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What a masterpeice
According to slvt fans it's "artistic expression" what ever the fuck that means in regard to the sexpest
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Skitzocow Ethan Gluis? / Sewerslvt/ Sadboy Sheldon - edgy troon musician with fixation on dead/raped children, easily triggered, FAT
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yeahsotrue
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Hey! Telemist here. I wasn't trying to attack you or question what you guys have been doing here, I was just merely asking because I was told by a close friend that Sewerslvt had a thread in here.
That said, there's been a couple changes to my philosophy of doing things since that bio that is in the second image. I used to make music more in a way to express myself because I'm not too well when it comes to my mental health (I was recommended by my therapist to use music production as a sort of escapism method since I kinda knew how to make it) and I usually can't really put into words what I'm feeling when it comes to that. Through the time I've been doing that, my philosophy regarding music has changed, and so has my view on my own project. Tldr I used to audiovent, now I do what I want to hear.
As for the color me shocked part, yeah, I am a trans woman. I acknowledge that from biological standards I'll never be the same as a cis woman but I'm OK with it. If you have any questions or want to say anything to me pls let me know.
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Why not just be a gay man?
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That's not Sewerslvt, that's the person holding the handle for him
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I don't believe you, post elbow with timestamp on twitter.
Based amount of followers.
Don't listen to him, you can use whatever pronouns you want. I just misgender Ethan since he does not show any signs of actual gender dysphoria and more of a sexual perversion.
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Can you explain why so many trans women are fixated on lolis?
Serious question. I'm not implying you're a pedo. It seems like a huge issue in many MtF trans spheres, especially any that are related to music like hyperpop. Anytime I see an internet content creator that heavily uses loli or anime schoolgirl imagery 9/10 times they're a transwoman.
Also, related to the above-why the Lain fixation? It's a good anime and I enjoyed it myself but I feel like many of Lain's messages would be opposed to the kind of subculture incels and transwomen have formed around her story-the detriments of internet obsession, the disturbing implications of transhumanism, unhealthy blending of reality and fantasy, degradation of the human experience by worshipping the machine god, etc. Lain really read more like a condemnation of much of what people like Sewer stand for but they seem to use it as an unironic glorification instead. Why?
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It's kind of terrifying that some fans already know about this but still supporting him or thinking that he didn't nothing wrong, it's like they have been brainwashed or something, like this one saying that it's inspiring that he keeps using the name of "Junko".
I mean, what's inspiring about a mentally ill man branding the name of a tortured and abused girl?
I'm pretty sure that it's not him, since he deactivated his account in December and in march he stated in a mail that he would not return to social media. This is most likely another of his schizoid fans.
On another note, I have the same question as the user above, I've seen a lot of tranny artist drawing loli or using loli imagery, even defending it, and the amount of MtF using/drawing/liking it is bigger than the cis women's. Is there a conection between fixation in little girls and transgenderism or what?
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i dont really know how it works tbh, but what i know is sexual orientation doesnt have to do with the way i present myself afaik. being called a she just clicks better in my mind for some reason. i am and will probably be a bi man irl because its easier to get a job when you arent perceived as a crazy person. its probable that im just either a very feminine man or whatever, im not entirely sure. figuring that one out for now. sometimes i think im just a guy fetishizing the idea of being a woman, sometimes i know im not ever gonna look the same but im going to look like whatever the future myself is. idk tbh, its a complicated subject for me atm
this is definitely not my expertise because i have absolutely no idea about the answer to any of these questions. i am not that much in touch with the breakcore community, im just kind of floating around it. this is just whats in my mind but i could be wrong so im open to anything tbh:
one of the explanations i have in mind is that before transitioning or realizing that the gender that they have been assigned doesn't match with the way they perceive themselves as, trans women are treated as males when they're young, and usually exposed to the same stuff that cis males would tipically be exposed to. there's a big possibility that some time ago boys were gifted more tech stuff like computers and tablets than girls because societal stereotypes are a thing. the stereotypical internet user back a decade and a half ago or a bit less was usually a cis guy and unless people stated otherwise, everyone had that kind of neutral-but-leaning-to-a-guy aura, no one used the pronown "they" to refer to anonymous people on the internet, "he" was mostly used, specially when talking about forums like this, although it's very probable that now all places are mixed with the passing of time.
