Chapter 13: No Concept Of Age
+Rainbow and Fluttershy are preparing themselves to go talk with the people that’ll allow Rainbow to adopt. Rainbow puts some high-heels and a short dress because “sporty lesbian pedophile with a hyperactive dick didn’t sound like an easy sell”, which doesn’t stop her from whining about it like a five year old kid being dragged to church. We just went through a whole thing on the previous chapter about how Rainbow is NOT actually a pedophile and how greats she feels about it. But now she is just “joking” in front of the girlfriend who she knows had a nervous breakdown over her pedophilic tendencies, because she’s a sociopath without empathy that cares about Fluttershy enough to not do that.
+But since this is written by Liliana and not a person who sees how wrong this is, Fluttershy just laughs and helps Rainbow to dress herself up with clothes that will fit her and Rainbow whines even more about it because she’s a child. Fluttershy’s still trying to be optimistic and supportive by telling her that everyone has days off, but instead of appreciating it Rainbow just goes that Scootaloo better appreciate it and she deserves the award for parent of the year for trying to dress formally for once on her life. If this is the mentality you have about doing the bare minimum, I don’t believe you should be having children.
+Anyway, Fluttershy puts on her a tie and Rainbow whines. Fluttershy tries to cheer her up by giving her advice Rainbow gave her on the past. Rainbow mentions again how she has fantasies about teenagers and shouldn’t be listen to, and you wished that Fluttershy storming out of the room meant that she realized Rainbow doesn’t care about how anything affects her too, but you’d be so wrong because before doing that Fluttershy still has to remind her that even if she has sexual fantasies about little girls that doesn’t define her. Fluttershy’s pain and feelings are always going to take second place to whatever Rainbow is up to.
+Instead of being a normal person and reason she must have done something wrong to cause her girlfriend to go out like that, Rainbow blames it on Fluttershy don’t having a good sense of humor
“Jeez,” Rainbow grumbled, slipping her shoes on and descending the stairs, “Right when I start cracking jokes about it is the minute she starts getting sick of my shit? Figures.”
+She had a nervous breakdown on the last chapter. You found her sobbing out of her mind on your bed, begging you to do something about it because she couldn’t “keep living like this”, implying that it was mentally killing her. If this happened months ago and never talked about it again then it would make some sense for her to forget it, but this is just the very next day. Liliana talked great lenghts about Rainbow’s pedophilia when she talked about this fic (that isn’t pedophilia anyway, according to a doctor character), but she didn’t mentioned how unrepentent of an asshole she is too and how nobody calls her on it.
+Downstairs, Rainbow is still acting as if Fluttershy is the one who just doesn’t understand her and Fluttershy for the first time on this entire fic is not having it.
“I was trying to help you,” Fluttershy said, her voice hurt, “And you just threw what I said back in my face with a snide little joke. I was being serious, you know. Can’t you just for once listen to me?”
“Fluttershy, I always listen to you,” Rainbow said, putting her own jacket on, “Just because I crack jokes about myself doesn’t mean I’m not listening.”
+It does mean that when you’re jocking about something that is clearly a very delicate issue that has send your girlfriend into a nervous breakdown just yesterday. But nevermind that, because Fluttershy doesn’t really mind about Rainbow jocking about that issue that send her into a nervous breakdown just yesterday. It’s not about how she is acting like a whiny kid when it comes doing the bare minimum before even having a kid either. It’s the fact that Rainbow didn’t appreciate the advice that Rainbow gave her and she copied back to her that bothers her. Oh, and her “tone.”
“Well, that hurt. It wasn’t so much the joke itself, it was your tone. I felt like you didn’t appreciate what I was saying, to try to make you feel better. Something that meant something to me,” Fluttershy faced her then, wiping her eyes, “It’s all right to joke. But sometimes I need to know you’re listening.”
+I already said she’s not so let’s move on. Rainbow just have to say “You’re right. I’m sorry” and everything is forgotten just like that. In fact now Fluttershy is apoligizing herself for taking things like the pedophilia of her girlfriend way too seriously and how she overreacted, to which Rainbow just say that it’s fine and there was literally no point to this scene at all. This whole chapter feels like that. It could have probably been summarized in a few parragraph easily on a more active one. This whole thing’s purpose is purely to make Rainbow into a sympathetic person because she gets nervous and uncomfortable and hates the whole idea, but she’s still willing to do everything for Scootaloo which means she does deserve the sympathy even if what she’s doing is, once again, the bare minimum.
