moonchildlxllaby
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How the fuck did I get here??
Snowflake Chloe Wilkinson / DissociaDID and Nanette Zuniga / Nan / TeamPinata
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ManManatee
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Hey Maria, advice.
Right when you sign up, there's a notice saying protect your identity. You don't want things about yourself known to other people on this site. This includes not using a username that you use other places, as it can connect back to personal details. Get off here ASAP. This isn't the place for you
Adala
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In the livestream at 12:06 She said "We got this house" and then she immediately corrected herself and said "We rented this house"
Whether she bought a house when she was afraid of getting homeless?
Whether she bought a house when she was afraid of getting homeless?
CursedCapsule
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So more adoring cult members could donate out of pity over that lie. Anyway, if she really got that house, stuff will get back to her since little by little she wouldn't be able to afford it anymore. Get a job Chloe ScammynsonIn the livestream at 12:06 She said "We got this house" and then she immediately corrected herself and said "We rented this house"
Whether she bought a house when she was afraid of getting homeless?
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stream with the chat in view https://youtu.be/e9O3YJ06Z9o
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Boy, I don't have the time or mental fortitude to watch this whole thing while looking at chat, but skipping through randomly landed me near 52:56 , where Nina (An alter who lived "near the dungeons.") answers a question from Bella F-B, who asks: "We have a blind alter (Matthew Murdock) and when he gets to front (which since he's dating the host is pretty often) he gets very disoriented suddenly having sight, any advice on how to help him?"
Wonderful. Thank God she's back to educate and answer the hard questions.
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watch trustpilot delete the whole profile because of these weens
Someone on Reddit said that during her livestream she kept getting asked questions about if she’s currently in therapy and she ignored all of them. Can’t verify since I haven’t watched the stream yet, but very funny if it’s true.
Someone on Reddit said that during her livestream she kept getting asked questions about if she’s currently in therapy and she ignored all of them. Can’t verify since I haven’t watched the stream yet, but very funny if it’s true.
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Around that time she also deletes a critical comment that said "Saying your littles felt safe around your The last person you dated invalidates any csa survivors who were told to trust an adult (teacher/nanny/father, mother, grandpa) then got abused by them."
I'm sure she reflexively deleted based on the reference to her "former partner" but I don't even think that's what this person was going for?
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Clicking through the video randomly, it seems like she was deleting almost every comment that person made for the majority of the stream to the point where I'm not sure why she didn't just block them. She accused them of being a troll from dark web hate sites, but never actually kicked them for some reason.
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I can't be assed to find which page it was on, but Chloe got a bit of flack for posting flirty/sexy photos not too long ago. With Nina "intergrated" and Chloe clearly not getting the response she wants from her flirty pictures, I can't help but wonder if Mara is her new excuse for when she wants to appear a bit sexy, because, call me stupid, but how does what ever the fuck Mara is supposed to be help with her "oh so scary trauma i got called crazy".
Lolcow fucked up deleting the super sexy Nina and needs another female for the simp lords.
ETA so i don't autistically double post:
Her banner is updated again, no longer an educator and now scheduling posts on sundays.
Via a comment on tiktok, we are in for a Jade video.
Lolcow fucked up deleting the super sexy Nina and needs another female for the simp lords.
ETA so i don't autistically double post:
Her banner is updated again, no longer an educator and now scheduling posts on sundays.
Via a comment on tiktok, we are in for a Jade video.
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New video with Jade/F/Gatekeeper about GATEKEEPING ALTERS. Looks like she finally has some videos done if she's planning on posting every Sunday. She can't even keep up with her patrons, but now she has episodes every week? Guess she finally found a way to work in the filming/writing she was doing during her multiple month vacation, I mean break.
I'll try to sum it up. but it is absolutely bonkers and I'm only watching once. It's basically just a description of her fantasy world.
Jade can apparently control who's fronting, can control the alters memories, protects 'dormant' alters, and a lot of other wacky shit like "who accesses what areas of the inner world."
