Kiwi farms saved my relationship.

unclehams said:
2) More about my life... Well not much to be said. I had a lot of childhood trauma around age 8-12 which is why I hate boogie for monetizing it and farming pity and money from his viewers.
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PS real child hood trauma , not fake shit mom yelling at me etc.. I hate people who try to profit off it when it involves more than 1 person
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I want to know how to be fat and somehow connect a porn addiction and Boogie. The two things that really shouldn't mix.

Eh, I am using reverse psychology, doc.
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But they do and yes I am still a fatty however I have lost in 2 years almost 100 pounds. I was 412 and Im 310 now. I did not require surgery either, just will power.

Why did I trade boogie lies research for porn addiction? Its laughable that I made a direct trade. In the grand scheme of things you could say that I do and give some credit to my fun @ the farms and samandtolki however the thought of losing a women I love and realizing my my emotional selfishness is a big part of what caused me to recognize my wrongs and attempt to correct them.



The hardest part of all of this is seeing my self in boogie and realizing that money and success wont ever help if you are broken inside. It may prop us up for awhile and appear normal but inside we are broken.

I thought I saw a fat guy trying to lose weight and struggling like me....

Now that my eyes are open I see a man who lose his wife, regains weight, emotionally selfish so much so that he cant keep a relationship. He has had tons of people help and even gastric bypass surgery but cant stop bypassing the gym instead of the buffet table.


I see a man now who may have had a hard childhood and some trauma and he uses it as an excuse for current behavior. He has no idea what real childhood trauma is. Try watching your mom kill a man less than 10 ft from you and then shoot three other people killing one of them.

Spend your life growing up in a group home in the town that it happens and having death threats and dead animals with your name attached on a card hung from trees outside your group home.

Try having that time so stuck in your life that you remember the names and faces of your 6th grade class mates but can only remember 2-3 from your senior year in high school...


Yea real nasty shit. fuck reddit. Let me tell you guys something. To out boogie in a video is to pull up real demons in my life and some of it I can because ive dealt with it. While every one is different, boogie is weak sauce because ive never once used it as a crutch or excuse for bad behavior...

So yea im proud I traded one fucking addiction that was keeping ME, JUST ME from a good relationship with a women. First time EVER a women who loves and understands me. I've not had much luck with women in my life " thanks mom" so yea im proud im addicted to sniffing out bullshit Boogie has many of the problems I had but the difference is I wanted to change. I cant change the past but the hell if ill bring it up every fucking time to explain away why I did this or that.


If he had gotten over it he could talk about it to help others but he hasn't gotten over it because he keeps using it as an excuse for bad behavior. if he really wanted to use it to help kids than he would drag his hamster flabby ass to a group home, foster homes or juvenile detention center and join in on one of their weekly group counsel sessions. Bee a guest speaker at an alternative school or be a big brother to a kid in need.


I bought into his bullshit, kiwi opened by eyes. Why wouldn't I want to include them in some small part for my trading of addictions.... At least my new addiction might save someone a few bucks ... god knows its saved me a sore penis and hollow feelings.
 
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unclehams said:
But they do and yes I am still a fatty however I have lost in 2 years almost 100 pounds. I was 412 and Im 310 now. I did not require surgery either, just will power.

Why did I trade boogie lies research for porn addiction? Its laughable that I made a direct trade. In the grand scheme of things you could say that I do and give some credit to my fun @ the farms and samandtolki however the thought of losing a women I love and realizing my my emotional selfishness is a big part of what caused me to recognize my wrongs and attempt to correct them.



The hardest part of all of this is seeing my self in boogie and realizing that money and success wont ever help if you are broken inside. It may prop us up for awhile and appear normal but inside we are broken.

I thought I saw a fat guy trying to lose weight and struggling like me....

Now that my eyes are open I see a man who lose his wife, regains weight, emotionally selfish so much so that he cant keep a relationship. He has had tons of people help and even gastric bypass surgery but cant stop bypassing the gym instead of the buffet table.


I see a man now who may have had a hard childhood and some trauma and he uses it as an excuse for current behavior. He has no idea what real childhood trauma is. Try watching your mom kill a man less than 10 ft from you and then shoot three other people killing one of them.

Spend your life growing up in a group home in the town that it happens and having death threats and dead animals with your name attached on a card hung from trees outside your group home.

Try having that time so stuck in your life that you remember the names and faces of your 6th grade class mates but can only remember 2-3 from your senior year in high school...


Yea real nasty shit. fuck reddit. Let me tell you guys something. To out boogie in a video is to pull up real demons in my life and some of it I can because ive dealt with it. While every one is different, boogie is weak sauce because ive never once used it as a crutch or excuse for bad behavior...

So yea im proud I traded one fucking addiction that was keeping ME, JUST ME from a good relationship with a women. First time EVER a women who loves and understands me. I've not had much luck with women in my life " thanks mom" so yea im proud im addicted to sniffing out bullshit Boogie has many of the problems I had but the difference is I wanted to change. I cant change the past but the hell if ill bring it up every fucking time to explain away why I did this or that.


If he had gotten over it he could talk about it to help others but he hasn't gotten over it because he keeps using it as an excuse for bad behavior. if he really wanted to use it to help kids than he would drag his hamster flabby ass to a group home, foster homes or juvenile detention center and join in on one of their weekly group counsel sessions. Bee a guest speaker at an alternative school or be a big brother to a kid in need.


I bought into his bullshit, kiwi opened by eyes. Why wouldn't I want to include them in some small part for my trading of addictions.... At least my new addiction might save someone a few bucks ... god knows its saved me a sore penis and hollow feelings.
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What's the most degenerate type of porn you've whacked off to?
 
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Ps you can call bullshit and that's fine but its a common manipulation to get me to reveal further information... While I am no longer embarrassed for having a mom in prison, Id rather collect my thoughts, do more research and make a video calling boogie out on a very personal level . I hate tiktok but want him to not have any platform to spew his bullshit.
 
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Ps you can call bullshit and that's fine but its a common manipulation to get me to reveal further information... While I am no longer embarrassed for having a mom in prison, Id rather collect my thoughts, do more research and make a video calling boogie out on a very personal level . I hate tiktok but want him to not have any platform to spew his bullshit.
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Will you post your video here when it is done?
 
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unclehams said:
But they do and yes I am still a fatty however I have lost in 2 years almost 100 pounds. I was 412 and Im 310 now. I did not require surgery either, just will power.
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Congratulations, that's an impressive feat, hopefully you carry on with the weightloss plan, because it's obviously working.
unclehams said:
As long as kiwi farms wont ban me for spamming. sure. I'm not trying to be some big YouTube star or make money off it. I have a job im very content with... Just a heads up on that...
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You're not spamming, and as long as you don't post multiple times in a row I can't see any reason why you'd be banned.

What kind of work do you do?
 
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