Inactive Shmorky / David Kelly / Daisy Kay / Sandypants / Peaches the Puppy & Ex-Fiance Amanda "Mandy" Mullen - Something Awful throwaway, pedophile sexual predator, abusive tranny schizo chaser; batshit crazy ex-fiancée

I at least wish the retard shitting up the thread didn't make up stuff that Shmorky would never do or say, and instead mention something that would be accurate, even if it were a lie. That's my grand dream for this world.
 
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It's Mandy, and she's on her meds. Welcome to Real Schizo Hours with Mandy Milan, aka, Sir Conrad of Jersey.
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She's on someone's meds, but I don't know if they're anything that was acually prescribed to her. It could be also be from random bottles under the kitchen sink or from in the garage for all anyone knows. How about it Mandy, are you huffing brake cleaner or TCE?
 
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She's on someone's meds, but I don't know if they're anything that was acually prescribed to her. It could be also be from random bottles under the kitchen sink or from in the garage for all anyone knows. How about it Mandy, are you huffing brake cleaner or TCE?
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THE PSYCHIATRISTS HAVE TOOK ME OFF ALL THE MEDICATIONS THAT WORKED. THEY'VE TURNED ON ME. I've reached the upper phases in the Targeted Individual program. The psychiatrists now know everything about me. My permanent medical record is now public information. Paperless society. Cashless society. Mark of the fucking Beast.

You want to know what I'm on: GABAPENTIN: DOESN'T FUCKING WORK. BLOOD THINNER FOR SOME REASON: DOESN'T FUCKING WORK. LAMICTAL: DOESN'T FUCKING WORK. ABILIFY: MAKES MY THOUGHTS LIVING FUCKING NIGHTMARES.

KRATOM: THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME BOTH SANE AND COVID FREE

WEED: SO NOT ALLOWED UNDER COS STANDARDS BUT I SMOKE VERY LITTLE OF IT NOW BECAUSE OF THAT.

SCIENTOLOGY: Okay so here's what happened there: I joined the CoS in 2009 because I thought it could help me get through college because I was failing all my classes due to mental illness. They taught me the LRH study tech and the TRs including TR-Zero and ever since 2009 it's been the only way I actually know how to study and retain information. That's literally the God's honest fucking truth. Whenever I get into an argument with someone I still say ARC-break. Whenever I question how I'm feeling about something I revert right to the Tone Scale.

It's literally the only thing that's ever worked on me. I've been using Dianetics to self-audit for years. Which is technically considered Squirreling the Tech and that is not how you get gains that's how you get losses which is why I'm having losses right now because I'm PTS.

An0nimous if I was an Illegal PC no one would have had communication with me BUT THEY DID. THEY ACCEPT ALL. THEY ARE WILLING TO TAKE BACK THE SPs now that the time has come that they have a place for us. The only way I'll ever be able to function in life is if I relearn the Study Tech. They got all the courses free on the website now. The psychiatrists took all my fucking meds away and no one is accepting new patients and my psychiatrist quit a year and a half ago anyway so what have I got to lose? The psychiatrists have made it known to me far and wide that they do not give half a fuck about me anymore.

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See. The CoS understands me. They understand I'm PTS and have to do the responsible thing and stop being PTS. But I have cPTSD so I can't stop being PTS. That's why I'm doing the responsible thing and removing myself from the gene-pool.

I'm not trooning out. I'm trooning in. I'm flattening the gender dysphoria button by just being my birth sex which is male and severing myself off from any possibility of a 2nd Dynamic. Sometimes the SP is YOU and you just gotta handle yourself. That's the power of the Tech. That's how I Disconnected with myself.
 
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I'd ask how Shmorky landed someone like this but they always end up becoming much, much worse the longer you know people with this mental illness.
 
Sir Conrad of Jersey said:
THE PSYCHIATRISTS HAVE TOOK ME OFF ALL THE MEDICATIONS THAT WORKED. THEY'VE TURNED ON ME. I've reached the upper phases in the Targeted Individual program. The psychiatrists now know everything about me. My permanent medical record is now public information. Paperless society. Cashless society. Mark of the fucking Beast.

You want to know what I'm on: GABAPENTIN: DOESN'T FUCKING WORK. BLOOD THINNER FOR SOME REASON: DOESN'T FUCKING WORK. LAMICTAL: DOESN'T FUCKING WORK. ABILIFY: MAKES MY THOUGHTS LIVING FUCKING NIGHTMARES.

KRATOM: THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME BOTH SANE AND COVID FREE

WEED: SO NOT ALLOWED UNDER COS STANDARDS BUT I SMOKE VERY LITTLE OF IT NOW BECAUSE OF THAT.

SCIENTOLOGY: Okay so here's what happened there: I joined the CoS in 2009 because I thought it could help me get through college because I was failing all my classes due to mental illness. They taught me the LRH study tech and the TRs including TR-Zero and ever since 2009 it's been the only way I actually know how to study and retain information. That's literally the God's honest fucking truth. Whenever I get into an argument with someone I still say ARC-break. Whenever I question how I'm feeling about something I revert right to the Tone Scale.

