>nonbinary tittiesOh my god it's fucking real what the fuck
i hope she's rubbing lotion. isn't incest illegal in illinois?>nonbinary titties
Nothing quite says "I'm sorry for being a sexual degenerate" quite like a nude that looks more like a crime scene image.
The scarier question is tho, where did that 'healthy load of sperm' come from? She only lives with her brother right?
*Sweet Home Alabama intensifies*
Incest is actually illegal in Alabama.
"People saying critical things about me and my actions hurts my fee-fees! Also, I'm not going to change myself or my actions, and plan to keep doing things that the internet finds hilarious and telling the internet about them!"
I literally gagged reading that what the actual fuck-
You absolute heathen. I honked when I saw the Jacques pillow.
Given her poor hygiene and various folds for easy storage, it could be a variety of things. For all, we know it could be a load of her dogs slobber on those saggy udders.
It’s probably Bad Dragon’s ‘cum lube’, she got a toy from them recently right?>nonbinary titties
Nothing quite says "I'm sorry for being a sexual degenerate" quite like a nude that looks more like a crime scene image.
The scarier question is tho, where did that 'healthy load of sperm' come from? She only lives with her brother right?
"It just...I guess I can't...anymore. I went back to Ruben when...like in...a week ago. And people got all pissy about it, like 'Oh you're--I thought you were improving and stuff' well, yeah. I was desperate ((LOL)) I realize that. And I didn't think about his...past...so...." I'unno. Maybe I've just screwed up...my life." well you're here for the laughs."...those were the boobs and belly, I think...yeah..." ((talking about her art))...man. You don't understand. Y'all don't ever understand. I mean most of ya don't wanna go up to me, anyways..." I wanna share the screenshot. You--you all planned this." it's a good thing I took that screenshot to prove, 'hey this is what you're DOING', AND...yeah. DO NOT PLAN ON TROLLING ON ME! Because YOU'RE a fuckin' monster. You're fuckin' monsters. Yourselves. You're all a buncha monsters yourselves, if you just plan on trolling me like that. And the 9gag troll, WOW. Thanks a lot! I mean, thanks a lot for makin' me believe that there's pedophiles on there, and...MMMM-HMMMM! THANKS A LOT! For makin' me belive that. FUCK you. FUCK. YOU. 'Scuze ME for bein' so gullible, THAT'S MY FUCKIN' AUTISTIC BRAIN THAT I CAN'T FUCKIN' HELP!!! I CAN'T FUCKIN' HELP IT! YOU THINK IT'S FUNNY?! DO YOU THINK THIS SHIT IS FUNNY?! HOW'D YOU LIKE IT IF I FUCKIN' SUED YOU? ONCE I GET A FUCKIN' JOB?! I WILL FUCKIN' SUE YOU GUYS IF I COULD! BUT I'M TOO FUCKIN' NICE ABOUT IT AND I'M JUST GONNA LET YOU TALK SHIT. I WOULDA SUED RUBEN, AND YOU WOULDA LOVED IT. YOU WOULDA FUCKIN' LOVED IT. BUT NO, YOU HAD TO FUCKIN' BLACKMAIL ME AND BE LIKE, 'OH, SHE'S AN ABUSER! HOLY SHIT! SHE'S AN ABUSER! SHE ABUSED JULIE-ANN!'" ((Her niece's name I guess? Also, RIP headphones users))
I'm never doing this again lolI was thinking the same thing when I saw that the other day, funnily enough
My own comments will be in intalics / double-parentheses. I'll just do it in boat-rocker's style since you guys are probably more used to that. I might go into more detail though because I want you guys to see how unhinged she sounds here. So you'll have to skim, probably.
This took forever to scribe because of all her pauses, trip-ups, and run-on sentences. And her awkward phrasing
]00:00 - 1:20 (Intro)
>Butchering a Three Days Grace song while she sets up her canvas ((Well at least it's not her nightcore rave shit))
"Lemme start the song over again"
>Starts song again
"We're gonna listen to Three Days Grace One X"
>Butchers the song some more
01:21 - 04:03 (Pedo Accusations)
>Stress sigh
"Just not one of the best nights. I posted a tweet about...the issues I had...I'mma turn this down"
>Turns volume down, starts singing badly again
>Loud stress sigh that sounds labored
"The issues...were my behaviors and from the past, and people callin' me a pedophile? For it? But I'm not attracted to kids. I'm not...the type...that would want to be with kids? Like that? No. No. But...I made an apology about my behaviors...and not gonna do 'em again. I admitted to my mistakes. I haven't drawn anything not safe for work about...Spyro the Dragon? Or Nina Cortex in not safe for work situations. Or..."
>sigh
"...Coco Bandicoot, none of that, those are considered controversial now..."
