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- Dec 3, 2020
Yeah, one of the research projects I'd love to do but know I probably would never get funded even if I got it through the ERB is basically tracking down a bunch of the kids who've ended up with false memories of abuse implanted in due to incompetent and/or malicious investigators & quacks, just to see how they compare to people whose memories...aren't false. (The hypothesis would be, roughly, that for the psychological consequences, the only particular difference between the groups is who we should be pissed with.)The human mind is a beautiful but terrifying thing. Sometimes people claim to their therapists that horrific trauma occurred in their childhood. When that trauma is investigated it turns out that it never happened, but they believe it happened with all their heart but it turns out to be a complete false memory.
Kevin is literally trying to gaslight/1984 memory fuck himself until he truly believes he never had any bad experiences and that this is everything he ever wanted. He is trying with all his might to convince himself that all his memories that are not perfectly 100% in-line with that mindset never happened. He never questioned his doctor, he never had that moment when he looked into the mirror and though "my god what have I done". He never cried in the shower after trying to rub his remnant of a penis for hours and feeling nothing. None of that happened. He is free and happy to be who he always is and always was.
"And you can be happy too! If you are a confused kid, I want to tell you all about this amazing experience!"
Repetition to others is a huge part of gaslighting/memory fucking yourself. The more you repeat the lie the more and more it becomes real in the mind. Not just mere "doubling down" or "coping" but truly legitimately believing what you are saying. Every time someone validates their lie, the more the mind begins to accept an alternative reality that never existed. This is why these echo chambers are so important. This is also why this cult cannot handle criticism or dissent from you minding your own business laughing at idiots, or from "de-trans" people who realized what a horrible mistake they have made.
They need a completely artificial environment in order to make permanent an entire false narrative about their own memories and experience.
From experience, I can very safely say it's disturbingly easy to implant a false memory in somebody. We're talking 'preschooler can do it by accident.'
But that all goes with what I meant by high-grade magical thinking: Kev sincerely believes the shit being shoveled here. I'm also actually very skeptical that Kev was a 'confused kid.' The incel-to-troon pipeline fits better--unless you want to count under 'confusion' the ideas that fuel it, like how if you become the woman you will...somehow get laid by the women you believe you have a right to fuck. (A lot of social conditioning and legit caution means women aren't likely to say 'no' directly to anybody who is being a sex pest. It's why I gave up with one and just...let him trail behind me while I took care of some shopping. It's amusing how so many guys who have trouble with the idea of 'no' suddenly figure it out when you're squeeing over live steel...)
Though, you left out one major group who they'll fight with, though typically not where outsiders can see: Other, non-troon trans people. I actually have gotten to be where I can get the milk from that, and in a position to work out where the borders are, and... I don't think anybody hates troons as much as they do. It's like troons are the LGBTQ* version of plastic shamans.
Edit: Corrected for accuracy.
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