+Anyway, Rainbow and Fluttershy go to the office. There is a mention of how the other couples there give them “confused stares”, but I don’t know why? Maybe because they look so young? I don’t know the age in which people commonly go to adopt children so let’s say is that.
+Rainbow is nervous. You can tell because she fidgets “slightly. Once. Then again. Then again.” Until Fluttershy tells her that they’ll just ask them a few questions and Rainbow says that her pedophilia and adoption don’t mix well. She even say “they go together like an anthill and a can of Raid”, which is literally the first time on this entire fic that is recognized that pedophiles harm kids. Again, I’m just so annoyed that this “grimdark” story barely remembers that part. Pedophilia’s not bad because it’s gross, it’s bad because it’ll cause irreperable damage to a kid who’ll barely understand that they’re being used as sex toys. If the idea was disturb the reader as much as possible I shouldn’t be relieved because there was a single phrase that merely implies the possibility and it’s never mentioned ever again.
+Fluttershy, the amazing doormat enabler, tells her that is something they don’t have to know about because it’s their business and they’re not going to ask if she fetishize little girls… without mentioning that’s because the assumption is that someone hoping to adopt a kid’s not going to want to fuck the kid and, that even if they did asked that question, the other person’ll just lie about it. Fluttershy instead tells her that she can do this and is single parent material.
+Then Rainbow decides to respond the encouragement of her girlfriend by saying “When we get home, both these monkey suits are coming off”, like a creep, showing that she was totally listening once again. But Fluttershy just giggles about it so nobody cares.
+They’re called inside the office. The social worker is typing on her computers and asks if Rainbow is there for Scootaloo. Rainbow says she is. The social worker asks if she has all the necesary paperwork and Rainbow just produces it right there. Then she tells her that they’ll do their own evaluation with Canterlot and it’ll be overseen by Princess Sparkle. Wait, no, it’s actually Princess Candance who’ll do it because conflicts of interest. All this time Rainbow is all the more nervous and answering everything with m’am and yes. I don’t care.
-Now the social workers tells her that Scootaloo has been put in adoption by her Aunt and Uncle for seven years. This little fact’s just thrown there without no further aknowledgement of how sad that is? Before, when talking about Scootaloo’s past, it was implied that it was Scootaloo the one feeling out of place on a family that was getting bigger and she felt hard to fit in, but she still loved her family and they loved her back. Scootaloo’s feeling felt normal for a kid that knows’s not living with her biological parents, understandable but ultimately those are just the feelings of a kid. They’re not meant to be accurate. Now we get confirmation that she was actually the odd one out of the family, to the point that both her Aunt and Uncle were perfectly willing to give her up the moment someone interested came along. They never intended to take care of her as if she were their own child and Scootaloo apparently not only knows this from a very young age, but it’s fine and still loves her family. With this new information, the fact that Scootaloo later forgives Rainbow for what she’s going to do to her feel less like she just loves Rainbow that much and understands she didn’t meant to hurt her, and more like she’s just a traumatized little girl who’ll love and take whoever is willing to be her family, even if that meant accept abuse in return.
+This would be interesting and add another flavor of the grimdark that is very much needed. But I’m willing to bet anything that Liliana never meant for this to come across like this since there’s not aknowledgement, no mention and never a single moment in which we know Scootaloo’s thought process to even imagine this’s what goes through her head so, once again, my headcanon’s still better than what I’m actually reading.
+The social worker does other questions and seems to be so impressed with Rainbow earning “roughly fifty-thousand bits per year, ma’am” despite being 23 that she decides that’s everything she needs for now, until she has her psych evaluation and criminal record. Both Fluttershy and Rainbow thank her for her time and we’re done with his entirely unnecesary scene, since this social worker’ll never appear ever again even after everything goes down.