>Another labored sigh
"...Because of their age. Well...I'm gonna try to find a reference of Jay...umm..."
>LOUD sigh
"I got a LOT to unpack. Unless it's gonna add fuel to the fire ((Spoiler: it will, stop sharing this shit Manda)). To my reputation. But I'm at that point I don't care...at the moment? I'll care later. That's for sure. And..."
>sigh
04:10 - 05:30 (She Looked Again)
"I looked at kiwifarms again...in months. And gone up to a hundred-some-odd-sixty-seventy-some-odd pages now. I'm like, jesus fuckin' christ, they...they just, looove to stalk me. I know I should not be talkin' about them. But I guess from what somebody said on twitter, I'm obsessing with--about 'em...because...well the reason why I've been quote-unquote 'obsessing' about them...is due to the fact that in my mind, shit repeats over and over and over and over again. And...I can't let shit go sometimes ((No shit, really?)). A LOT of times, actually. So..."
>sigh
"I dunno. They say my body is damaged ((@DrainRedRain lol)), they say that I look like a fuckin' garbage Pokeymon...like wow, you're body-shaming me. ((She acts as if that ISN'T exactly what people are TRYING to do here, like it's some kind of revelation)) That part I'm just gonna have to ignore. But some things...I dunno. I had to point out some things.
05:32 - 09:03 (Normal People are so Aggressive!!)
"I just wish people would--more people would come, to the stream? Because...
>long pause, stress sigh
"I get you don't--you all don't like me. Because I'm self-ship and things like that and...I'mma check my tiktok."
"I know most of you followin' me probably for...umm...people think I'm a fuckin' idiot. Well I am, to an extent. I have common sense out in the streets, but online I don't. So...I'm just not normal. I'll never be normal."
"I want to be normal...to an extent, but normal people are aggressive people. That think...it's okay to make fun of people, it's okay to...it's okay to be aggressive towards everybody, it's okay to be mean to everybody, it oh--you know THAT shit is UNACCEPTABLE. That's what normal is nowadays. And...that's what the kiwifarmers are is normal people who...have nothin' better to do. And...they don't accept people of autism...don't accept people of...like, people who are odd, or...normal people would, like, say that, y'know, 'OHHHH this person I don't like this person because they look funny, or they act funny, I don't like them because of this...this specific detail. And their personality is shit no matter what they do."
>sigh
((I honestly have no words for this, just laughs))
"I dunno why they all--who is this one person? Who is this one person? Like...I'm gonna find out."
"Who is this one person? I'm gonna try to find out who this one person is. If I can figure out how to...*unintelligible* lurks...okay. Another *unintelligible* It says one person. But there's two people. Okay. That's odd...well, if you're here for the laughs,
((I'm assuming she's talking about her viewers))
09:06 - 11:44 (I'M NONBINARY GUYS!!)
"I'm happy...with Leastus now."
>sigh
"People believe I'm not nonbinary. You can be feminine-looking and be nonbinary, okay? Shut the fuck up about it, okay? Shut the fuck up about who--y'know, how you s'pposed to dress, or how ya supposed to look to be nonbinary! Shut up. Y'know, that shit pisses me the fuck off! So much that you'd say, 'oh this is how you're supposed to look to be nonbinary!' You don't owe androgyny to be nonbinary! It's a mindset-deal!"
"I'm sorry, I'm just rantin'. I'm just rantin' so much. It is a--it is a mindset, not a fucking expre--outer expression. Gender is...is actually a mindset. Ordeal."
>Goes on about her artwork and how she'll have to make the head smaller
"But yeah. It's just ridiuculous how people think that, oh you gotta be a--look a certain way to be nonbinary, like you just need to shut the fuck up. Quit judging. Like...I seen a guy in a dress today. At Walmart. And I was like 'wow. *obnoxious tard laugh*' He...he pulled it off with his size. I'm not judging, but he--y'know, he looked pretty interesting, like this guy was...y'know, he was skinny...type, and he wore a long dress. Like, that's a first time I ever seen a cross-dressin' guy. Like I dunno if he was trans? I dunno if he was...wantin' to be female, or he's just cross-dressing. Or if he's nonbinary. Y'know, I couldn't really...I'm sorry to assume his pronouns, but...it was interesting. I mean nothin' against...cross-dressers, but I'unno that's the first time I seen one."
"That was the first time I seen one."
11:46 - 14:05 (More BS About Gender Expression)
"Speaking of gender...and umm, yeah. Gender and uh, expression. So..."
>long pause
"This is the confession of Jacques--Jay, whoever you wanna call...him. That he don't wanna be part of the polygamy. And he wants to be with Leah. M'kay I wanna be with Leah now, I don't wanna be with--in this polygamy relationship, you and Leastus can just...go. I'm leavin'. We're leavin'. Y'know..."
