someone mentioned My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness in one of these troon threads and i honestly think it's got some sort of relation with the underlying psychology, if not the politics or identity, of the sort of autist who troons out on the internet, which is why they reportedly vibe so hard with it. i'll post some caps that stuck out to me at the bottom.
she's a lesbian (or, is physically attracted to women, at least,) but previously exclusively got off to BL (like the m/m-exclusive shippers who date women in RL and many, many ftms), and has a (apparently to the point of paraphilic, as she's reputedly into diapers like many, many mtfs are) wish to be a child (and don't troons always go on about me BOY not MAN/want to be the little girl SUP SOPHIE LABELLE).
not to mention her own, admitted psychosexual attraction to her own mother, but when she expounds on it, it seems to me that she's more sexually attracted to mother figures in general than her mother as a specific person. there's even a mention she's never felt an attraction to a specific women, which i feel like the BL dependence for her coomfuel might tie into; what's more self-removed from you personally as a woman than two men fucking?
anyway i feel like legitimate autists are so massively overrepresented in fandom AND troonworld because there's some sort of retreating into the furthest fantasy from you/peter pan element but since they're sexually maturing or sexually matured their coombrain gets mixed up in it and then you get the mtfs who wrap their boners in "second puberty" and "reclaiming the childhood stolen from me".
they don't want to be adults, and are driven away from their adult identity, which, surprise surprise, comes with secondary sexual characteristics and people treating you like a "man" or a "woman" now, not a child. so they assume it has to be the man or woman part, not the adult part, and they want to retreat into the fantasy they've cultivated that's entirely separate from them.
if they're a lesbian RL like the manga author, that's m/m on the internet with a diaper fetish on the side. if they're inducted into the AGP cult on the internet, that's the identity of the opposite sex with a fixation on the childhood. it's
because the opposite sex is so very removed from yours and who you are that it's your comfort and/or coombrain fantasy to retreat to, not because it's ackshually you.
anyway sperg sperg lesbians like yaoi and i have never understood why frogs turning water gay why always the obsession with boys and little girls and the recurrent fucking mtf diaper fetish related caps below.
and the piece de resistance
there's more i could cap along the line of my "transtrenders are just peter pans + agp who've rebranded for wokesploitation" but i've sperged long enough.
i will note that My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness is quite a good look at someone whose mental disorders just weren't made for modern society and she has nothing to do with the gendertrenders herself beyond her degenerate diaper fetish. i just found it a very good look at what i suspect is the type of autist the trooncult preys upon.