Well, speaking for myself, I don't want Graeme to kill himself, I just want him to stay away from kids and get help. Optimistic I know, because his life is a trainwreck, but I'm not the one to wish death on people I don't even know. His suicide ideation has nothing to do with this site and everything to do with himself, because his life fucking sucks and deep down he knows it. Don't blame us for your suicidal urges Graeme, since according to your own words, you already experienced long before this thread was made.
Wow Graeme, you're such a nice person and good friend, so you are.