"I'm still nonbinary. I'm still nonbinary in the mind. I'ts a mindset. Not an expression."
"Well...people really need to get it outta their fuckin' asses...that they think it's an expression. Stop that shit. It's fuckin'...I'unno it's really toxic mindset."
"Really a fuckin' toxic mindset. Umm..."
14:08 - 18:45 ("Riot For Peace")
>butchers more songs with terrible singing
"I'm too awkward to society. Maybe I should be alone. I live with a buncha rejects. They just say..... I live with a family of rejects. Social rejects. And I'm one of 'em. One of those rejects. Societal rejects."
>Singing Riot
"There's times I feel like I wanna riot for peace" ((Confused_Nick_Young.gif))
"Maybe we will. One day."
>Big sigh
>Big vape drag
"This one works better for me. And I think it was better to post that, umm, thing that could possibly cause--add fuel to the fire, because I need to let that--let my feelings out about this *indignant sigh* situation."
"Okay, those were the...
" 'Oh they can get arrested for that!' Like, YEAH, uhhh I get that, but...umm...it's fictional? ((the double-quote here is in a mocking voice. She's going to use this voice a few times so anytime she does is going to be surrounded in brackets [] ))"
"Talkin' about Leastus's really huge amount of pubes showing. Well, '[Don't let the kids see that!]' shut up. Please. Shut up.
18:47 - 20:37 (Epstein is Worse Than Me, Why Don't You Moralfag at HIM?)
>more singing
"Cause...y'know, there's, like, people who, y'know, were part of the Epstein...situation, and you don't keep an eye on those people? *confused face* Instead, what about Lady Gaga? Or what about Katy Perry? Or...what about President Obama? They were part of the Epstein...trip. Epstein island trip. Or pedo island or whatever. And nobody bats an eye about it. ((What is she even going on about at this point in time, we don't give a rat's ass about Epstein. We're not here to be moralfags, just to point and laugh)) I believe it. I believe that they've been...part of it, so..."
>Takes a big vape hit
"But, yeah. Nobody gives a shit about that, but when they give a shit about people like me--lowlives, like me--'wow oh my god, this person's a horrible person!' they think I'm a horrible person. They paint me as a horrible person" ((Who's painting who as horrible again? Oh yeah, that's right. You. Quit oversharing on public internet spaces and your problems will be magically gone))
"I'm not that horrible; I'm not that good, either. I'm just neutral. Human. I worry about what other's think, yeah." ((Stop.)) "I worry about what...
20:40 - 22:33 (I Swear I Didn't Try to Age-Up a Minor Character Intentionally, Guys!)
>Mumbles something about her art and having to get rid of the bisexual tootpaste lady because it looks like her old kid oc Jayca or w/e
"Cause she looks like an old...Jayca, recolor."
>Mumbles about having to change head shape
"And it was an accident of that design, I didn't realize...that...THIS *shows toothpaste lady* right here, would cause a LOT of controversy. A LOT of controversy! Like they think, oh, I just think it looks a lot like a Jayca recolor like, what?! How? HOW?! How the fuck?!"
>VERY indignant sigh
>Mumbles about art some more
"But...Leah, is gonna be...the polygamous relationship did not work out. It did not work out. Like, with me, Leastus fell in love with me more than everybody else, in the storyline, and..."
>More singing as she draws Leah's eye in an awkward position on her head without trying to draw some kind of action lines as to where her face should be positioned ((Why. Just. Why.))
24:20 - 29:15 (I Know My Room is Gross But I Don't Really Feel Like Cleaning It Right Now)
*Referring to Leah* "She's sad about it."
"So pretty much, Leah is a throwaway character now. I thought I was gonna go places with Leah, but...didn't work out. Yeah. It's just. Y'know, she's very attracted to Jay, and I mean, the polygamous relationship did not work out. So...."
"So..."
>vape
"Some people think I, fuckin'...lost my job, because I drew dirty pictures. Like, no...I quit, I quit. I fucking quit. I don't mean to be a quitter, but...the attendance issue is an issue. That's it.
>sigh
"Hi, viewer number two, how ya doin'? Well, it's just...I'm gonna have to clean my room, people are gettin' sick and tired of my room bein' unclean. I still got a lot to do. While I get on my way, so...." ((No one's sick of anything, we just think it's fucking funny and gross. Like honestly how can anyone live in such a gross-ass room and feel good about themselves))
>unintelligible art mumbling
"Just...my room's just not clean, cause I was so busy with life, and, now, I have time to...well I got a few weeks til I can--to get it clean, and...."
*Under her breath* "It's a mess!"
