what im making of it is that theres a lot going on, and its a lot to take in. my head and my heart hurts and maybe i need to change my name to the firefighter. yesterday when everything happened, i was on a call with a friend and looked up after a bit and saw tons of messages telling me to call jewel. but right when i saw it she said 'i dont wanna take anymore calls'..but yea, i do keep in touch with her too. ive known jewel longer than alice, more than 3 years now. and i do love her too, but my relationship with her is different. i mean all my relationships with everyone is different but they all know how much i love them. but yea, ive seen jewel go through a lot and maybe now we kinda know when we should talk to each other. we both started typin to each other at the same time, so we talked for a good long while. attila knows we talk and and im sure he is happy that we're friends because he knows i wanna help em both how i can. so its not like a romantic thing, i mean its hard to get my heart now. but because i love em both, and how the streams with the wedding happened, i did the scuffed wedding song for the recap vid alien andy did. really me and alien andy are havin fun and startin to do lil stuff together like that, im gonna wrap up the 'find you' remix for attila that i started, attila does music too. ill probably send the audio to alien andy and give him that remix for his youtube channel just to do somethin special for him because he puts so much effort forth for the community. its things like that where you can help grow a community, i mean you aint gonna get it off ip2 forums where you get to hot or rising with 15 upvotes now and not a ton of discussion on threads.
so far ive only hung out with alice of the streamers, but i think both of us had wanted to meet up for a while and thats when it happened to end up. alice wanted to get into streaming to be able to travel and see places, create content. she said that before she even got started in streaming, its what she's doing and im very proud of her for following her dreams regardless of the outcome of whats happening, the ups and downs. i was planning to go to austin in the 3rd of 4th weekend of april to visit another streamer and that was gonna be my introduction to streaming, and it woulda been a good script. and i woulda gotten together with attila and her and speedy and joey, i mean i got a lotta other friends in austin too ive been missin and wantin to see too. but things happen and plans change, my focus is always gonna be music. its always been, its my path.
yooo, this thread is 100+ pages, i didnt really have anything to say because id casually check it as it was made, but i personally didnt have anything to add until the convo focused on alice. im busy. and it really pissed her off for me to post here, but yall get the deets of stuff so wrong that at that point i felt it was important to give the discussion some levity with my own experience with her, from the perspective of someone who is a user here. i mean what, do you expect me to stream and spill fucking tea? im not like that. im truthful to a fault, but im also tactful.
and look..theres no 'inserting' myself in this community. ive been a part of this community for 3 years now. pumps came into it 4 months for me and it wasnt like i wasnt active in cx-ish livestreamer chats like shoenice, ted barrus and whoeverthefuck ever else horrorcow weirdostreamer that is just barely outside the cx/ip2 orbit but doesnt get clipped or posted there like ewok and a couple others did to wind up on the site. once youre in chat enough on those livestreams, you start recognizing ppl within communities just the same as on forums. ive all things considered done a lot of things for streamers in the way i do things because i look out for people, or try and help people find solutions. just part of who i am.
you can interpret what i post however you wish, and you can spew back whatever rhetoric you wish, anyone here or on ip2 or anywhere. i mean im able to be objective and take sum crit. the memeing is funny as fuck and its whatever. but like, i dont really need clout from this or any community, its not what im about. i know the life i've lived, you know? if i needed clout or attention or if i were wanting for anything, then why wouldnt i put my attention into going all out with what i do and focus on one thing? in the end its because i do and have done what i do for a lotta different communities and i also create shitloads of content every day and you only get 24h in one, you know? but i do push that limit of what i can do in a day.
thanks for this and for following up with Gypsy Crusader.