"I control who has access to the dungeons, the carousel, the basement , and nobody has access beyond the carousel except me and one of our persecutors.. Only Demon and I are able to access the carousel." Referring to a magic door in the center of the carousel lol..
Zoom-cut "I choose... who goes in... or out.."
Jade lives in a cave, but isn't ashamed!
The dormant alters Jade protects are an "unusual," special kind of dormant, but she has regular dormant alters too.
Flash transition instead of plain cut. What is like being a GATEKEEPER? graphic - "important, high stress, high demand," yet her voice is slow... almost.. like.. someone on drugs. Def picked the wrong voice for an alter who's entire existence is high stress.
She seemingly retracts her statement about controlling who can front, but still feels all the oh so painful emotions they go experience. And she can like suck the memories out of them if their having a flashback. Real silly stuff and only half way in.
"I'm not non-human, but I am ageless." Says she was raised by another alter (Ruby) "essentially"
She of course is THE MOST protective, a bad-ass with a sharp tongue, and people are always telling her she's so super unnerving because she's so direct! Zoom to close-up "I DO NOT, pull punches." She claims she "does not say anything that does not need to be said" Most would probably disagree.
Ok actually, she can control who fronts, but only occasionally. A graphic appears on screen to display what she has control over. Of course Chloe would highlight something like control with a text graphic. It reads "Memory filing, Access to Front." Also text graphic for imaginary things she is "Guarding: places, objects, alters."
"If Kyle is first level of command within our system.. then I am the second in command." He is like like the outside protector and she is the inside protector. Something ridiculous like that. The smug smile she had on when saying weak ass Kyle was first in command was sad to witness.
She's also not vindictive, but strong, calculated, logical, measured, and humble enough to not say she's smarter than you, even though she clearly wants to. Fake looking at floor. "I want Nin to know she's asking a lot of me to make this video."
More bragging about how protective she is and how there's so many trauma memories to keep away. Nin is aware of most of them, but not all... because there's just so many.. SlowJade has witnessed, understood, and filed memories of abuse of other alters and of course herself because they just all have experienced such traumatic abuse.
Jade just handles it all. Because that's the Sad Life of Slow Jade
I'll try to sum it up. but it is absolutely bonkers and I'm only watching once. It's basically just a description of her fantasy world.
Jade can apparently control who's fronting, can control the alters memories, protects 'dormant' alters, and a lot of other wacky shit like "who accesses what areas of the inner world."
"I control who has access to the dungeons, the carousel, the basement , and nobody has access beyond the carousel except me and one of our persecutors.. Only Demon and I are able to access the carousel." Referring to a magic door in the center of the carousel lol..
Zoom-cut "I choose... who goes in... or out.."
Jade lives in a cave, but isn't ashamed!
The dormant alters Jade protects are an "unusual," special kind of dormant, but she has regular dormant alters too.
Flash transition instead of plain cut. What is like being a GATEKEEPER? graphic - "important, high stress, high demand," yet her voice is slow... almost.. like.. someone on drugs. Def picked the wrong voice for an alter who's entire existence is high stress.
She seemingly retracts her statement about controlling who can front, but still feels all the oh so painful emotions they go experience. And she can like suck the memories out of them if their having a flashback. Real silly stuff and only half way in.
"I'm not non-human, but I am ageless." Says she was raised by another alter (Ruby) "essentially"
She of course is THE MOST protective, a bad-ass with a sharp tongue, and people are always telling her she's so super unnerving because she's so direct! Zoom to close-up "I DO NOT, pull punches." She claims she "does not say anything that does not need to be said" Most would probably disagree.
Ok actually, she can control who fronts, but only occasionally. A graphic appears on screen to display what she has control over. Of course Chloe would highlight something like control with a text graphic. It reads "Memory filing, Access to Front." Also text graphic for imaginary things she is "Guarding: places, objects, alters."