+They go out the office. They both think they did okay, but Rainbow’s wishing to come back home because she has a boner now, like a creep, but not any bone. A “wicked boner and it’s caught your scent”. Fluttershy’s confused, not because there was nothing sexy about anything that went down before, but specifically because she hasn’t done anything to warrant a wicked boner. Rainbow still blames it on Fluttershy, though, saying that she always looks as if she wants Rainbow to strip her naked wich is… entirely made up because there was zero indication of that happening up until now. She also slaps Fluttershy’s ass, which makes her yelp and suddenly be all for it because why gain her own personality now? There is a mention of Rainbow having a noticeable tent on her skirt, like a creep.
+They go home. They are kissing and Fluttershy is laughing, which makes Rainbow question it and Fluttershy just say she’s so happy to be able to laugh.
Rainbow smiled as she unbuttoned Fluttershy’s shirt, “That’s good. We’ve both been to miserable lately.”
Running her hands along her sides, pulling down her skirt, Fluttershy giggled, “It has been quite a ways to get here, but… Oh, I just wouldn’t change a thing! It may not have been easy, but… Just because it’s not easy doesn’t make me any less happy.”
+I wonder what could have make them miserable that hasn’t really changed at all during this entire fic. It has a name. It starts with p and ends with me wishing I was reading something else.
+But Rainbow, being the sociopathic selfish cunt that she’s, doesn’t even give me that satisfaction and she blames all of theirmisery purely on the cheating and getting kicked by Applejack. So, technically blaming Fluttershy alone for the “obstacles” they had on their way.
Grabbing her shoulders, Fluttershy whirled them around and pinned her to the couch, grinning widely, “Rarity mentioned yesterday that I really was sacrificing a lot. I gave up an easy and calmer relationship for what we have now. Gosh, I never thought of it that way. But then again, I could have it easy and be unhappy. When I could have this, and be happier than I’ve ever been in my life.”
+I’m so glad that the thought of your girlfriend raping little girls’s not bothering you at all anymore, Fluttershy.
+Rainbow meanwhile is there encouraging for “taking risk” and Fluttershy pats herself on the back for cheating on her fiance with a pedophile, all while somehow still making about how it’s thanks to Rainbow that she managed to do it and how it’s a good thing.
“You’re right, I did take a risk, didn’t I? And I’m so glad I did! I know one of the things you wanted for me was to be the best I can be, to take risks and live. I have! I really have! Oh, it’s wonderful!”
Rainbow smiled and pulled her down to lock lips with her as she rubbed herself against her crotch, “It is wonderful. I’m proud of you, Shy.”
The words flowed to her ears, lighting up her entire face and overcoming her senses, Fluttershy all but threw off her underpants and rubbed right back. The very first memory of hearing those sweet words went back as far to when they were little, and how every accomplishment Fluttershy made was to hear them. Right from someone who inspired her the most.”
+So… Fluttershy’s only desire is to get the approval of Rainbow because she’s just that cool. Again, on a more well written story this would be a red flag about Fluttershy being such a spineless idiot that she’s willing to go along with Rainbow’s stupidity for the sake of she telling her that she’s proud of her, something that she desperately clings to as her only reward and a unhealthy coping mechanism. But we’re not on that well written story. Instead, this is meant to come across as romantic on it’s codependancy
+They banter some more while fucking. It’s just the same as all sex scenes, although this part did made me chuckle:
“WOOHOO!” Fluttershy’s muffled cry sounded from the cushions.
+”Woohoo”, so sexy.
+More banter. More fucking. Fluttershy gives permission for Rainbow to treat her like a dirty slut because that is what she brings out of her. Rainbow tells Fluttershy that she’s “my little nymph”, which is a odd phrase to use in general but also reminded me that is what the protagonist of Lolita (the pedophile that abuse and rapes the young girl during all of it) calls Lolita on a not so subtle way to blame his own sick thoughts onto her, the twelve year old girl whose ages is changed to fourteen in the movie. Huh. Probably means nothing.
+Rainbow didn’t finished so she makes Fluttershy ask her to please let her suck her cock. Rainbow says that she’ll let her only if she’s a good girl which, again, would be a nice set up to Fluttershy’s unhealthy fixation with getting Rainbow’s approval, but here’s treated as merely part of the sexy talk. Fluttershy asks what she has to do in order to be a good girls and Rainbow answers:
, “Oh, I dunno. Dress more slutty around the house, maybe? Use some more dirty language? Nothing like that around our friends, but alone in the house, you’re a raunchy, dirty little girl and you love it. How’s that?”