i could also be wrong but im pretty sure men and women are exposed to or explore different topics on the internet. there's definitely a different audience (bad english, probably not the right word) for 4chan and buzzfeed for example.
Some of the things young men would be typically exposed to in the internet, might have included more... questionable pornographic content for some people. i mean the stereotype of a person that comsumes loli porn is usually a sorta young, disgusting and probably sick in the head or dumb guy, almost nobody is told to portray a pedophile in their head and they instantly picture a woman. so if you start connecting the dots, and believe trans people are the gender that they're assigned at birth instead of whatever they identify as or perceive themselves as, it's easy to say that trans women are just fetishizing the concept of a woman because they're desensitized of everything, including harsh topics like lolis (im calling them harsh because i dont know the correct adjective to describe them). they may also perceive themselves as weak in a world that doesnt seem to want them to be what they want to be, so they kind of take refuge in the image of a frail and small woman? idk, im rambling at this point.
now the thing that ive seen from some of these artists is that they've kind of grown with some parts of the internet that have desensitized them to a degree that might be unhealthy. sewerslvt for example can be framed in the early internet/4chan culture from back then (id definitely need to investigate that further though, i def wanna work with all the correct info), specially the ponks bakery stuff, so there's a mix of being desensitized from those harsh topics and trying to make it sound like cool equals edgy for no reason, which includes anything people would frown upon or act disgusted by. and some people that arent in the best moment of life sometimes adopt said desensitization an aesthetic of sorts. couldnt even tell you the number of tumblr and instagram profiles ive seen that's people harming themselves and writing paragraphs and paragraphs of pain. of course a neurotypical/normal person would be shocked to see that, but for other people that are completely desensitized and find that as a daily reality, some cuts on the wrist or a questionable image or two mean nothing, because they just dont give a fuck in general or they base their profile's personality in shock value i guess.
so the fact that there's a sort of "safe" space that other people would act shocked about it and that people that are similar to you are in... can sound like a plan for some marginalized groups of people like trans people. it's sort of a haven of people that end up influencing each other maybe? not sure. again im not really the best person to ask about this, i do have a couple friends n stuff here and there but im mostly doing stuff on my own. not really a fan of communities unless im learning something.
as for the lain thing, i cant say cuz ive never rlly watched it, but maybe the use of it and what it represents is a way of ironically embracing those things in a sense? like someone could recognize they could be obsessed with the internet (which is probably a thing we dont even recognize most of the time) and have such a bad perception of what their irl reality is that they might as well live in a world where everything is better for them (aka the internet)? sorry i cant help.
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No you did a fine enough job explaining, thank you. It’s always neat getting insight from a person who’s more involved in the community than I, a simple observer. I figured that most MtFs were just overexposed to the “darker” side of the net via chan culture, especially the Zoomer ones so this just confirms what I already had a hunch of.
Also-and I don’t mean this condescendingly-I hope you manage to sort your mental health issues out. You’re fairly coherent, intelligent, and surprisingly self aware. Personally I don’t think transitioning would solve any of your deeper issues (nor do I think it’s helping Sewer, lol) but it’s your life, not mine.
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Ethan has deleted his Discord.
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This was actually a pretty good explanation, pretty insightful. Sorry for being harsh with my original comment mentioning you. I definitely think chan culture and the like desensitized a lot of male-born people to gore and porn, and that the level of offensive/"edgy" that was ok was far beyond a normal person's. The Internet can fuck you up if you're not careful. I'm glad I didn't have access until my late teens, unlike many Zoomers today who first start out from 13 to even 9 at some points.