"If Kyle is first level of command within our system.. then I am the second in command." He is like like the outside protector and she is the inside protector. Something ridiculous like that. The smug smile she had on when saying weak ass Kyle was first in command was sad to witness.
She's also not vindictive, but strong, calculated, logical, measured, and humble enough to not say she's smarter than you, even though she clearly wants to. Fake looking at floor. "I want Nin to know she's asking a lot of me to make this video."
More bragging about how protective she is and how there's so many trauma memories to keep away. Nin is aware of most of them, but not all... because there's just so many.. SlowJade has witnessed, understood, and filed memories of abuse of other alters and of course herself because they just all have experienced such traumatic abuse.
Jade just handles it all. Because that's the Sad Life of Slow Jade
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I have nothing better to do with my life so I transcribed the newest video. There are quite a lot of lol moments from the cow today. Chloe tries so desperately to appear so uber scary and badass as Jade, but it just came across as terribly boring and wide eyed.
TLDR:
Jade is super scary and badass and let's us know multiple times she only did this video because Nin asked her to!1!!! (Also note, Chloe was parading around as Nin in this exact outfit on tiktok. I guess Jade only popped in for the video and then left since that's all she was needed for. Very convenient.)
Jade talks about how she is control of who fronts (side note: is she cool with Kyle putting the children to sleep when they front, I guess since she claims to be his second in command it's fine.)
She spends a hot minute describing the inner world and the cave she lives in (which she's not ashamed of guys), the basement, the carousel, and the scary dungeon. She mentions only herself and "Demon" having access to a door in the middle of the Carousel. SRA trauma anyone? She really hit the abuse and trauma nail repeatedly in this video. "I have lots of uwu scary memories. I know all the abuse but I'm not comfortable sharing it, so don't ask me to!"
Patreon's ask where she lives and works-- am I to believe that some alters have to go to work while inside of their mansion or am I just not understanding this? "Oh, the simps want Kyle to come out? Sorry, he can't come out to play right now. He has a shift at the McDonalds that's down the street from our McMansion, lol."
If you don't read everything, or watch the video. Just, this part:
"I cannot discuss the psychology behind names or the carousel, and I will not discuss what is beyond the carousel. I can tell you that inside the carousel is where I do memory filing and the mainframe is most active. It is full of computer systems, backups, huge filing cabinets, but I will not discuss further than that."
What the actual fuck? "Mainframe"? I don't know if she's going for a super cool matrix vibe, but all I got was that scene from SpongeBob with all the mini SpongeBob's working at the desks. Image is under the spoiler.
Hello everybody. Welcome back to another video by DissociaDID. This is Jade [text on screen: Jade / F / Gatekeeper GATEKEEPER] and today we are going to be answering questions that were given to us by our patreons [patreon link appears on screen] and they asked us to make a video on what my role is like as a gatekeeper of the system [Text on screen: GATEKEEPERS. Intro plays]
[Text on screen: What is a gatekeeper?]
A gate keeper alter is an alter that can have various roles within a system*. Mainly they are able to control who has access to what memories or who has access to the front. [Text on screen: Gatekeepers control who has access to memories or who can access the front]
( *NOTE: Chloe is looking now and to her left as she forms this sentence. Throughout this whole video, Chloe looks at times like she doesn't know what she's saying and then has to refer to notes that are clearly in front of her.)
Sometimes if there is that needs to happen, or somebody who needs to be blocked from the front a gatekeeper alter may be more able than other alters to control who has that access and who doesn't. My role is less like that in my system.
(*NOTE: In this next part, Chloe continues to look down multiple times as if reading off a cue card. She switches between staring the camera down in a creepy alien way and dropping her gaze, I am assuming it is to read her notes.)
[Text on screen: What's your role in the system?]
