Inactive Shmorky / David Kelly / Daisy Kay / Sandypants / Peaches the Puppy & Ex-Fiance Amanda "Mandy" Mullen - Something Awful throwaway, pedophile sexual predator, abusive tranny schizo chaser; batshit crazy ex-fiancée

[Amanda Andrew M Mankin]

What meds did you used to be on that did work? While I'm at it, kratom has strong anti-depressant and anti-anxiety effects and I've known several people with PTSD, clinical depression and personality disorders that take it regularly, same dosage each time and do very well on it.

Are you 100% committed with this scientology thing or is there room for me to talk you into my own cult?

Glad you're doing better. Do you want out of scientology?

I think we both know the problem here is that I don't. I know exactly what they are. I know what happened to Lisa McPherson. But it's the only thing that's ever worked for me. I think I've done it. I think I've made the saddest Kiwi Farms post known to man. You're welcome, Null. I'm the only person in the world that Scientology worked its intended purpose for. It has a way of turning schizos into normal people and normal people into schizos. I guess that's where the Satanic Principle of Reversal comes in and yes I know Hubbard was Satanic as fuck.

In a weird way I feel like I owe the Church of Scientology my life. I know that's the cult mentality talking. I know it fucking is. And I know this is the saddest Kiwi Farms post that ever is or will be, but: It works and it helps people. It just does. I know it's a retarded ass UFO cult, but they got their hooks in me when I was 19 years old and yes I know this is how cults work. @Jack Awful I would actually like it if we could DM in private because it's scaring me again how quickly I'm getting sucked into this. It happens every time with me Scientology. The saddest drug of choice in the fucking universe. I'm not saying I want to leave the CoS. I'm just saying I need someone to talk to right now who understands a little Scientologese because God the Most High help me.

 

[The Fatriarchy]

They've done absolutely nothing, though. None of what they do has any scientific basis and their only goal is to steal money from idiots who get in too deep.

 

[Amanda Andrew M Mankin]

They've done absolutely nothing, though. None of what they do has any scientific basis and their only goal is to steal money from idiots who get in too deep.

They just got a way of making a person feel like family, though.

 

[Leonard Helplessness]

They just got a way of making a person feel like family, though.

As cults do.

 

[Karl der Grosse]

Those feelings, that emotional manipulation? It's all based on lies, Mandy. You deserve the truth.

 

[repentance]

Hard to believe he's really holed up in some Virginia woods trailer. Jesus Christ though I do hate how this state is prime lolcow breeding ground.

It's something Mandy was saying on Something Sensitive when she was stable and getting her shit together, so it was probably true at that time.

 

[Amanda Andrew M Mankin]

Those feelings, that emotional manipulation? It's all based on lies, Mandy. You deserve the truth.

This was said in a private conversation that I don't want to shed the details on right now but I feel it needs to be said here (edited to be made more coherent)

""You never truly leave the CoS. Once they have your information - that's it. They will 'check up' on you every now and then and fuck around with you via Auditing to get you to admit things you didn't say or do. You seem to know that that's how they work.

But my real family are such fucking abusive monsters to myself and everyone around them and I ABANDONED MY APARTMENT IN PA TO COME AND TAKE CARE OF THEM DURING THE PANDEMIC because I was so physically sick from my MEDICATION SIDE EFFECTS that we all needed to take care of each other that the fact that the CoS stepped in and screwed with my head a bunch was very weirdly and I know, sickly comforting. They were the only people that treated me like a real family. I even almost married into the Hill family once. That's not a delusion. I fucked one of them once. I was literally sexually involved with a member of the Miscavige family.

They don't forget that. They don't forget anything. Some people from the Free Org even explained that they're doing this a lot now because followers are dropping like flies and they're getting desperate.

The fact that they are even talking to me is living proof of that.

It's so sick and Stockholm Syndrome-y but I feel like a child taking care of its parents in their final days, because in a way the CoS means more to me than my own fucking parents who I was trying to take care of during the pandemic and they literally beat the shit out of me twice (once successfully, once unsuccessfully) during this to the point where I had to call the cops.

It's so sick and sad, but I literally feel like this goddamn weird UFO cult for rich people is a dying parental figure to me and I have to be a good son and take care of them in their final days.""

