf i want and i've always been like that. the most i did was take hormones and switch my pronouns. and then people on a fourm try to gaslight me and say that i just have a fantasy about being a girl. wtf i can't win. i wouldn't care about being called a guy. i really wouldn't. but it's the fact that people like you try to take away every part of identity and say that the feminine things i do are just me "pretending to be female" when honestly it's just freedom of expression and my personality. not everything i do is attributed to me being trans.
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Also, calling me a troon? FOH. besides being called a guy at home, everyone thinks and sees me as a female in the outside world and i don't even really have to try, i pass quite well as i already did before i started hormones. sorry that i don't look like a doll in my youtube videos. maybe i should spend an hour doing makeup at 4am to make a 30 youtube video. you people are so unrealistic. i'm not about put in that much effort to "pass" unless i'm going somewhere. coming at me for doxxing people when i was being sent death threats by them? i'm sorry i was defending myself but that's just me acting "tough" i guess.
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this is the last thing i'm bringing up. i'm really sick and tired of people attacking for some stupid blaire white video i did. i use to have satirical youtubes called mindoutofsync and burnthebible666. i wanted more clickbait so i made a image of me slitting blare whites throat (bc i use to be really edgy). and it worked. i was 17 when i did this and i didn't think people would take it seriously. it's really unfair and fucked up that people are still coming at me for this. i was a teenager in high school getting harassed by youtubers with 100s of thousands of subscribers. even if the threat was real, coming at a 17 year old with no following, no subscribers, or platform to defend themselves is really scummy shit. and it's even more scummy to come at with this shit in present day. i'm literally 20 years old now. do you think it's cool to attack me for things that happened 3 fucking years ago, when i was child? i honestly don't see why i'm on this lowcow forum. seeing as how most of the things i've done were me being a attention whoring troll and not really meaning what i was saying "besides the reddit posts". it's not like i'm a furry or someone that has a fucked up fetish or chris chan. i'm someone whose trans and has bpd and did things for attention. big fucking deal.
I really recommend you people find peace in your lifes and find a way to be accepting of other people. most of these people you post about come off freaks but they aren't harming anyone. like, posting innocent people's photos to make fun of them is really sick and very immature. like are you in middle school? pls find peace <3 <3 <3