My role is more to do with memories and controlling and removing memories. So for example if Nin, or in the past Chloe, were to have a flashback that they weren't ready to handle yet, that we as a system were not ready for the repercussions of yet, I am responsible for removing the memory from her consciousness. That's not to say that this is always successful and it's not an easy thing to do. But I do have control of memory filing.
[Text on screen: Some gatekeepers can control who can access certain areas of the inner world.]
I am also able to control who accesses what areas of the inner world. Some gatekeepers may literally gatekeep within the inner world. Control who can access what subsystems or what structures in the inner world, perhaps they may guard specific objects, or alters. I guard all of these things. I control who has access to the dungeons, who has access to the carousel, who has access to the basement, and nobody has access beyond the carousel except me and one of our persecutors, Demon. Only Demon and I are able to access the carousel. There is a door that floats in the center of the carousel, to everybody else this door looks black, to me and Demon this door looks red and we are able to pass through it.
(*Note: Okay so, the other person who has access to this super scary door in the basement behind the creepy carousel is named Demon? Do we know Demon? Also is this a hint at SRA again?)
I live in a cave, and it is my home. I am not ashamed of it. I guard the mouth of the cave, the tunnels beyond the cave which connect to the basements... and the dungeon.
I am responsible for allowing nobody except those I choose in or out.
[Text on screen: In our system, Jade protects "dormant" alters.]
I guard and protect the alters who are still dormant. Let's call it dormant. It's a... unusual kind of dormant. Different than the kind that the alters in the loft of the mansion experience their dormancy.
I am responsible for those in the basement and those trauma holders and emotional parts who are in the dungeons and keep the awareness of them away from the other alters.
[Text on screen: What is it like being a gatekeeper?]
As a gatekeeper, my role is important. High stress, high demand. Often times gatekeepers of other systems are around the front especially if they are the type of gatekeeper that can help control and facilitate switching. I am not an alter like that, but I am almost always aware of what is going on emotionally within the system and those who are at the front.
This means I am able to tell relatively quickly whether Nin, or who ever is fronting, is having a flashback and whether it is okay or not for them to keep hold of those memories. I have to make decisions quickly.
I am also a trauma holder. Lots of gatekeepers are trauma holders.
[Text on screen: What are gatekeepers usually like?]
It is not unusual for us to be non-human or ageless. I am not non-human but I am ageless. I did age and grow for a time, I was raised by Ruby, essentially. I am also the most protective in terms of vocalizing for the system. I have a very sharp tongue. I can be very firm and I have also been told I can be quite unnerving, because of how direct I am. I do not pull punches.
(*Note: Chloe, dear.. you can't just claim to have a sharp tongue and not pull punches. The only thing unnerving about you is the creepy way you stare at the camera. I have to go bleach my eyes from making eye contact with you for so long. Also side note: I thought someone else raised Jade and gave her some uwu special necklace in the cave of imagination? Do I have my lore wrong?)
I say what I mean and I choose my words very carefully. I do not say anything that does not need to be said.
[Text on screen: What are your responsibilities as a gatekeeper?]
Part of my role as a gatekeeper is to guard as I said, places, objects and alters [Text on screen: Guarding: - places -objects -alters] as well as controlling memory filing and who has access to the front on occasion [Text on screen: Controlling: -memory filing -access to the front]
My job is vast and delicate. The gatekeepers are incredibly stabilizing to the system. If Kyle is the first level of command within our system, then I am his second in command. We consider ourselves equals. His role is much more front facing, interacting with people from the outside world. Whereas mine is protecting from the inside. I protect alters from each other, I protect us from our own memories, I protect from the realities of the abuse that we experienced and the trauma that came separately from that and resulted from that. It is significant.
(*Note: Chloe starts this part staring wistfully to the side.)
I am glad... that Nin has the experience of what it is like to be within the system, especially on the lower levels because she was once Nina, and Nina was a sexual protector and in some instances she was a persecutor.