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Wow, this is a really nice explanation, I think that many here can agree with the thing of growing up on dark internet places and being desentized at some point with certain things, I have many friends that have been in that situation but still they never did things like Ethan did. Thanks for you explanation, if more troons were like you maybe I would respect them more, maybe
Now I think that it's official that he deleted all of his social media accounts and nobody has received an answer from him since the thread was made. The only that is 'active' right now is his patreon, but he hasn't posted anything as far i know. I'm pretty sure that he's using alternative accounts for social media, another probability is that he ended up in psych ward again.
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Take the time to sort it out before you make any decisions--I'm reasonably comfortable/generally amused as fuck by what gender people guess me to be online, and it's perfectly fine if none really fit you right.
Just be chill about it, and give yourself time to be questioning. And if somebody pushes you to make a decision before you feel ready--run.
You also have the fact that a lot of lolis--even when it's not loli porn--are pretty ambiguous gender-wise. Traps tend to get shown with a loli look, too, and sometimes when the censor bars are overly-enthusiastic and/or the art isn't so good, your only chance of telling which one you're looking at can end up being the text. If that's in moon runes and you can't read those...good luck!
I think you're very much nailing it on it being edgy, though. It's part of what has me not that into this scene--it's full of edgelords fighting it out GoT style (except it's a total farce), and the music's just...it reminds me of other, often better-executed efforts in different genres and makes me go stick that on instead. Not really a surprise to me, because...well...edgelords. Probably don't go listening to stuff recorded before the 00s.
Which is a shame. I mean, shoegaze but with samples isn't a bad idea, it's just...this tends to feel like a swing-and-a-miss on managing that? Going back and listening to what's at the roots of a genre can really pay off if you want to get the sound right. (For those who are reading and don't know shoegaze: ...just go listen to Loveless by My Bloody Valentine.)
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thank you very much! i am definitely working on them (been dealing with depression for 10 years now and what i have been told by some adhd friends could be untreated adhd, not sure but what ive been told is that id match if i were to be evaluated of it?), but it's a daily struggle.
one thing that people usually dont understand about trans people is that it can be exhausting. like, you see it being said on twitter or you see it said on tumblr or any place and... well, as a trans person myself, i can tell you that waking up in a body you see as foreign and repulsive, and seeing yourself with it all the time, hearing your voice and being disgusted by it, being treated not how you want to be treated but how you're seen... it can be the icing of the cake for some people if they already have other problems laying around in the back of their head. i, luckily i believe, have come to embrace my body to an extent because while i dont like it it's the only one i'm going to ever have, and i might as well take care of it. even if it's not the one i want to have. i'd love to take the leap if that meant i could get a job after transitioning without having any issues with my... transgenderism? might not be the correct word, but i think you understand. transitioning, for the people you've mentioned, isn't really about solving all those problems on one go, but it certainly helps when you don't see yourself as something that isn't you anymore, which would be a huge relief of stress for some people. and while many people know they wont look like cis women, aka "real" women, they at least won't look like a guy anymore.
don't be! it's normal for you to be weary of someone that is similar to another person that you dont like, specially at first glance. has happened to me a lot of times lmao, its not big deal if things are done correctly and talked about in a civil way. while it's not a topic i'd ever thought to be talking about, my main inspiration when it came to making music when i started my project was sewerslvt herself, and my early work definitely depicts that. i honestly believe most of what she has done and posted that ive seen in here is just a product of her being extremely desensitized to everything since an early age, and then not really knowing some boundaries while exploring what was/is in her head at that moment. no one in their right mind would allegedly have a kid-sized sex doll or masturbate near a pendulum concert venue if they aren't desensitized of at least some things, but id rather know a coomer than a predator.
