- Joined
- Jul 22, 2020
Hi, I’m BlueGopherSnakes and I was a victim of CSA, covert incest, emotional/psychological abuse, and physical abuse from multiple caregivers in my life. While I have taken years to process and course-correct, I must have missed the memo about having to troon out and start shitting in adult diapers while searching for employment opportunities with access to and power over vulnerable children. Whoops.
My abuse didn’t transform me into a pedophile, awaken any disgusting fetishes, or screw up my “gender identity.” I find it galling that diaperfur pedophiles would claim that they are “processing trauma” with degeneracy. No. Assuming they aren’t lying whole cloth about abuse, they are degenerates who also happen to have been victimized.
Yes. There are certain mental images that I can acknowledge intellectually (one is the image of a specific door at the bottom of a specific staircase, or the floral pattern on a specific set of bed sheets) but I then have to immediately change my train of thought otherwise I’ll ruin my whole day. Even typing out those words provokes a minor stress response, which I can acknowledge and mitigate.
I truly cannot fathom seeking out hobbies or *kinks* intended to retraumatize myself. Living full-time inside a reality constructed from the re-purposed and eroticized imagery of my abuse sounds like Hell. I don’t even mean exclusively the CSA. Those images from AM’s Furaffinity (I think?) fetishizing spanking as punishment were stomach-turning.
Tldr; ABDL and drawing cub porn are not reasonable outcomes from childhood abuse and any pervert on Twitter who suggests otherwise can go fuck themselves for all eternity. And anyone repeating their rationalization out of a lack of personal experience can also go fuck themselves. Please stop using abuse victims to justify your disgusting predilections.
My abuse didn’t transform me into a pedophile, awaken any disgusting fetishes, or screw up my “gender identity.” I find it galling that diaperfur pedophiles would claim that they are “processing trauma” with degeneracy. No. Assuming they aren’t lying whole cloth about abuse, they are degenerates who also happen to have been victimized.
anything that even vaguely reminds you of shit that happened sends you into a spiral.
Yes. There are certain mental images that I can acknowledge intellectually (one is the image of a specific door at the bottom of a specific staircase, or the floral pattern on a specific set of bed sheets) but I then have to immediately change my train of thought otherwise I’ll ruin my whole day. Even typing out those words provokes a minor stress response, which I can acknowledge and mitigate.
I truly cannot fathom seeking out hobbies or *kinks* intended to retraumatize myself. Living full-time inside a reality constructed from the re-purposed and eroticized imagery of my abuse sounds like Hell. I don’t even mean exclusively the CSA. Those images from AM’s Furaffinity (I think?) fetishizing spanking as punishment were stomach-turning.
Tldr; ABDL and drawing cub porn are not reasonable outcomes from childhood abuse and any pervert on Twitter who suggests otherwise can go fuck themselves for all eternity. And anyone repeating their rationalization out of a lack of personal experience can also go fuck themselves. Please stop using abuse victims to justify your disgusting predilections.