"I'm ashamed, a little bit. I'm not proud, but I'm ashamed." ((I love how little sense this sentence makes))
30:48 - 41:06 (TARD RAGE)
"No, my hair's not the best in that one, purple--tiktok, but...fuck, Jesus christ shut up. '[Oh my hair is better than...her hair!]' ...shut up. Just shut up. I know my hair's not the best."
>Checks her cc, proceeds to make an ear-piercing hissing noise that's probably her sperg sound of disapproval
"Shut the fuck up, *unintelligible* I know this--I know you planned this on kiwifarms."
>types
"Wait a minute I'mma gonna share the screenshot. I'm gonna share the screenshot.
>Passive-aggressive typing
"Hold on, I'm gonna see which one...which one is it?" ((I guess she's trying to find @the sister fister 's post))
"You all planned this. Okay, let me see which one it is..."
"Let me find it...that one, yeah."
"You can fuck off."
>Even more passive-aggressive-r typing, it sounds like morse code at this point
>Stares intensely through the screen while popping her knuckles against her face ((I think))
>Makes a grumpycat face then takes a big drag
"Well. I'm sorry, but they planned this. They said 'oh my god Jacques killed himself all because you broke up with him you mon--you're a monster. *deep breath* And this is the screenshot I took. At this point, I want masses of people all at once sending 'Jacques killed himself because you broke up with him you monster and see how long it takes her to believe it's real and have another meltdown.' I had to send that screenshot, it's a good thing I put that screenshot there...BECAUSE, hey! I'm sayin' duh truth that how cruel the fuckin' kiwifarms are. They planned diss, an' didn't they have a rule on there that you're not supposed to plan trolling? HMMMM?! That guy should be terminated. For that. That's a--that's--that is trolling. That is trolling. Do not--it said on the rules on...kiwifarms 'do not plan on trolling.' Pretty much. Sooo they want me to have a meltdown, they want me to be in my worst...case scenario, and...they want me to be sad and everything, they want me to be down and everything. Like, they want me to...break down and cry again. I'm not dealin' with that shit nomore. I don't play. I don't fuckin' play. I don't fuckin' play. I had enough of their shit. So...
"THAT WAS NINE YEARS AGO!!! NINE!!! NO, I AM NOT OKAY WITH THE KIWIFARMERS!! TRYING TO FUCK WITH ME! I'M ABOUT READY TO HAVE A HEART ATTACK IF THIS DON'T STOP! Or an anxiety attack! I am NOT okay! They don't wanna contact me because 'oh you don't wanna talk to the cow'!" ((Amanda which one is it? Are we interacting with you or not? Dear god you can't have both))
"They don't wanna contact me. For help. They just wanna see me suffer! They're just sick fucks! I am NOT okay! Like, okay, lemme show you a screenshot, of, the um, what, uh, they planned on, hold on, lemme try to get the curious cat out. And this is what they fuckin' planned! They planned this! I had to take a screenshot of this! I won't zoom it in, but, this is what they fuckin' planned! This is what I posted! You can--you all planned this! You can FUCK OFF! I'm about--gonna have an anxiety attack or somethin'!"
"This is probably why I got Three Days Grace goin' on right now. Sorry, that was a gnat. I dunno what the fuck."
"I just wanted to--I just wanna be at peace! They call me a pedophile, because I did some like questionable things and I haven't done shit after, I've been behaving and shit! And I have APOLOGIZED for shit! Today, because of this...ISSUES they have! I have APOLOGIZED! You can see in the--earlier, I cried, I fuckin' CRIED I HAD TO HUG MY PLUSHIE, it that that embarrassment, they're like, they're probably talkin' shit about ME right now! I am NOT okay! I was gonna take a break from online for a little bit, but, I have to stream, like the art, I promised, pretty much, so...anyways, back to the art stream. I wanna go back to the art stream. Tryin' to calm--trynna calm down a little bit. Or no, I'm gonna find somethin'...I'm gonna have to find somethin'...I dunno, I need--I need happy hardcore."
>Scrolls through phone
41:12 - 43:10
"Oh, this song! Crazy-Ass BITCH, YEAH THIS IS MY FUCKIN' SONG RIGHT NOW!! *vape hit* Crazy-Ass Bitch. Yes. It should be...for my mental health. But I need a break. But, too BAD, my JOB comes in...the 17th, I want this job NOW! I wanna get on the job NOW! Like, I'm supposed to get on this job, but like, FUCK! Maybe I should take a few days. No, I'mma take a day. Try to, umm...I dunno. I'm just plannin' shit." I'm just not in my best ways, I mean they PLANNED this shit."
