This. She absolutely despises herself. And her demons are haunting her on a daily basis. She is deeply ashamed of herself and acts shameless to counteract and fight the painful feeling of shame. Food, sex and drugs are consumed to numb the shame. It’s a very, very tragic existence.I have many doubts. But one thing I know, and one Believe, and one I want.
I know Chantel hates herself with a firery passion.
I said I hoped she’d end up on H, but coke, meth, crokodil, sexual murder-it all will be the destriction that food isn’t doing right now.
Whatever happens, I want to see it.
After years of watching, I can’t feel sad like I would with almost anybody else. No words, advice, or people can rescue her. Just enjoy the show, it’s all that’s left.