here's another thing that usually happens to trans people, and it's us aligning to the left after transitioning. in my previous post i talked about finding a safe haven and how that would not only attract people but also put them together if they were of the same "cathegory" (cant think of a better word sorry) and the right is definitely not a safe haven for obvious reasons, so we probably just flock to the other side when we see that there's at least one side that's more accepting. sometimes i picture it more coldly and it honestly looks like political gaslighting, but i can understand being more prone to be on the side of the fence that doesnt reject you because you're different. plus, when you transition, or announce it, or make it public or whatever, you stop being a cis guy/girl in the eyes of some people. you're a minority now, and guess who advertises themselves as helping minorities? the left. that said, if you think about sewerslvt, well... she wasn't the most left leaning person before (ponks bakery, yknow how some people view 4chan nowadays; the sadboy sheldon albums, etc) so she might have felt like shit about her past behaviour and did quite a radical 180 into what you guys mock her for, all those trump posts, australian politics, etc.
but yeah, youre completely right, the internet fucks your head up if you dont know what youre doing on it, specially if youre young. i did start going places in here at 12 years old but i mostly just went to sonic retro because i wanted to hack sonic games and youtube to listen to music lmfao, and then i def saw some shit i did not need to see. there should definitely be a debate somewhere about unsupervised internet someday, but id be surprised if there isnt.
thank you! i tried my best. in my personal experience, everyone can be an asshole, not going to lie. whether its a he, a she or a they, every person has the potential to fuck up and do wrong things. that doesnt mean you dont have to respect their identity imo. transitioning definitely doesnt excuse your wrongs, it just attaches other pronouns to them, my two cents. i see it as a way of treating others like youd want to be treated, i wouldnt like people treating me with the wrong pronouns intentionally just to piss me off. troon is probably a shocking word for me rn because i see it as having a deeper meaning that it might have, and some people would see it as offensive probably, cuz honestly it does sound like a bit of a slur lmao, but i can get used to it and it's probably a "cultural" thing. but yeah. there's no harm in respecting identities, people do shit regardless of who they are
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They simply see a cute socially awkward girl that they think is relatable, a lot of them are recluses irl so they ironically have to depend on nonexistent characters and escapism.
I am willing to bet some good money that majority of them havent even bothered to read the book that the show was based/influenced by upon, it is called Cyberia by Douglas Rushkoff if you want to give it a go:
Cyberia - Rushkoff
Preface to the 1994 paperback edition A lot has happened in the year or so since I wrote this book. More than usually happens in a year. Thanks to technologies like the computer, the modem, interactive media, and the Internet, we no longer depend on printed matter or word of mouth to explore the...
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thank you! its definitely a life changing decision so i dont want to take it lightly. for now, as long as im at least a bit comfortable in my body, even if i dont like it that much, im going to stay with it and not do anything to it yet. in the end, it really is my body my choice, but fortunately everybody tells me the same as you have, and i havent ever felt like ppl were pressuring me to go further.
i think the loli thing doesnt have to do as much with being a transgender person as much as it is a lot of mixed cis man stereotypes embedded into the growth of that trans person. i think its complicated to explain but some people might find comfort in the image of a little girl/boy because normally young people are to be taken care of and loved and nurtured and some people havent properly felt that by anyone in their life so their image of a child is sort of like projected inside of their head because they too feel like they deserve to be taken care of and loved and nurtured? or maybe its just a dumb "subculture" thing because the image of a loli (not porn btw, just a loli) has been devoided of meaning and adopted into an aesthetic that also acts as a sort of gateway for a community? i dont know. honestly i dont mind the loli aesthetic (although i despise loli porn) because it's just that, an aesthetic. what i might care about is the actions of people, regardless of their aesthetic
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Because trannies think they've "missed out" on experiencing a "girl's childhood", which they think they know all about. Their idea of a young girl's life comes from anime or hentai.
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people who claim to be bottoms look like this
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The fuck is wrong with his eyes