"Amazon. I'm not gonna say where AT, and the--which area, so, Amazon is gonna be where I'm workin' at." ((Side note. In a previous stream she said that she went to "Missouri" for her interview because that was the closest one to her, out in St. Louis I believe she said. So idk how Amazon's interview / hiring process works--like idk if she'll actually WORK in the one she interviewed at--but she said it was "far away." The closest Amazon to her in Missouri that's still "far away" is most likely the one in Hazelwood. Make what you want with that info.))
"I'm gonna start on the 17th, and, I'm gonna do my damn BEST at it. So...this will be my third job. So...my third job in my life. My third actual job." ((We get it already))
>BIG vape hit
"I'll be so happy to be there. After--I'll be so happy to get the fuck outta this, fuckin' hellhole. I already got the job, it's just that uhm, I already re--y'know I already got the job, it's just that I gotta wait til' I go OVER there to...yeah. To start on the 17th, so...I'm already hired."
That's where I'm stopping. There's some more shit in the last 15 to 20 minutes of the stream but it's not as juicy as the first half imho. You guys better be lucky I love you cause I don't do this shit for just about anyone
I was thinking the same thing when I saw that the other day, funnily enough
Edit: you guys are too kind, honestly
Sweet Christ on a Cracker! First off, I wanna say how brave of you to sit there and deal with the earrape of her tardrage and confusing English, that's gotta be traumatizing. It's enough to give someone a tumor. And 2nd, while reading through this, it's a masterpiece of both hilarious and tragic it would put Shakespeare to shame. Oh who am I kidding? XD Not even he would touch this bout of insanity.My own comments will be in intalics / double-parentheses. I'll just do it in boat-rocker's style since you guys are probably more used to that. I might go into more detail though because I want you guys to see how unhinged she sounds here. So you'll have to skim, probably.
This took forever to scribe because of all her pauses, trip-ups, and run-on sentences. And her awkward phrasing
]00:00 - 1:20 (Intro)
>Butchering a Three Days Grace song while she sets up her canvas ((Well at least it's not her nightcore rave shit))
"Lemme start the song over again"
>Starts song again
"We're gonna listen to Three Days Grace One X"
>Butchers the song some more
01:21 - 04:03 (Pedo Accusations)
>Stress sigh
"Just not one of the best nights. I posted a tweet about...the issues I had...I'mma turn this down"
>Turns volume down, starts singing badly again
>Loud stress sigh that sounds labored
"The issues...were my behaviors and from the past, and people callin' me a pedophile? For it? But I'm not attracted to kids. I'm not...the type...that would want to be with kids? Like that? No. No. But...I made an apology about my behaviors...and not gonna do 'em again. I admitted to my mistakes. I haven't drawn anything not safe for work about...Spyro the Dragon? Or Nina Cortex in not safe for work situations. Or..."
>sigh
"...Coco Bandicoot, none of that, those are considered controversial now..."
>Another labored sigh
"...Because of their age. Well...I'm gonna try to find a reference of Jay...umm..."
>LOUD sigh
"I got a LOT to unpack. Unless it's gonna add fuel to the fire ((Spoiler: it will, stop sharing this shit Manda)). To my reputation. But I'm at that point I don't care...at the moment? I'll care later. That's for sure. And..."
>sigh
04:10 - 05:30 (She Looked Again)
"I looked at kiwifarms again...in months. And gone up to a hundred-some-odd-sixty-seventy-some-odd pages now. I'm like, jesus fuckin' christ, they...they just, looove to stalk me. I know I should not be talkin' about them. But I guess from what somebody said on twitter, I'm obsessing with--about 'em...because...well the reason why I've been quote-unquote 'obsessing' about them...is due to the fact that in my mind, shit repeats over and over and over and over again. And...I can't let shit go sometimes ((No shit, really?)). A LOT of times, actually. So..."
>sigh
"I dunno. They say my body is damaged ((@DrainRedRain lol)), they say that I look like a fuckin' garbage Pokeymon...like wow, you're body-shaming me. ((She acts as if that ISN'T exactly what people are TRYING to do here, like it's some kind of revelation)) That part I'm just gonna have to ignore. But some things...I dunno. I had to point out some things.
05:32 - 09:03 (Normal People are so Aggressive!!)
"I just wish people would--more people would come, to the stream? Because...
>long pause, stress sigh
"I get you don't--you all don't like me. Because I'm self-ship and things like that and...I'mma check my tiktok."
"I know most of you followin' me probably for...umm...people think I'm a fuckin' idiot. Well I am, to an extent. I have common sense out in the streets, but online I don't. So...I'm just not normal. I'll never be normal."
"I want to be normal...to an extent, but normal people are aggressive people. That think...it's okay to make fun of people, it's okay to...it's okay to be aggressive towards everybody, it's okay to be mean to everybody, it oh--you know THAT shit is UNACCEPTABLE. That's what normal is nowadays. And...that's what the kiwifarmers are is normal people who...have nothin' better to do. And...they don't accept people of autism...don't accept people of...like, people who are odd, or...normal people would, like, say that, y'know, 'OHHHH this person I don't like this person because they look funny, or they act funny, I don't like them because of this...this specific detail. And their personality is shit no matter what they do."