I still hold back some of Nina's memories from Nin, not all, but enough. This also means that I am aware of a lot, I have experienced abuse myself and I have witnessed, understood, and filed memories of abuse and trauma for other alters. I know I may come across as harsh, but I am not vindictive. I am biter, but I am logical, and I am measured and I have to be.
As a gate keeper, that is integral to be able to do my job effectively, correctly. There is little room for error. I want Nin to know that she is asking a lot of me to make this video.
[Text on screen: What does it mean to present as ageless?]
Presenting as ageless, I don't know if I am immortal. but I certainly don't age anymore and I also would not say I am an emotionless part, not as strong as others for certain, but I do feel emotion. But I do feel that being ageless and having less emotion is not only helpful for me to do my job as a gatekeeper but necessary due to the amounts of trauma and abuse that I have seen and witnessed on behalf of others and experienced myself. This perhaps a way to cope, and it is not something I consciously chose, but it is how I am.
[Text on screen: Where do you live and work?]
I do not often leave my caves or the tunnels or the dungeon or the basement or the carousel or beyond. I do not tend to leave the mansion, I am present in the front room often, as and when is needed, but I do not tend to step foot outside the mansion. My job keeps me very much in the center of our inner world and in the lower darker areas of it.
Some people consider the idea* of an internal world to be a fairytale or a happy dream but on the surface it may seem like that, but there are lower, darker parts.
[Text on screen: The inner world is a complex place]
(*Note: Chloe smirks and seems to break character for a moment when she mentions people not believing her elaborate fantasy world)
Perhaps this is not the same for every system, as Nin is always repeating, every system is unique and that is true. But in our experience, the inner world is a difficult place to be. There are a few places that are light, pleasant, calming, but many are dark and the basement--I do not wish to trigger any body but perhaps in another video, if necessary, if I deem it safe, I can discuss why the dungeon exists and what is in there and what is in the basement and how that works.
I cannot discuss the psychology behind names or the carousel, and I will not discuss what is beyond the carousel. I can tell you that inside the carousel is where I do memory filing and the mainframe is most active.
[Text on screen: In our system, the carousel is where memory filing is done and the Mainframe is most active.]
It is full of computer systems, backups, huge filing cabinets, but I will not discuss further than that.
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I hope that this has shed some insight for you, I am not comfortable discussing further. Nin has asked a lot of me by requesting that I film this video, but I would not do something that I was not okay with.
I hope that this has been interesting. Please let us know if you would like to see anything further, or if you require further clarification or if you wish to know more about my personal experiences.
Again, I will take these on a case by case bases and I make no promises.
Thank you for watching, subscribe, and click the bell button if you would like to see more. Lot of love every body. Goodbye.
(*Note: Chloe does a subdued version of her sign off, kissing her hands and covering the camera. The outro plays.)
[Text on screen: What is a gatekeeper?]
A gate keeper alter is an alter that can have various roles within a system*. Mainly they are able to control who has access to what memories or who has access to the front. [Text on screen: Gatekeepers control who has access to memories or who can access the front]
( *NOTE: Chloe is looking now and to her left as she forms this sentence. Throughout this whole video, Chloe looks at times like she doesn't know what she's saying and then has to refer to notes that are clearly in front of her.)
Sometimes if there is that needs to happen, or somebody who needs to be blocked from the front a gatekeeper alter may be more able than other alters to control who has that access and who doesn't. My role is less like that in my system.
(*NOTE: In this next part, Chloe continues to look down multiple times as if reading off a cue card. She switches between staring the camera down in a creepy alien way and dropping her gaze, I am assuming it is to read her notes.)
[Text on screen: What's your role in the system?]
My role is more to do with memories and controlling and removing memories. So for example if Nin, or in the past Chloe, were to have a flashback that they weren't ready to handle yet, that we as a system were not ready for the repercussions of yet, I am responsible for removing the memory from her consciousness. That's not to say that this is always successful and it's not an easy thing to do. But I do have control of memory filing.
