So I went back and forth on this for a bit. I have already vented
here about what I thought about the "good" doctor and her practice. However, I feel as though it didn't covered the full extent of the dysphoria with her results.
Yes, I can't sit with out my vaginal lining pressed against my underwear (which has caused the skin to thicken and discolor) or the fact that my underwear is bloody after standing around for 6 hours . No, my main issue with the result of her surgery that has to do with when I get aroused. As a result the attached images are of a lewd nature considering the fact they contain a dildo for explanatory purposes.
When I get aroused, I am beyond embarrassed...and here is why. The area surrounding the urethra expands outward by a good 1/2" (12mm) and swells to 3+ it's normal size pushing the skin to the sides. there is a little pre-cum that comes out, it is mildly painful, and I am dysphoric to even touch the area because of how abnormal if feels and looks. Additionally, when I'm in this state, there is a node of tissue under the skin up and to the right of my clitoral hood that also swells to the size of a ping-pong ball and is a noticeable internal distention.
I've noticed, that If I go more than a days without dilating and then have a partner or use an dildo with ridges, I turn into a bloody mess. I pretty much have the experience of my hymen being broken every time I peruse intercourse. There is nothing quite like the fact that you need a tampon just to keep from soiling your underwear every time you want to have a little fun with what you paid for.
While I know some women are ok with their results from her, however, I'm one of the ones she's botched. She flat out told me that she does not do revisions before canceling my remaining check-ins. Since my last post several people have reached out to me about how she has done revisions for them, often after it became a legal issue, and encounter more post-op complications.
If you still want to sing her praises, let her work on you, or are comfortable with the dice roll of having similar after seeing what she did to me, than by all means do what feels best for you. However, if you are appalled by these results as I am, then please share this. Please don't pity me because of my results, I'm going to get her fixed by a more competent surgeon. Just spread this like wild fire to any of your friend who are thinking about getting surgery. The more our community is informed about the results they can expect from this "surgeon" the better off our community will be.
sure, call it that if it helps you cope, but most women do not bleed profusely after their first time. He probably also thinks that a hymen is like a seal that needs to be broken.