It's literally the only thing that's ever worked on me. I've been using Dianetics to self-audit for years. Which is technically considered Squirreling the Tech and that is not how you get gains that's how you get losses which is why I'm having losses right now because I'm PTS.

An0nimous if I was an Illegal PC no one would have had communication with me BUT THEY DID. THEY ACCEPT ALL. THEY ARE WILLING TO TAKE BACK THE SPs now that the time has come that they have a place for us. The only way I'll ever be able to function in life is if I relearn the Study Tech. They got all the courses free on the website now. The psychiatrists took all my fucking meds away and no one is accepting new patients and my psychiatrist quit a year and a half ago anyway so what have I got to lose? The psychiatrists have made it known to me far and wide that they do not give half a fuck about me anymore.

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See. The CoS understands me. They understand I'm PTS and have to do the responsible thing and stop being PTS. But I have cPTSD so I can't stop being PTS. That's why I'm doing the responsible thing and removing myself from the gene-pool.

I'm not trooning out. I'm trooning in. I'm flattening the gender dysphoria button by just being my birth sex which is male and severing myself off from any possibility of a 2nd Dynamic. Sometimes the SP is YOU and you just gotta handle yourself. That's the power of the Tech. That's how I Disconnected with myself.
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Are you gonna be ok?
 
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Are you gonna be ok?
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I'm gonna be okay. I just gotta apply the tech. Even if it's just basic PTS handling tech. Because I know damn well an auditing session with an actual E-meter would break the fucking E-meter and those things are fucking expensive. Yes I would be one of those preclears that jumped out a window at reliving my own memories in case you were wondering. I'm one of those preclears. The CoS knows that more than anyone. That's why I'm thankful they're even staying in contact with me. They understand. They know what happens when you go too fast with Scientology. The minute they put me on that E-Meter they knew everything about who I was. My personality test literally came out Dangerous and Irresponsible. The E-Meter sees right through all your lies. Even the lies you make to yourself. That's why if I don't change I'm literally going to die. PTS's are by definition Dangerous and Irresponsible. We have too many Engrams. See I understand that and that's why I'm not in Psych Jail right now.

I know my Engrams are acting up and I need to get that shit sorted out. That's why I'm doing the responsible thing and finding a doctor of integrative medicine to get my shit truly straightened out. Because I know this is going to take a lot more than Auditing. I can understand and recognize the traits of an SP. That's the first step to not being one.
 
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yipyaps said:
A lot of people underestimate the impact of marijuana on their behavior, its one of those things you shouldn't do and complain about having a messed up life or being depressed, alongside things like diet, exercise, human interaction, etc.

That's why it's healthy to have close relationships, because other people can tell you things you couldn't just from your perspective.
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Most people (including smokers) still believe the stereotype that weed just makes you drowsy and hungry and you'll giggle. That's not true at all, it's a psychoactive drug containing hundreds of cannabinoids that all have their own effects on the mind and body. Plus, it gets more and more potent by the day since the "War on Drugs" when the newly-formed DEA went out and burned all the naturally-growing plants countrywide and grow ops started moving indoors, cloning and cultivating extremely potent strains. Forget what weed was like in the 1960s, the weed we have now is not the same as what we had 10 years ago. It is very, very potent, very psychoactive and not to be taken lightly.

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Amanda Mullen has said that psychotic episodes are an unavoidable part of her life, due to her condition. She made it sound like she usually comes out okay eventually :optimistic:
I guess we now have a record of this recent, ongoing one.
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You can take your meds but they won't fix you. The most you can hope for with mental illness is that you'll be able to function enough to work and get your bills paid and not feel like killing yourself. Finding the right ones and taking them (forever) will help you be able to fix your own problems so you can get to that point.
Sir Conrad of Jersey said:
THE PSYCHIATRISTS HAVE TOOK ME OFF ALL THE MEDICATIONS THAT WORKED. THEY'VE TURNED ON ME. I've reached the upper phases in the Targeted Individual program. The psychiatrists now know everything about me. My permanent medical record is now public information. Paperless society. Cashless society. Mark of the fucking Beast.
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Can you show us a link or something where we can look up medical records of Americans?
Sir Conrad of Jersey said:
You want to know what I'm on: GABAPENTIN: DOESN'T FUCKING WORK. BLOOD THINNER FOR SOME REASON: DOESN'T FUCKING WORK. LAMICTAL: DOESN'T FUCKING WORK. ABILIFY: MAKES MY THOUGHTS LIVING FUCKING NIGHTMARES.

KRATOM: THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME BOTH SANE AND COVID FREE

WEED: SO NOT ALLOWED UNDER COS STANDARDS BUT I SMOKE VERY LITTLE OF IT NOW BECAUSE OF THAT.
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What meds did you used to be on that did work? While I'm at it, kratom has strong anti-depressant and anti-anxiety effects and I've known several people with PTSD, clinical depression and personality disorders that take it regularly, same dosage each time and do very well on it.
PolexiaAphrodisia said:
Can someone, like, tag me or something if actual information about Shmorky gets released? Hard to believe he's really holed up in some Virginia woods trailer. Jesus Christ though I do hate how this state is prime lolcow breeding ground.
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That's where his parents live, where he grew up, so that is most likely where he is.
 