[Text on screen: Some gatekeepers can control who can access certain areas of the inner world.]
I am also able to control who accesses what areas of the inner world. Some gatekeepers may literally gatekeep within the inner world. Control who can access what subsystems or what structures in the inner world, perhaps they may guard specific objects, or alters. I guard all of these things. I control who has access to the dungeons, who has access to the carousel, who has access to the basement, and nobody has access beyond the carousel except me and one of our persecutors, Demon. Only Demon and I are able to access the carousel. There is a door that floats in the center of the carousel, to everybody else this door looks black, to me and Demon this door looks red and we are able to pass through it.
(*Note: Okay so, the other person who has access to this super scary door in the basement behind the creepy carousel is named Demon? Do we know Demon? Also is this a hint at SRA again?)
I live in a cave, and it is my home. I am not ashamed of it. I guard the mouth of the cave, the tunnels beyond the cave which connect to the basements... and the dungeon.
I am responsible for allowing nobody except those I choose in or out.
[Text on screen: In our system, Jade protects "dormant" alters.]
I guard and protect the alters who are still dormant. Let's call it dormant. It's a... unusual kind of dormant. Different than the kind that the alters in the loft of the mansion experience their dormancy.
I am responsible for those in the basement and those trauma holders and emotional parts who are in the dungeons and keep the awareness of them away from the other alters.
[Text on screen: What is it like being a gatekeeper?]
As a gatekeeper, my role is important. High stress, high demand. Often times gatekeepers of other systems are around the front especially if they are the type of gatekeeper that can help control and facilitate switching. I am not an alter like that, but I am almost always aware of what is going on emotionally within the system and those who are at the front.
This means I am able to tell relatively quickly whether Nin, or who ever is fronting, is having a flashback and whether it is okay or not for them to keep hold of those memories. I have to make decisions quickly.
I am also a trauma holder. Lots of gatekeepers are trauma holders.
[Text on screen: What are gatekeepers usually like?]
It is not unusual for us to be non-human or ageless. I am not non-human but I am ageless. I did age and grow for a time, I was raised by Ruby, essentially. I am also the most protective in terms of vocalizing for the system. I have a very sharp tongue. I can be very firm and I have also been told I can be quite unnerving, because of how direct I am. I do not pull punches.
(*Note: Chloe, dear.. you can't just claim to have a sharp tongue and not pull punches. The only thing unnerving about you is the creepy way you stare at the camera. I have to go bleach my eyes from making eye contact with you for so long. Also side note: I thought someone else raised Jade and gave her some uwu special necklace in the cave of imagination? Do I have my lore wrong?)
I say what I mean and I choose my words very carefully. I do not say anything that does not need to be said.
[Text on screen: What are your responsibilities as a gatekeeper?]
Part of my role as a gatekeeper is to guard as I said, places, objects and alters [Text on screen: Guarding: - places -objects -alters] as well as controlling memory filing and who has access to the front on occasion [Text on screen: Controlling: -memory filing -access to the front]
My job is vast and delicate. The gatekeepers are incredibly stabilizing to the system. If Kyle is the first level of command within our system, then I am his second in command. We consider ourselves equals. His role is much more front facing, interacting with people from the outside world. Whereas mine is protecting from the inside. I protect alters from each other, I protect us from our own memories, I protect from the realities of the abuse that we experienced and the trauma that came separately from that and resulted from that. It is significant.
(*Note: Chloe starts this part staring wistfully to the side.)
I am glad... that Nin has the experience of what it is like to be within the system, especially on the lower levels because she was once Nina, and Nina was a sexual protector and in some instances she was a persecutor.
I still hold back some of Nina's memories from Nin, not all, but enough. This also means that I am aware of a lot, I have experienced abuse myself and I have witnessed, understood, and filed memories of abuse and trauma for other alters. I know I may come across as harsh, but I am not vindictive. I am biter, but I am logical, and I am measured and I have to be.
