Surely by now there must have been a kiwi who was autistic enough to throw their money at the paywall.
Not a troon expert, so I'm genuinely curious if the HRT might have had something to do with this rash decision. Did he not even consider that he would only stand to lose money by doing this? There's no way he though his new style of "art" would be enough to pay the rent on it's own.
Sorry for the verbose longpost. It's my first so there was a lot on my head I wanted to get out on this subject, won't be like that in the future and unfortunately for you, you're my victim. Hopefully It's not too annoying. Guten tag.
So.
Digi has a long history of rationalizing his failure as a controlled demolition, or his self sabotage as actually some genius artistic checkmate. What we're seeing, I think and probably obvious to most, is the late stage freakout of a childish man desperately trying to control his out of control life.
This worked very well for him at one point. He had to have things his way, it wasn't about throwing a rating system against the wall and selling a show, it was about his personal experience and what it meant to him while living at home until deep 20s, afraid to talk to parents etc etc.
And like a child they don't see themselves as men but as gods, the temerity that once made him shine began to consume itself. Claims like he could control the algorithm, he could be way more popular have way more views and be way rich(if only he wanted to), or even he could make all his friends famous just by being attached to their work, which failed. All the while hemmorrhageing money and getting into trouble with the taxman. To selling out like those he criticized and still failing. He has no merit as an artist like he wants the audience to believe.
Even May told him he should read more books, ya know, actual literature. But he refused. I'm no bookworm, but after reading Don Quixote and Catch 22 I was convinced there was some magic for the mind going on that tv, movies, videogames and comics do not fulfill. Anyway.
Drugs aside. He makes grandiose impulsive decisions, can't finish anything and has never had realistic long term plans. He's part walking talking personality disorder/part internet induced paranoia. This reaches out to what I think is the reason for all the egoist trannies but I digress.
Focusing on the addition of drugs he's now on the same path he's been his whole life but at a much faster rate. Somewhere he is feeling the horror that (if you know what it's like to be facing homelessness with no job or skills) would scare the shit out of someone and force them to get their shit together. That fear should have happened awhile ago but the drugs helped him ignore the way he is. In his need to feel in control of his life with childish behaviors (not brushing teeth is a basic example) he's not capable of prospering on his own, he is truly a broken retard.
While Digi has always been a stunted disaster, his drug addiction keeps that horror from rising to the surface. He can't see that what he wants isn't good for him,or rather he can't have things both ways, he can't be who he wants to be and still be successful. I smoked heavy amounts of weed for 10 years and at some point I woke up and realized I fucked myself over feeling good all the time. Digi is being forced to wake up hard and lately his panic and delusional self destruction are peeking out at full force. The final string is Patreon and once that goes away he's back at square one. Digibro's future holds a complete meltdown, begging parents for money, rehab, reversal of the troonening, and restarting anime videos and it will probably be too little too late.
What we're seeing is a suicide stretched out over the course of years. Like when Michael Jordan decided he wanted to play sports besides basketball. Thankfully Digi loves himself too much to actually commit suicide so we get many more days of chuckles, but sadly he'd never cut his dick off for surprisingly increased chuckles. I feel bad for Vic most of all but mostly
fuck the PCP minus Tom.
