"I lost friends because I felt rejected!!!1!"
I mean, that's part of it. You lost friends because you *felt* rejected, so you constantly complained about every imagined slight and made yourself intolerable to interact with. You can't imagine anyone wanting to be your friend unless you're constantly flexing your intellectual and ethical superiority, even if it means you have to read heavily into someone else's actions for doing so.
If the ableism and antisemitism were real, consistent, blatant, and materially harmful, Rabbie, we all know you're the type that would ABSOLUTELY have screenshots. That's why you deleted the direct call out, because you don't have evidence and you don't have the spine to keep pushing without it.
Even if you're telling the truth and this other person is terrible, consider it a taste of your own medicine. You routinely lie about things we have documented and archived proof of. The further you get from a life event, the more excusable your actions are to you, despite the fact that you're lying or harming others KNOWINGLY when you do it.
You knew you weren't of significant native ancestry when you were portraying yourself to the internet as a native sex worker in dire need of help. You knew you were not ethnically Jewish when you portrayed yourself to the internet as someone materially and systemically harmed by antisemitism and in dire need of help. You knew you were not on the ever-imminent cusp of eviction while you lived at your parents' home the past two years, yet told the internet you were going to freeze to death on the streets or kill yourself if you didn't come up with thousands for rent and utilities, guilting people into giving, again and again.
These days, you don't seem to acknowledge these lies and this manipulation of your audience. If you do, it's with a small platitude like, 'I did what I had to in order to survive, but I'm not a bad person and I'll do better from here!' And even this is being dishonest with yourself. You did not need to do half of what you did in order to survive. You did it because you were invested in living a certain way, and were fine with manipulating and lying to people if it meant your lifestyle could be maintained.
In case it needs to be spelled out, here is the truth: you, Rabbie Davis, are not a reliable narrarator of the events of your own life. You minimize the role you play in your own actions, and either retrospectively justify them or blame them on another party. You will never be able to differentiate your current self from your past self until you acknowledge your responsibility in past events and make a demonstrable effort to sever all ties with your past lies and move forward without having to lie further.
Most notably, here is the truth regarding your past:
-You had a list of kinks on your tumblr for a while which included 'underage' and 'shota'. Not because anyone forced or coerced you into identifying those things as kinks, but because you enjoyed them. At the very least, you portrayed yourself as enjoying them in order to be socially accepted, which is a very very weak reason to tell the public at large that you enjoy that type of content.
-You drew pornographic art of underage Homestuck characters. You, retrospectively, claim that the characters were aged up, but that your friends still forced you to draw it. Considering the previous point, you should be able to understand why your claims aren't believable when it comes to this. If you were able to exercise enough autonomy to age the characters up, you would have also been able to exercise enough autonomy to refuse the request altogether. And drawing it at someone else's request certainly didn't require you to post it publicly, yet you still did.
-When these things were on your tumblr, you were an ADULT. You like to imply that you were too young to know better, and that your trauma and your friends made you think it was okay, and that you were groomed and misled. But in reality, you were perfectly capable of making your own decisions and choosing your own friends. You chose to associate with the people you did (some of them being underage), and you took independent actions to portray your own interest in underage sexual activity publicly on your page when there was no logical reason or benefit to doing so.
-This interest eventually extended to sending nudes to minors when you were over 18. Your motivation and level of guilt have varied wildly according to you; (1) you said you did it independent of outside influence because you were lonely and had been groomed into thinking that was the only way you could get attention, (2) you did it independently to see if they would cheat on a friend (who was also underage), (3) you did it at the request of a friend to see if their partner would cheat, (4) you did it because a friend was on the brink of suicide if their partner was being unfaithful and basically forced you, and (5) you did it as a joke/for shock factor, either as your own decision or after being encouraged to by friends.
-The one unifying factor to the previous point is that - until you deleted or otherwise hid your personal tumblr - you acknowledged that the person you sent nudes to was underage at the time (although you tried different things to justify this, like claiming they were 'barely underage' and that you had *just* turned 18 although you were provably older at the time). The previous points combined with this one prove that the new narrative you're crafting - specifically the current morphing narrative that this never happened/that the person in question was an adult - is an unreliable one due to your tendency to minimize your actions and assuage your own guilt so that you can continue living a lie.
There is no doubt to be had, Rabbie, that you are a liar. No one in this thread is coming after you for being LGBT, for being Jewish, or whatever other victim status you choose to attribute to yourself. We're here simply because some of us noticed a trend early on of you lying and doing cringe-worthy things at length, and saw fit to continue documenting and monitoring that behavior. Fundamentally, that behavior has NOT changed.
You're taking more responsibility for yourself by selling subpar designs on subpar clothing for premium prices, and even we can admit that this is a slight improvement to outright grifting. You're giving back to you're community through donating allegedly, which is nice if true. You're honest about where you live these days. But until you untangle and make peace/amends with your more complicated and harmful lies, you're continually giving us material to work with.
You'll never do that, though. There are two main reasons. First, being brutally honest with yourself and your customer base would fuck up your new grift, and you think you're too good to work a real job (as evidenced by the past five years or so of ebegging), so ain't nothing getting between you and the grift! Second, you LOVE playing the victim. It's easier and more advantageous for you to pretend that us documenting and ruminating on your conduct is somehow unduly targeted.
Ask yourself this, Rabbie Davis: Would your page be years old and almost 500 pages deep if you hadn't been giving us reasons to stick around? There have been SEVERAL instances over the years where you could have logged off and laid low, and the farms would almost certainly found a bigger cow to grill. But you won't. You can't. You love the attention too much.