As a gate keeper, that is integral to be able to do my job effectively, correctly. There is little room for error. I want Nin to know that she is asking a lot of me to make this video.
[Text on screen: What does it mean to present as ageless?]
Presenting as ageless, I don't know if I am immortal. but I certainly don't age anymore and I also would not say I am an emotionless part, not as strong as others for certain, but I do feel emotion. But I do feel that being ageless and having less emotion is not only helpful for me to do my job as a gatekeeper but necessary due to the amounts of trauma and abuse that I have seen and witnessed on behalf of others and experienced myself. This perhaps a way to cope, and it is not something I consciously chose, but it is how I am.
[Text on screen: Where do you live and work?]
I do not often leave my caves or the tunnels or the dungeon or the basement or the carousel or beyond. I do not tend to leave the mansion, I am present in the front room often, as and when is needed, but I do not tend to step foot outside the mansion. My job keeps me very much in the center of our inner world and in the lower darker areas of it.
Some people consider the idea* of an internal world to be a fairytale or a happy dream but on the surface it may seem like that, but there are lower, darker parts.
[Text on screen: The inner world is a complex place]
(*Note: Chloe smirks and seems to break character for a moment when she mentions people not believing her elaborate fantasy world)
Perhaps this is not the same for every system, as Nin is always repeating, every system is unique and that is true. But in our experience, the inner world is a difficult place to be. There are a few places that are light, pleasant, calming, but many are dark and the basement--I do not wish to trigger any body but perhaps in another video, if necessary, if I deem it safe, I can discuss why the dungeon exists and what is in there and what is in the basement and how that works.
I cannot discuss the psychology behind names or the carousel, and I will not discuss what is beyond the carousel. I can tell you that inside the carousel is where I do memory filing and the mainframe is most active.
[Text on screen: In our system, the carousel is where memory filing is done and the Mainframe is most active.]
It is full of computer systems, backups, huge filing cabinets, but I will not discuss further than that.
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I hope that this has shed some insight for you, I am not comfortable discussing further. Nin has asked a lot of me by requesting that I film this video, but I would not do something that I was not okay with.
I hope that this has been interesting. Please let us know if you would like to see anything further, or if you require further clarification or if you wish to know more about my personal experiences.
Again, I will take these on a case by case bases and I make no promises.
Thank you for watching, subscribe, and click the bell button if you would like to see more. Lot of love every body. Goodbye.
(*Note: Chloe does a subdued version of her sign off, kissing her hands and covering the camera. The outro plays.)
TLDR:
Jade is super scary and badass and let's us know multiple times she only did this video because Nin asked her to!1!!! (Also note, Chloe was parading around as Nin in this exact outfit on tiktok. I guess Jade only popped in for the video and then left since that's all she was needed for. Very convenient.)
Jade talks about how she is control of who fronts (side note: is she cool with Kyle putting the children to sleep when they front, I guess since she claims to be his second in command it's fine.)
She spends a hot minute describing the inner world and the cave she lives in (which she's not ashamed of guys), the basement, the carousel, and the scary dungeon. She mentions only herself and "Demon" having access to a door in the middle of the Carousel. SRA trauma anyone? She really hit the abuse and trauma nail repeatedly in this video. "I have lots of uwu scary memories. I know all the abuse but I'm not comfortable sharing it, so don't ask me to!"
Patreon's ask where she lives and works-- am I to believe that some alters have to go to work while inside of their mansion or am I just not understanding this? "Oh, the simps want Kyle to come out? Sorry, he can't come out to play right now. He has a shift at the McDonalds that's down the street from our McMansion, lol."
If you don't read everything, or watch the video. Just, this part:
"I cannot discuss the psychology behind names or the carousel, and I will not discuss what is beyond the carousel. I can tell you that inside the carousel is where I do memory filing and the mainframe is most active. It is full of computer systems, backups, huge filing cabinets, but I will not discuss further than that."