“So long as I can still tell you I love you, I’m fine with that,” Fluttershy kissed her cheek, “I’ll be your little dirty slut.”
“Of course you can,” Rainbow nuzzled her, “Sure, I love it when you beg to suck me off, or drop your pants and bend over the nearest object, but I love hearing you say you love me even more.”
+That is a lie. Everyone on this fic constantly say I love you to each other for no reason at all, and this has never caused a special reaction on Rainbow before. One of the marks for romance is the importance that “I love you” is given as a declaration, and we’re already pass that when almost practically all scenes ends with another declaration no matter the context, even before they were “official”.
+Fluttershy then goes upstairs to put some lingerie and her “inner voice” is taunting her about how they just fuck all the time, which is entirely true. But Fluttershy is responding to it and getting distressed because she doesn’t want to doubt their love for each other. The voice mentions she should look on the drawer of Rainbow where she, the sociopathic creep asshole, still has the panties of Sweetie Belle on top for anyone to see. Fluttershy keeps justifying why it’s okay.
“I don’t care. She explained what Doctor Firebrand told her. So what? She fantasizes about teenage girls. So do a lot of other men, and considering her hormone imbalances, I can’t say I’m surprised. She has an overactive sex drive, anyway. I know all of this. I knew more and more about what I was getting into. But if you’re so insistent, fine. I’ll go look in that drawer.”
+Fellas, it’s normal to be a pedophile?
+The inner voice tells her that this does affect her and how she’ll always worry that she’s not good enough for her, that she’s only prolonging the inevitable.
“That’s not true! She told me clearly, she doesn’t love any of the girls like that. She doesn’t want a relationship with them, not like with me. She just lusts after them. There’s nothing like that! She isn’t a pedophile!” Fluttershy said in a loud whisper.”
+We’re still doing this. The inner voice is the only voice of reason here saying what we’re all thinking.
‘Only you could make wanting to fuck kids sound like something you see every other day, Flutterslut. She wants the same thing from you that she does from them. Someone willing to suck her dick.’
+Now, now. To be fair with Fluttershy, it was a corrupt idiot doctor the one who put that idea onto her head first. One that is going to remain unquestioned on his authority as far this keeps going and I don’t know if this is good, because it means Firebrand’s Josh is gone, or bad because this story keeps missing any chance it could have to be more disturbing and ends on a boring slug.
+Fluttershy brushes the panties on the drawer and find a box with a ring under it. I don’t understand this placement. If you wanted to hide something from your girlfriend, that is the best defense you could think of, the panties that some fourteen year old little girl gave you? It makes sense but there’s still something disgusting about this whole ordeal.
+Anyway, Fluttershy is happy that Rainbows wants to propose and goes downstair. Rainbow likes her lingerie and calls her “evil genius”, which reminds that podcast episode with Lizzy that according to Liliana doesn’t exist, just like this fic. They banter. They fuck. They do the 69. Rainbow cums on Fluttershy’s mouth. They banter. They say I love you again.
+At night Fluttershy meet her “pervy” side, which is just another voice that is horny all the time. That voice is so happy they fucked like bunnies after the adoption agency. This character later will be retconned to have been part of Rainbow, but for now it’s an idiot that’s happy Fluttershy “came out of her shell” and is getting fucked, because Big Mac suddenly doesn’t count I guess. There is again a mention of how Rainbow “bring the nymph out of me”, but they keep going about the sex. It’s actually very redundant, repetitive, goes for way too much longer that it neded to be and I don’t care, so the short version: “Rainbow makes me horny and I like that.” But at least this pervy side does tell her that she could tell Rainbow has it bad for the little girls and adds that she, Fluttershy, should get on that because it sounds fun.
+Fluttershy tells herself she’s not a pedophile and the inner voice says “I’m your Endocrine System, I have no concept of age! Why do you guys keep track of that anyway?’”
+Fluttershy says that yes, those little fourteen year old girls are attractive and growing into lovely young women, but she’s not attracted to them. I’m tired of mentioning that the issue of how those little girls could be traumatized for life after being sexually abused by two older wome they trust is nothing anyone cares here so just assume I'm mentally repeating it still.
+They say good night. The chapter ends.