>sigh
((I honestly have no words for this, just laughs))
"I dunno why they all--who is this one person? Who is this one person? Like...I'm gonna find out."
"Who is this one person? I'm gonna try to find out who this one person is. If I can figure out how to...*unintelligible* lurks...okay. Another *unintelligible* It says one person. But there's two people. Okay. That's odd...well, if you're here for the laughs,
((I'm assuming she's talking about her viewers))
09:06 - 11:44 (I'M NONBINARY GUYS!!)
"I'm happy...with Leastus now."
>sigh
"People believe I'm not nonbinary. You can be feminine-looking and be nonbinary, okay? Shut the fuck up about it, okay? Shut the fuck up about who--y'know, how you s'pposed to dress, or how ya supposed to look to be nonbinary! Shut up. Y'know, that shit pisses me the fuck off! So much that you'd say, 'oh this is how you're supposed to look to be nonbinary!' You don't owe androgyny to be nonbinary! It's a mindset-deal!"
"I'm sorry, I'm just rantin'. I'm just rantin' so much. It is a--it is a mindset, not a fucking expre--outer expression. Gender is...is actually a mindset. Ordeal."
>Goes on about her artwork and how she'll have to make the head smaller
"But yeah. It's just ridiuculous how people think that, oh you gotta be a--look a certain way to be nonbinary, like you just need to shut the fuck up. Quit judging. Like...I seen a guy in a dress today. At Walmart. And I was like 'wow. *obnoxious tard laugh*' He...he pulled it off with his size. I'm not judging, but he--y'know, he looked pretty interesting, like this guy was...y'know, he was skinny...type, and he wore a long dress. Like, that's a first time I ever seen a cross-dressin' guy. Like I dunno if he was trans? I dunno if he was...wantin' to be female, or he's just cross-dressing. Or if he's nonbinary. Y'know, I couldn't really...I'm sorry to assume his pronouns, but...it was interesting. I mean nothin' against...cross-dressers, but I'unno that's the first time I seen one."
"That was the first time I seen one."
11:46 - 14:05 (More BS About Gender Expression)
"Speaking of gender...and umm, yeah. Gender and uh, expression. So..."
>long pause
"This is the confession of Jacques--Jay, whoever you wanna call...him. That he don't wanna be part of the polygamy. And he wants to be with Leah. M'kay I wanna be with Leah now, I don't wanna be with--in this polygamy relationship, you and Leastus can just...go. I'm leavin'. We're leavin'. Y'know..."
"I'm still nonbinary. I'm still nonbinary in the mind. I'ts a mindset. Not an expression."
"Well...people really need to get it outta their fuckin' asses...that they think it's an expression. Stop that shit. It's fuckin'...I'unno it's really toxic mindset."
"Really a fuckin' toxic mindset. Umm..."
14:08 - 18:45 ("Riot For Peace")
>butchers more songs with terrible singing
"I'm too awkward to society. Maybe I should be alone. I live with a buncha rejects. They just say..... I live with a family of rejects. Social rejects. And I'm one of 'em. One of those rejects. Societal rejects."
>Singing Riot
"There's times I feel like I wanna riot for peace" ((Confused_Nick_Young.gif))
"Maybe we will. One day."
>Big sigh
>Big vape drag
"This one works better for me. And I think it was better to post that, umm, thing that could possibly cause--add fuel to the fire, because I need to let that--let my feelings out about this *indignant sigh* situation."
"Okay, those were the...
" 'Oh they can get arrested for that!' Like, YEAH, uhhh I get that, but...umm...it's fictional? ((the double-quote here is in a mocking voice. She's going to use this voice a few times so anytime she does is going to be surrounded in brackets [] ))"
"Talkin' about Leastus's really huge amount of pubes showing. Well, '[Don't let the kids see that!]' shut up. Please. Shut up.
18:47 - 20:37 (Epstein is Worse Than Me, Why Don't You Moralfag at HIM?)
>more singing
"Cause...y'know, there's, like, people who, y'know, were part of the Epstein...situation, and you don't keep an eye on those people? *confused face* Instead, what about Lady Gaga? Or what about Katy Perry? Or...what about President Obama? They were part of the Epstein...trip. Epstein island trip. Or pedo island or whatever. And nobody bats an eye about it. ((What is she even going on about at this point in time, we don't give a rat's ass about Epstein. We're not here to be moralfags, just to point and laugh)) I believe it. I believe that they've been...part of it, so..."