What the actual fuck? "Mainframe"? I don't know if she's going for a super cool matrix vibe, but all I got was that scene from SpongeBob with all the mini SpongeBob's working at the desks. Image is under the spoiler.
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It’s like listening to someone describe their dreams, only worse. I can’t imagine any therapist would support being so invested this sort of maladaptive daydreaming.
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Definitely worse.
I don't know if I hate the way she holds tension in her face or not. Its unsettling in a horror movie gone wrong sort of way, but like a train wreck, I just can't look away every time she pops her eyes open as freakishly wide as they go and pulls her lips in to enunciate her words and highlight her point.
Does anyone check her tiktok? She made a lipsync to an audio about being caught pre-sex by the partners father. Super cringe.
carousels are a common symbol in SRA. "mainframe" sounds like an SRA hierarchy thing to me. she's just doing more hinting at being SRA without saying it so that when she gets called out for not being SRA she can say that she never claimed to be. she's being intentionally vague to sound mysterious and because she doesn't actually know what the details are supposed to look like. she just wants the mystique and sympathy points that comes with being an "SRA survivor."
MaderaTheMad
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I believe the primary "ritual" is called the carousel. It's a deeply convoluted Illuminati / SRA nonsense.
Just one excerpt:
Chapter 1: the initial spits
Alters are created down the road to guard the Silences. They guard
in the full sense, controlling the Silences, and any access to the
Silences. Since the Silences are early splits they are more important
for the full integration of the mind, which the programmers want to
insure doesn’t happen.
........(blah blah blah)......
This is done to create guards for the carousel.
Chapter 7, section B describes the ritual for creating the carousel, it's purpose and how it protects the core/mainframe.
The whole thing explains "inner world" architecture as the result of layers of mind control. There's lots of coincidentally similar concepts but with slightly different words (dormant vs silent for example) between the book and what Jade describes.
Just one excerpt:
Chapter 1: the initial spits
Alters are created down the road to guard the Silences. They guard
in the full sense, controlling the Silences, and any access to the
Silences. Since the Silences are early splits they are more important
for the full integration of the mind, which the programmers want to
insure doesn’t happen.
........(blah blah blah)......
This is done to create guards for the carousel.
Chapter 7, section B describes the ritual for creating the carousel, it's purpose and how it protects the core/mainframe.
The whole thing explains "inner world" architecture as the result of layers of mind control. There's lots of coincidentally similar concepts but with slightly different words (dormant vs silent for example) between the book and what Jade describes.
CursedCapsule
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Girl watched Tron too many times and she made Jade the MCP.
Also, what the actual fuck is an "inner world"? Yes, I know what it represents, but aren't the alters "away" when they do not front? Do they all chill? How do they know, they have some sort of cinema inside of her head? That would require a lot of brain work. I always find it funny when Chloe said that main difference between schizophrenia and DID is that schizophrenia is delusional and psychotic while fabricating an entire world in her head and believing shit like been raised in a cave is just a way to cope, a trauma response, that shit's more delusional than any other disorder.
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I don't know much about SRA except for what had been posted here. I tried googling to see if I could find the link between carousels and SRA. Thanks for the info! I wonder if Chloe actually researched it or if it was a lucky accident. Though with "Demon" at the carousel, I bet it's intentional.
Honestly, I would ask how she thinks she's sounding at all believable, but that smirk she does when she mentions how some people might see it as fantasy. She knows she's full of shit and loves that people are believing her lies.
Anyways.
Here are some screen grabs of the comment section for the lolz. I tried to find some hate but ChloChlo has it scrubbed nice and clean.
Edited to fix the photos because I'm dumb and am still learning how to do this.
Any Silent Hill fans can confirm?
This autist that responded to everything including "hate"
Simps. Everywhere.
This is why Chloe is dangerous. People will get into mental health professions and fuck people up. Also "uwu i want this super debilitating disorder to uwu"
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