Dramacow Gatis Lagzdins / goatis / sv3rige / Kids Range - Raw Meat Eating Influencer

Is it really you Jas? Spill the beans girl, was he doing any weird shit while you were together? I'm a huge fan of I Hate You (part 1) smash hit song 👍👍👍
Yeah it's really me. What's up?

I like Milkjar. I've never met him but I always have liked him. He reminds me of my friends from high school, or reminds me of someone I would actually hang out with,
 
these two would have absolutely deserved each other and the total dumpster fire their dysfunctional "relationship" was bound to become would've been amazing lol, though if dragged on too long it probably would have ended in either murder (by him), or murder-suicide (by her)

Sounds like a murder-suicide might still be on the horizon.

"I'm at this point, now, where I will TAKE SOMETHING and FUCKING FUCK SOMETHING UP! And something will hurt, and it will bleed, and it will cry and it will die and shrivel in my hands, and I will eat its parts until it is no longer a physical manifestation of this existence! ... It sounds like this bitch wants to eat the baby!"



WHOSE BABY? Luna's baby? Or is she implying that Canadian Girl is pregnant? I don't even fully understand wtf she's talking about — I don't know what she expects by being deliberately cryptic/using symbolism, but I'm not going to sit here and put my efforts into dissecting the ravings of a crazy person. That's what she doesn't understand; people will not take you seriously when you display this overly-emotional, unstable behavior. I know that you don't like it when your sanity is called into question, but I don't think I'm stepping out of line here; you are acting deranged right now. It doesn't even matter if this is a joke or a performance; you revealed the gory, borderline murderous thoughts in your head...
 
Last edited:
Sounds like a murder-suicide might still be on the horizon.



View attachment 2209000

WHO'S BABY? Luna's baby? Or is she implying that Canadian Girl is pregnant? I don't even fully understand wtf she's talking about — I don't know what she expects by being deliberately cryptic/using symbolism, but I'm not going to sit here and put my efforts into dissecting the ravings of a crazy person. That's what she doesn't understand; people will not take you seriously when you display this overly-emotional, unstable behavior. I know that you don't like it when your sanity is called into question, but I don't think I'm stepping out of line here; you are acting deranged right now. It doesn't even matter if this is a joke or a performance; you revealed the gory, borderline murderous thoughts in your head...

It's a play on words. The word savaging comes from a mother pig eating her litter or any animal I think. So when I say I'm a savage (which is a nod to Megan Thee Stallion), I'm talking about eating my baby who is actually sv3rige in this reference.

The Canadian girl could be pregnant by now. Who knows, but it is possible. She would know in about 2 weeks maybe.

I am finally mad enough to act out maad.tv in a way that will stick. I am seizing this opportunity since it is the rare instance where I am suicidal enough to kill someone, I'd rather do it metaphorically. So if you think this is insane or whatever, well this is how I get my anger out. Unlike someone else, who just kills instead. Instead of actually getting angry and letting the emotion go.
 
He's streaming right now, I caught a few moments.


View attachment 2211610
Here's his new girlfriend for any of you who would like to see her before she shows up in his videos.

View attachment 2211614
"'Get married to an American, get a greencard?' I can't anymore..."


It's 4:23 right now. I can't sleep, or I slept enough. Whatever.

I'm really sad right now.
I want to marry Gatis, I swear I do. I would rather have him here than anywhere else.
But I'm so heartbroken.
I literally can't eat or sleep properly.
I've relapsed and I'm stuck again.
My entire life revolved around him.
I wish he knew how much I would do for him.
It makes so so sad.
It's worse than crying even.
You're so sad that you can't cry.
That's a hard pain to live with.
Existence is pain.

I want to escape this hell.
 
It's 4:23 right now. I can't sleep, or I slept enough. Whatever.

I'm really sad right now.
I want to marry Gatis, I swear I do. I would rather have him here than anywhere else.
But I'm so heartbroken.
I literally can't eat or sleep properly.
I've relapsed and I'm stuck again.
My entire life revolved around him.
I wish he knew how much I would do for him.
It makes so so sad.
It's worse than crying even.
You're so sad that you can't cry.
That's a hard pain to live with.
Existence is pain.

I want to escape this hell.

Do you still talk? Have you told him all of this?
 
If you want closure you should. No regrets.
I'm basically back to where I started: I'm an online fan who wants something more and he's in a relationship. I don't pursue him when he's in a relationship. Kind of ironic considering, but it's something I just don't do.

He's streaming right now, I caught a few moments.


View attachment 2211610
Here's his new girlfriend for any of you who would like to see her before she shows up in his videos.

View attachment 2211614
"'Get married to an American, get a greencard?' I can't anymore..."

I'm reading too much into it but is he saying he can't anymore... "because of her." But then he smiles so I can't tell if that's a good or bad consequence. Probably mixed.

Or he was looking to see if she heard him.

Gatis is Yagami Light and I'm L.

 
I'm reading too much into it but is he saying he can't anymore... "because of her." But then he smiles so I can't tell if that's a good or bad consequence. Probably mixed.

Or he was looking to see if she heard him.

Gatis is Yagami Light and I'm L.

With the anime comparisons I feel like you may one day have your own thread here :story:
@jasthephysicist why do you like him so much? What do you even find attractive about him? He looks like a red bald ass alien irl, also extremely insecure around other men. He can't drive himself, he doesn't have a job just relies on BEGGING and leeching his own fans, leeching from you personally. Why do you even like him?
 