There was more context to this that I don't want to get into here on a public forum, but TL;DR: Planet's Dying, Cloud.

 

[NoFeline]

>change patient's medications
>patient VISIBLY deteriorating and barely comprehensible
>doesn't change medicines back
>doesn't even try something new

Someone's getting paid handsomely, aren't they? I've had ANRP nurses pull that shit, very sorry to hear. Would recommend switching to a different practice. Be safe.

 

[Snap Dragon]

Have you watched the Leah Remini documentary on Netflix, "Scientology and the Aftermath"? It's really good at showing how the CoS grabs people, what it takes from them, and how they manage to get out.

 

[Amanda Andrew M Mankin]

>change patient's medications
>patient VISIBLY deteriorating and barely comprehensible
>doesn't change medicines back
>doesn't even try something new

Someone's getting paid handsomely, aren't they? I've had ANRP nurses pull that shit, very sorry to hear. Would recommend switching to a different practice. Be safe.

They're all the same, and nobody is taking new patients. They don't care. They don't return my phone calls, my emails, nothing. And I know that's very much a New Jersey thing but I'm fucking stranded here now.

It's so fucking sick, but I keep going back to Scientology because they legitimately care. They give you this incredibly bizarre brand of tough love and they never leave one of their own to die, no matter how big of a piece of shit they are. In a weird way it's like unconditional love for people who've never gotten it from their family. Even if you have to pay for it. It's like prostitution but instead you're renting a loving family that's love is in an even weirder way unconditional. Yes I know this is how and why people join cults. But they care about me more than these fucking doctors do. The Scientologists work ethic has not buckled under the pandemic, the rest of the world's has though, and because of it I fell right through the ass cracks of the system and I don't even have access to the meds I was on last year because they wound up giving me full blown serotonin syndrome. Those psychiatrists would have let me die without a second thought.

This is what I mean. Scientology has a weird way of giving a person 9 lives. They teach you true survivalist instinct. And they imprint that survivalist instinct on your fellow Scientologists. It's literally like a hive mind. It's something you would have to physically go to an official Org to understand and I would not recommend actually walking into one because once they put you on that E-meter, they have you. It's honest to God the weirdest form of therapy imaginable but only for the most broken people on Earth. And I know for a fact it makes me an utterly embarrassing person to be around because they are indeed a bunch of squares. But it's the only substitute I have for actual therapy now.

This is why Tom Cruise isn't jumping up and down on couches anymore. Now we're all just kind of crying together. We're all having one big telepathic crygasm together at the realization of the mortality of Scientology itself and how it might not survive Biden's America.

We're all in mourning as we've felt the loss of L Ron Hubbard truly hit our hearts for the first time and all had to say "maybe nothing can be done about this.." And that ain't crit, that's the God's honest truth. We literally need to all comfort each other in our time mutual time of need.

 

[Trombonista]

Great, now they're both crazy troons.

 

[Jack Awful]

They're all the same, and nobody is taking new patients. They don't care. They don't return my phone calls, my emails, nothing. And I know that's very much a New Jersey thing but I'm fucking stranded here now.

It's so fucking sick, but I keep going back to Scientology because they legitimately care. They give you this incredibly bizarre brand of tough love and they never leave one of their own to die, no matter how big of a piece of shit they are. In a weird way it's like unconditional love for people who've never gotten it from their family. Even if you have to pay for it. It's like prostitution but instead you're renting a loving family that's love is in an even weirder way unconditional. Yes I know this is how and why people join cults. But they care about me more than these fucking doctors do. The Scientologists work ethic has not buckled under the pandemic, the rest of the world's has though, and because of it I fell right through the ass cracks of the system and I don't even have access to the meds I was on last year because they wound up giving me full blown serotonin syndrome. Those psychiatrists would have let me die without a second thought.

This is what I mean. Scientology has a weird way of giving a person 9 lives. They teach you true survivalist instinct. And they imprint that survivalist instinct on your fellow Scientologists. It's literally like a hive mind. It's something you would have to physically go to an official Org to understand and I would not recommend actually walking into one because once they put you on that E-meter, they have you. It's honest to God the weirdest form of therapy imaginable but only for the most broken people on Earth. And I know for a fact it makes me an utterly embarrassing person to be around because they are indeed a bunch of squares. But it's the only substitute I have for actual therapy now.