>Takes a big vape hit
"But, yeah. Nobody gives a shit about that, but when they give a shit about people like me--lowlives, like me--'wow oh my god, this person's a horrible person!' they think I'm a horrible person. They paint me as a horrible person" ((Who's painting who as horrible again? Oh yeah, that's right. You. Quit oversharing on public internet spaces and your problems will be magically gone))
"I'm not that horrible; I'm not that good, either. I'm just neutral. Human. I worry about what other's think, yeah." ((Stop.)) "I worry about what...
20:40 - 22:33 (I Swear I Didn't Try to Age-Up a Minor Character Intentionally, Guys!)
>Mumbles something about her art and having to get rid of the bisexual tootpaste lady because it looks like her old kid oc Jayca or w/e
"Cause she looks like an old...Jayca, recolor."
>Mumbles about having to change head shape
"And it was an accident of that design, I didn't realize...that...THIS *shows toothpaste lady* right here, would cause a LOT of controversy. A LOT of controversy! Like they think, oh, I just think it looks a lot like a Jayca recolor like, what?! How? HOW?! How the fuck?!"
>VERY indignant sigh
>Mumbles about art some more
"But...Leah, is gonna be...the polygamous relationship did not work out. It did not work out. Like, with me, Leastus fell in love with me more than everybody else, in the storyline, and..."
>More singing as she draws Leah's eye in an awkward position on her head without trying to draw some kind of action lines as to where her face should be positioned ((Why. Just. Why.))
24:20 - 29:15 (I Know My Room is Gross But I Don't Really Feel Like Cleaning It Right Now)
*Referring to Leah* "She's sad about it."
"So pretty much, Leah is a throwaway character now. I thought I was gonna go places with Leah, but...didn't work out. Yeah. It's just. Y'know, she's very attracted to Jay, and I mean, the polygamous relationship did not work out. So...."
"So..."
>vape
"Some people think I, fuckin'...lost my job, because I drew dirty pictures. Like, no...I quit, I quit. I fucking quit. I don't mean to be a quitter, but...the attendance issue is an issue. That's it.
>sigh
"Hi, viewer number two, how ya doin'? Well, it's just...I'm gonna have to clean my room, people are gettin' sick and tired of my room bein' unclean. I still got a lot to do. While I get on my way, so...." ((No one's sick of anything, we just think it's fucking funny and gross. Like honestly how can anyone live in such a gross-ass room and feel good about themselves))
>unintelligible art mumbling
"Just...my room's just not clean, cause I was so busy with life, and, now, I have time to...well I got a few weeks til I can--to get it clean, and...."
*Under her breath* "It's a mess!"
"I'm ashamed, a little bit. I'm not proud, but I'm ashamed." ((I love how little sense this sentence makes))
30:48 - 41:06 (TARD RAGE)
"No, my hair's not the best in that one, purple--tiktok, but...fuck, Jesus christ shut up. '[Oh my hair is better than...her hair!]' ...shut up. Just shut up. I know my hair's not the best."
>Checks her cc, proceeds to make an ear-piercing hissing noise that's probably her sperg sound of disapproval
"Shut the fuck up, *unintelligible* I know this--I know you planned this on kiwifarms."
>types
"Wait a minute I'mma gonna share the screenshot. I'm gonna share the screenshot.
>Passive-aggressive typing
"Hold on, I'm gonna see which one...which one is it?" ((I guess she's trying to find @the sister fister 's post))
"You all planned this. Okay, let me see which one it is..."
"Let me find it...that one, yeah."
"You can fuck off."
>Even more passive-aggressive-r typing, it sounds like morse code at this point
>Stares intensely through the screen while popping her knuckles against her face ((I think))
>Makes a grumpycat face then takes a big drag
"Well. I'm sorry, but they planned this. They said 'oh my god Jacques killed himself all because you broke up with him you mon--you're a monster. *deep breath* And this is the screenshot I took. At this point, I want masses of people all at once sending 'Jacques killed himself because you broke up with him you monster and see how long it takes her to believe it's real and have another meltdown.' I had to send that screenshot, it's a good thing I put that screenshot there...BECAUSE, hey! I'm sayin' duh truth that how cruel the fuckin' kiwifarms are. They planned diss, an' didn't they have a rule on there that you're not supposed to plan trolling? HMMMM?! That guy should be terminated. For that. That's a--that's--that is trolling. That is trolling. Do not--it said on the rules on...kiwifarms 'do not plan on trolling.' Pretty much. Sooo they want me to have a meltdown, they want me to be in my worst...case scenario, and...they want me to be sad and everything, they want me to be down and everything. Like, they want me to...break down and cry again. I'm not dealin' with that shit nomore. I don't play. I don't fuckin' play. I don't fuckin' play. I had enough of their shit. So...