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Sir Conrad of Jersey said:
Research the work of Dr. John Money.
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Yeah we have, that's why we view troonery as absolutely insane nonsense.
Sir Conrad of Jersey said:
Do you understand why I'm freaking the fuck out now?
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Yes. Because you are experiencing a floridly psychotic episode and not being treated for it. Scientology is not the answer to any question, except possibly really stupid questions.
 
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Sir Conrad of Jersey said:
I ordered L Ron Hubbard's 'Operation Manual For the Mind' CD and I'm gonna see if it helps. I technically am a paying customer now. And the lady who emailed me said "we are praying for you." I'm still hanging by a thread before I go full Degraded Being. If the SP realizes they have traits of being an SP that means they're still curable. I'm still curable. I don't know what the cure is, but I just need to know I'm curable. I know I'll never be able to board the official Bridge. But maybe I can at least live under it. Get a load of this guy. They are a Man of Sherry:
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Are you 100% committed with this scientology thing or is there room for me to talk you into my own cult?
 
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I got my meds changed today and feel a little bit better and I'll try and answer all of Sabrina's questions because she sounds like she knows what she's talking about.

BUT - This is how deep I'm in with the CoS right now if you're wondering. I've given them collateral. I've been telling them my whole life's story. I've given the Ethics Department dox fuel for the rest of my natural born life as payment of my debt. And yes - the incredible guilt I felt at seeing the Superbowl Commercial did trigger this. David Miscavige puts codes in the commercials only Scientologists would understand. That's how he does it. That's why he's the fucking Admiral or whatever. He just gets your 7th Dynamic (Soul) and guilt trips you for the rest of your life about everything you've ever done. That's why Tom Cruise is freaking out. That's why I'm freaking out. That's why I always come crawling back.

The Miscavige family literally owns my soul. Once the Ethics Department puts you on the E-Meter it's all over. They know everything. So now I'm just telling them everything even though its shit they already know. For the 2nd time in my life the Scientologists have become my only real friends. And in some strange way, it feels good. I know it's a cult. But it's my cult. I've made my bed with Xenu and now I have to lie in it.

Fun fact by the way: They did let me have a job as a staff member - I was the kitchen bitch. David Miscavige literally sent me back to the kitchen for what it's worth. But I was a snobby cunt and didn't want to settle for being in the kitchen. That's my fucking problem. That was their way of showing me I was really a troon. The E-Meter tells all. I just didn't have the patience to put the hard work in. But Sherry Shriner has revealed to me that being Bigender IS indeed a thing, and I have accepted that it's okay to be Bigender.

That's why you need both: You gotta have your Sherry Shriner with your LRH. That's the balance. That's the key.

I'm getting better. I at the very least resisted the urge to say "2010 watch it go to fire." Which I have found out is also a reference to Revelations: 20:10 from reading Sherry Shriner. I resisted the urge to say it though. That's a start.
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Sir Conrad of Jersey said:
I got my meds changed today and feel a little bit better and I'll try and answer all of Sabrina's questions because she sounds like she knows what she's talking about.

BUT - This is how deep I'm in with the CoS right now if you're wondering. I've given them collateral. I've been telling them my whole life's story. I've given the Ethics Department dox fuel for the rest of my natural born life as payment of my debt. And yes - the incredible guilt I felt at seeing the Superbowl Commercial did trigger this. David Miscavige puts codes in the commercials only Scientologists would understand. That's how he does it. That's why he's the fucking Admiral or whatever. He just gets your 7th Dynamic (Soul) and guilt trips you for the rest of your life about everything you've ever done. That's why Tom Cruise is freaking out. That's why I'm freaking out. That's why I always come crawling back.

The Miscavige family literally owns my soul. Once the Ethics Department puts you on the E-Meter it's all over. They know everything. So now I'm just telling them everything even though its shit they already know. For the 2nd time in my life the Scientologists have become my only real friends. And in some strange way, it feels good. I know it's a cult. But it's my cult. I've made my bed with Xenu and now I have to lie in it.

Fun fact by the way: They did let me have a job as a staff member - I was the kitchen bitch. David Miscavige literally sent me back to the kitchen for what it's worth. But I was a snobby cunt and didn't want to settle for being in the kitchen. That's my fucking problem. That was their way of showing me I was really a troon. The E-Meter tells all. I just didn't have the patience to put the hard work in. But Sherry Shriner has revealed to me that being Bigender IS indeed a thing, and I have accepted that it's okay to be Bigender.

That's why you need both: You gotta have your Sherry Shriner with your LRH. That's the balance. That's the key.

I'm getting better. I at the very least resisted the urge to say "2010 watch it go to fire." Which I have found out is also a reference to Revelations: 20:10 from reading Sherry Shriner. I resisted the urge to say it though. That's a start.
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Glad you're doing better. Do you want out of scientology?
 
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