Hello first. If you are going to perceive this video as "exploitation of emotions" "pity", I will ask you to close the video and leave now.
I have been under a lot of psychological pressure in the past. All of my boyfriends and girlfriends who said, "You can trust me, I'll be with you all your life." Left me to never come back.
I also admit that I was really stupid when I thought I was cool by trusting everyone, telling everyone about my private life and psychological problems, posing with strange and weird facial expressions when I was a child.
But there was a logical reason for me to constantly tell people about my private life and my psychological problems. Of course, this may not be the right way to act. I thought that if people knew about my psychological problems, they could act accordingly, that is, behave respectfully.
ALL the students were lynching me when I entered school and even the classroom everyday during my primary and secondary school times. I mean by lynching; Things like beating, insulting, humiliating, ostracism, etc. But imagine, I had to go to school EVERYDAY in primary and secondary school, except Saturdays and Sundays, and endure this pain ...
Even in my "childhood", which was the starting point of my life, when I was subjected to all kinds of harassment and violence, I was overcome on the Internet for so LONG time and still coming. And you never put yourself in my place and never thought about it, right?
The more I think of my old times, the more I suffer. A few weeks ago, my OLD friend, whom I had known since 2013 on Discord, came back to me and I was delighted until he blocked me. If I did not aim, it was to make fun of me.
If you have old friends who really want to RETURN me in a truly HONEST and HONEST manner and give me serious psychological support other than any psychological advice and advice, please send me a message via my e-mail address
erdemalsirt99gmail.com.
Yep, now you might be wondering why I'm making a video like this. Normally, in order to be forgotten, I had to delete all my channels and accounts and disappear for a while. Because people are very persistent in humiliating me on the internet and blackening my name.
However, I can no longer remove it. Look, neither my mother nor my father solve my social hunger problem in any way. There is maybe 1 person that I see as my friend now, but our relations with him are very cold and they do not even support me as much as before.
Now, I don't want to hear or see stupid terms like "UEA" "Stupid Maltrock" on the internet. As I say these, I even know that you are coming to more gas. But now, please find yourself another victim because now I am bored and already. I am facing psychological problems.
By the way, if you are very curious why there is such a BACKGROUND picture in this video. Because, when I am making this video, I actually want to tell you what I feel NOW and maybe my destiny of ALONE, which will be in the future, with a visual. In short, get out of the video that says "Emotion exploitation". It even prints the highest possible dislike number on this video. I do not even care .
Also, people's advice to me was that I would permanently delete all my YouTube channels, disappear this way, and never contact anyone. However, have you ever thought about what keeps me alive? While I have been drowning in so much social hunger for years, I try to make myself happy at least by doing my favorite hobbies. So should I not do that too?
Look, I have been stuck on social media like Facebook since 2011 and for this reason I am quite EXPERIENCED. What I say about the change in social media is not just conspiracy theories, it is based entirely on my observations.
2011 to 2015 by the year social media was not bad for Turkey. In those years, too, people were lynching each other, insulting, etc. So why has the internet environment become so unreliable in our country? Because, the young people in our country, unfortunately, tried and succeeded in spreading some derivative things such as lynching culture, caramel humor and shitposting abroad in our country.
People started to care too much about bad and negative things. Our country has begun to be badly denigrated. While we normally have to talk about "What should we do for the development of our country?", Now we have a society that is content with only criticizing our country. Of course, not everyone is like this, but unfortunately this community has started to spread rapidly.
The anonies that attacked me kept calling me "Normie", but contrary to popular belief, the people who are ASIL Normie are people who try to adhere to all kinds of bad events abroad, have them apply and apply it in our country, and to spread it, and just like the Kiwifarms site, they are people who try to normalize all kinds of harassment and abnormal behavior. Because Normies behave according to the majority. I, on the other hand, avoid abnormal things independently of them ..
If I can write to you here in a healthy way, be sure thanks to my family. If I didn't have my family, I might not even be alive right now. So please understand my condition. We are already in the Covid-19 era, and this Corona epidemic is getting more and more severe. You anonymous laughing at me in the future, what do you intend to do when your family or YOU have a deadly Corona disease?
Anyway, I understand that I should not face anonymous people. However, I am constantly explaining to them, and for some reason I always have unnecessary hopes that they will understand me (maybe not superfluous). By the way, I think I've seen very few good people on the 4Chan site, even though there are bad people teasing me. I have seen anonymities that say "Don't mess with virtue" and give me advice about getting away from the Internet for a while.
I am appealing to all anonymous people on 4Chan, Kiwifarms and alternative sites who approach me in good faith; Friends, if the anonies that spread me on the Internet on the right and left, Kiwifarms and its derivative sites are your acquaintances, I ask them to do whatever comes to mind so that they no longer deal with me.
By the way, all comments you write on my videos fall into the checkbox. Therefore, if you really want to help and be a real friend with me, please send a message to my e-mail
erdemalsirt99gmail.com. However, I will not accept friendships with people I do not know. If only the people I used to communicate with want to return to me, I mentioned my e-mail above.
I also finished high school. We applied for YKS. It can be extra difficult for me in my university life. I do not know if I can pass the YKS Exam, I have a self-confidence problem. Only in my hobbies, namely music production, acapella, it seems like I have a few minutes of energy temporarily, but it is temporary and lasts for a few minutes. For the rest, life is like hell to me.
For God's sake, I had a lot of friends between 2013 and 2015. I had friends who loved me very much. How many are still with me now? Tell me, how many of them? It seemed like a pretty suitable number to me. Because yes ZERO. I'm tired of crying every night when I try to sleep. If 1 year is equivalent to 365 days, you don't even want to think that I have been crying and depressed every night for the last 2-3 years.
I will say something to the anonymous people who have harassed me so much on the Internet, and I will end this video. You have made fun of me so much and you are passing by, but I am trying AT LEAST to do something. I do Acapella, I am interested in my hobbies. I think how can I be a better person and try to try. You are wasting your life for the sake of one person. I am not such a mocked person to deal with. I'm an ordinary person. I have nothing special about me.
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