"THAT WAS NINE YEARS AGO!!! NINE!!! NO, I AM NOT OKAY WITH THE KIWIFARMERS!! TRYING TO FUCK WITH ME! I'M ABOUT READY TO HAVE A HEART ATTACK IF THIS DON'T STOP! Or an anxiety attack! I am NOT okay! They don't wanna contact me because 'oh you don't wanna talk to the cow'!" ((Amanda which one is it? Are we interacting with you or not? Dear god you can't have both))
"They don't wanna contact me. For help. They just wanna see me suffer! They're just sick fucks! I am NOT okay! Like, okay, lemme show you a screenshot, of, the um, what, uh, they planned on, hold on, lemme try to get the curious cat out. And this is what they fuckin' planned! They planned this! I had to take a screenshot of this! I won't zoom it in, but, this is what they fuckin' planned! This is what I posted! You can--you all planned this! You can FUCK OFF! I'm about--gonna have an anxiety attack or somethin'!"
"This is probably why I got Three Days Grace goin' on right now. Sorry, that was a gnat. I dunno what the fuck."
"I just wanted to--I just wanna be at peace! They call me a pedophile, because I did some like questionable things and I haven't done shit after, I've been behaving and shit! And I have APOLOGIZED for shit! Today, because of this...ISSUES they have! I have APOLOGIZED! You can see in the--earlier, I cried, I fuckin' CRIED I HAD TO HUG MY PLUSHIE, it that that embarrassment, they're like, they're probably talkin' shit about ME right now! I am NOT okay! I was gonna take a break from online for a little bit, but, I have to stream, like the art, I promised, pretty much, so...anyways, back to the art stream. I wanna go back to the art stream. Tryin' to calm--trynna calm down a little bit. Or no, I'm gonna find somethin'...I'm gonna have to find somethin'...I dunno, I need--I need happy hardcore."
>Scrolls through phone
41:12 - 43:10
"Oh, this song! Crazy-Ass BITCH, YEAH THIS IS MY FUCKIN' SONG RIGHT NOW!! *vape hit* Crazy-Ass Bitch. Yes. It should be...for my mental health. But I need a break. But, too BAD, my JOB comes in...the 17th, I want this job NOW! I wanna get on the job NOW! Like, I'm supposed to get on this job, but like, FUCK! Maybe I should take a few days. No, I'mma take a day. Try to, umm...I dunno. I'm just plannin' shit." I'm just not in my best ways, I mean they PLANNED this shit."
"Amazon. I'm not gonna say where AT, and the--which area, so, Amazon is gonna be where I'm workin' at." ((Side note. In a previous stream she said that she went to "Missouri" for her interview because that was the closest one to her, out in St. Louis I believe she said. So idk how Amazon's interview / hiring process works--like idk if she'll actually WORK in the one she interviewed at--but she said it was "far away." The closest Amazon to her in Missouri that's still "far away" is most likely the one in Hazelwood. Make what you want with that info.))
"I'm gonna start on the 17th, and, I'm gonna do my damn BEST at it. So...this will be my third job. So...my third job in my life. My third actual job." ((We get it already))
>BIG vape hit
"I'll be so happy to be there. After--I'll be so happy to get the fuck outta this, fuckin' hellhole. I already got the job, it's just that uhm, I already re--y'know I already got the job, it's just that I gotta wait til' I go OVER there to...yeah. To start on the 17th, so...I'm already hired."
That's where I'm stopping. There's some more shit in the last 15 to 20 minutes of the stream but it's not as juicy as the first half imho. You guys better be lucky I love you cause I don't do this shit for just about anyone
I was thinking the same thing when I saw that the other day, funnily enough
Edit: you guys are too kind, honestly
Well I am being slightly hyperbolic lol, I'd be willing to do it again if it's an especially juicy infodump of a stream. Thank you! I really like formatting. I'd feel pretty honored if you did that lol. Something about transcribing is oddly satisfying.
It was pretty boring having to constantly pause but it was kinda fun when I got to the tard rage part lol. Thank you though. "Stop sighing so much!" I'm getting Father Call fashbacksSweet Christ on a Cracker! First off, I wanna say how brave of you to sit there and deal with the earrape of her tardrage and confusing English, that's gotta be traumatizing. It's enough to give someone a tumor. And 2nd, while reading through this, it's a masterpiece of both hilarious and tragic it would put Shakespeare to shame. Oh who am I kidding? XD Not even he would touch this bout of insanity.
I don't think I have anything else to say that hasn't already been repeated here over and over. But I'm still amazed how fucked up she is even moreso than Chris-chan maybe. Speaking of, I realized how much she stress sighs alot I was hoping someone would just say "stop sighing so much!" and see if she tards out to that. lol.