This is why Tom Cruise isn't jumping up and down on couches anymore. Now we're all just kind of crying together. We're all having one big telepathic crygasm together at the realization of the mortality of Scientology itself and how it might not survive Biden's America.

We're all in mourning as we've felt the loss of L Ron Hubbard truly hit our hearts for the first time and all had to say "maybe nothing can be done about this.." And that ain't crit, that's the God's honest truth. We literally need to all comfort each other in our time mutual time of need.

Seems like you need people to talk to, and the Scientologists are roping you in and trying to play the victim by claiming they need you, but actually just want you for money and free labor.

 

[Amanda Andrew M Mankin]

Great, now they're both crazy troons.

Sadly, yes. Shmorky could also be most accurately described as Bigender along with myself. But hey, if the Sky Gods of ancient Mesopotamia could be Bigender, why can't I? That's the way I look at things now. Maybe I want to be the reptilian shapeshifter for once. I promise I won't shit this thread up with too much talk about UFOs or the Alien Agenda though.

My mouth to God's ears though Shmorky told me he was a closet Rothschild bastard and a UFO abductee. It's kind of exactly as Henry Zebrowski of LPOTL says though: Anything involving aliens will ruin your fucking life. It's true, it did when I started using Auditing to recover Shmorky's memories. Shmorky exhibited all the signs of being a UFO abductee too. The piss and shit fixation was part of it. That's why I recommend READING Whitley Strieber instead of just watching the films or listening to his shows - the books are structured like a hypnosis session.

Also my mouth to God's ears - Shmorky was involved in the team of troons that created the Meat Sleep ARG. They confided this in me indirectly but enough to give me confirmation (in person in 2016). The Meat Sleep ARG I believe was created to trigger very specific people - UFO abductees and Gay Conversion Therapy victims. Because weirdly enough that's a venn diagram that exists.

It's true. But they're fucking real and they ain't our benevolent space brothers and they ain't from outer space they're from underground. But I swear that's the last I'll say about aliens because the whole topic of aliens to me has become what it has become to Whitley Strieber and everyone else who writes about them: A literal pain in the ass.

 

[William S. Sessions]

Let's go back a few pages.

We need a miracle, David.
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To be perfectly clear, it's not hard to get the Church to acknowledge you like this. I visited a Scientology Org once — as a joke — and they sent me hand-addressed junk mail for a year. Welcoming the sick, tired and desperate is kind of what churches do, and the CoS is absolutely starved for new blood, as you claim to know. You've been lied to and exploited. Quit flipping the fuck out and read a different book.

 

[Mister Qwerty]

I couldn’t help but notice that the avatar of Mandy/Conrad's face is almost a dead ringer for Dana Marie Cain. The resemblance is almost uncanny.

 

[Polexia Aphrodisia]

I couldn’t help but notice that the avatar of Mandy/Conrad's face is almost a dead ringer for Dana Marie Cain. The resemblance is almost uncanny.

At least in her PFP she's got a vaguely Toni Collettey thing going on.

 

[Amanda Andrew M Mankin]

Let's go back a few pages.

To be perfectly clear, it's not hard to get the Church to acknowledge you like this. I visited a Scientology Org once — as a joke — and they sent me hand-addressed junk mail for a year. Welcoming the sick, tired and desperate is kind of what churches do, and the CoS is absolutely starved for new blood, as you claim to know. You've been lied to and exploited. Quit flipping the fuck out and read a different book.

If I'll allow myself to sound like a stereotypical woman for just a moment: Daddy Hubbard was the only real dad I ever had. Even though he technically died before I was born. It's so fucking weird but I feel GOOD having this bizarre parental figure that is the collective CoS watching me. I like knowing that they're watching over me. I love the bombardment of emails of people telling me they care about me and are rooting for me even if they don't really mean it and only want my money. Even if the Ethics Department will occasionally intervene in your life in ways that may be unpleasant.

Isn't this what people just do now in the year of our Lord 2021? Aren't we all just paying for our affection whether it be a camgirl or findom mistress or place of worship? Is not every church a place of worship where we worship a dead man? Whose to say that LRH WASN'T the second coming of Jesus and Trump is the second coming of LRH which makes this the third coming of Jesus whose name is actually Yah-HU-SHU-WAH? I just need to know right now that there is life after death. That all my friends who commit suicide are still there somewhere watching over me and helping me survive Biden's America. That this Zionist run planet Earth of ours is not all there is. That there's something else out there. That maybe there are benevolent space brothers coming to save us even though I know they're not benevolent but maybe there's a race of aliens who are. Because I don't trust the Plaedians. I just don't trust them. I don't trust the Ashtar Command as far as I can throw it.

BTW - I actually have a source now - some friends who have connections to the Secret Space Program. They've informed me that due to my Social Security Number I'm part Plaedian which is why I don't even trust myself. I don't trust the fucking Plaedians anymore, they've become corrupted. I'm sorry. Even if they are the progenitors of the white race. And I know that's racist, I'm trying not to be so racist anymore. But I literally do not trust white people to make their own decisions for themselves anymore. The entire white race needs to go to a fucking inpatient unit for 2 weeks and get their shit straightened out too. They're mentally ill. Everything is as Hubbard said it would be. The white race has become fucking mentally ill. The Jewish side of my brain allows me to see it and it's horrifying to watch. And I have to watch it every single day and then see it in my nightmares at night.

I'm cognizant of the fact the planet is literally dying because of 5G. Hubbard knew about the 5G and its mind control abilities in fucking 1980, it's all in that pamphlet.

Everyone who could have stopped 5G is either dead or deposed and I don't know how to handle this anymore.

We're going to go into this again, I'm sorry. Explain to me how Hubbard knew about this shit in the fucking 70/80s. I'm waiting. It's just I still don't know to rise above the bank or do 7, 8, 9, and 10. So I just don't know what I'm gonna do about 5G anymore except refuse to die out of spite.

 

[The Fatriarchy]

5G isn't doing anything either. It's just a useless iteration on cellphone network standards that nobody ever needed, but if people can be convinced they need it, cellphone people make money. That's it. That's the only thing. You don't even know what 5G is.

 

[AnOminous]

I think we both know the problem here is that I don't. I know exactly what they are. I know what happened to Lisa McPherson. But it's the only thing that's ever worked for me. I think I've done it. I think I've made the saddest Kiwi Farms post known to man. You're welcome, Null. I'm the only person in the world that Scientology worked its intended purpose for. It has a way of turning schizos into normal people and normal people into schizos.

Introspection Rundown is a great way of turning schizos into dead people, e.g. Lisa McPherson.

5G isn't doing anything either. It's just a useless iteration on cellphone network standards that nobody ever needed, but if people can be convinced they need it, cellphone people make money. That's it. That's the only thing. You don't even know what 5G is.

It's somewhat infuriating the cell phone networks are dropping support for completely functional phones just to force you to buy some piece of shit you don't even need.

 

[Amanda Andrew M Mankin]

5G isn't doing anything either. It's just a useless iteration on cellphone network standards that nobody ever needed, but if people can be convinced they need it, cellphone people make money. That's it. That's the only thing. You don't even know what 5G is.

It's a fucking kill switch. And the Hackensack-Meridian Health System Network fucking chipped me in psych jail. I'm literally living on borrowed time. My problem isn't sadbrains because I want to die my problem is sadbrains because I DON'T WANT TO DIE.

And @AnOminous the principle drive of every life form on this Earth is to survive. If that's what it takes to survive 5G...I'll fucking do it. My primary driving force in life up to this point is not letting the Zionists win, I don't intend to stop now. I will do whatever it takes to become unkillable by these people. They ain't unbeatable and they ain't unstoppable friend. I just have to find the answers within myself. That's why you do the Introspection Rundown.

EDIT: Why do you think I'm so concerned about there being an afterlife all of a sudden? I told you, I was already legally dead once and I didn't see Jesus or the Virgin Mary. Nothing but green fire and demonic voices. I can't accept that that is what's waiting for me after death. I know it was probably what they call a near death hallucination or something but now that 5G is here and I'm chipped....I have concerns.