With the anime comparisons I feel like you may one day have your own thread here :story:
@jasthephysicist why do you like him so much? What do you even find attractive about him? He looks like a red bald ass alien irl, also extremely insecure around other men. He can't drive himself, he doesn't have a job just relies on BEGGING and leeching his own fans, leeching from you personally. Why do you even like him?
Um have you not watched his videos? What is there not to like? Name one thing. I can't.

His taste in music is on another level. There was literally no song he played that I disliked and even when finding new stuff it was always quality top tier shit.

The music alone is arguably enough. I literally don't have to say anything else because somehow it captures all of it, but I'll elaborate more.

He looks like a model, an underwear model at that. He looks incredibly sexy 24/7 literally there is nothing he can wear or not and not look good in it.

You don't have to say much because he's perceptive. I worry that I didn't speak up enough but whatever. Okay, yeah this was a huge problem and there would be nights I would call my mom crying because I was too afraid to talk to him. I looked up to him so much that I was frozen around him. But also, being around him is heaven on earth I don't even know how to describe it.

My lifestyle is very similar to his, and it's basically the same. The only difference is that he has a higher income than me doing it, whereas I've relied on doing a lot of illegal stuff to keep up my lifestyle. But that whole nomadic traveling shit, I do that. And it just fit. I felt like he and I were in sync. And you know it just sucks if he didn't feel that way and I'm over here having the happiest days of my life just existing around him and I think that was actually hard for him to handle. It was hard for me to handle at times too.


I learned to drive really late too, and I actually didn't learn to drive until my husband taught me so I understood why he doesn't drive, he didn't need to.

And as for the e-begging: he makes content and people support him. It takes a lot of humility to get on the internet and ask for money flat out, because people are just too afraid to do it. Everyone seems to believe that you have to work to make money, but that literally can't be the case because the Federal Reserve makes money without work. But I'm digressing here.

The point is that I had this list, this criteria of who I wanted to be in love with, be with for the rest of my life and then I find Gatis and he fits it. What is fucked up about this entire thing, is that he literally is the man of my dreams, even down to being multilingual and somehow it didn't work and I'm not the woman of his dreams? Why would life be so cruel?

I want to die.
 
Um have you not watched his videos? What is there not to like? Name one thing. I can't.

His taste in music is on another level. There was literally no song he played that I disliked and even when finding new stuff it was always quality top tier shit.

The music alone is arguably enough. I literally don't have to say anything else because somehow it captures all of it, but I'll elaborate more.

He looks like a model, an underwear model at that. He looks incredibly sexy 24/7 literally there is nothing he can wear or not and not look good in it.

You don't have to say much because he's perceptive. I worry that I didn't speak up enough but whatever. Okay, yeah this was a huge problem and there would be nights I would call my mom crying because I was too afraid to talk to him. I looked up to him so much that I was frozen around him. But also, being around him is heaven on earth I don't even know how to describe it.

My lifestyle is very similar to his, and it's basically the same. The only difference is that he has a higher income than me doing it, whereas I've relied on doing a lot of illegal stuff to keep up my lifestyle. But that whole nomadic traveling shit, I do that. And it just fit. I felt like he and I were in sync. And you know it just sucks if he didn't feel that way and I'm over here having the happiest days of my life just existing around him and I think that was actually hard for him to handle. It was hard for me to handle at times too.


I learned to drive really late too, and I actually didn't learn to drive until my husband taught me so I understood why he doesn't drive, he didn't need to.

And as for the e-begging: he makes content and people support him. It takes a lot of humility to get on the internet and ask for money flat out, because people are just too afraid to do it. Everyone seems to believe that you have to work to make money, but that literally can't be the case because the Federal Reserve makes money without work. But I'm digressing here.

The point is that I had this list, this criteria of who I wanted to be in love with, be with for the rest of my life and then I find Gatis and he fits it. What is fucked up about this entire thing, is that he literally is the man of my dreams, even down to being multilingual and somehow it didn't work and I'm not the woman of his dreams? Why would life be so cruel?

I want to die.
1622318848492.png
 
When you're confronted with aspects of reality you didn't want to face, and have to sit with your emotions and your thoughts for extended periods of time, you realize that you're actually not okay. That nothing in your life is okay and that there is a fundamental longing that you must extinguish. Except removal of that longing is a form of suicide, so you must adjust and become one with your pain. Both accept the pain and stop identifying with it.

Do you think a lot about why you're here or what the point of suffering is for humanity? Why some of us crave so strongly these romantic relationships and stop at nothing to find them? Why some of us live perpetually in our head and are trapped in our minds?

I try to avoid thinking about these things, or about how terrible existence can be, because the sublime bliss that comes from existing tends to outweigh it anyway.

Then I make this mistake of falling in love, and I do it every time like the first time. I seem to have this inability to learn from it, so I continue to chase it, and lose it, until I'm beaten and sick again.

Why do I love love the way that I do? Why do I believe it is something outside of me and that I must turn outwards to find it?

If we are the creators of our reality, if our thoughts influence our emotions which dictate our fate, why would I choose this? Why would I ever choose to feel the existentially lonely? Why would I close myself off so much that I attract someone who doesn't want to choose life with me? Why would I do this to myself? Do I not want happiness?

Happiness is an illusion. Happiness is a feeling that resides in Time. Time is constructed by the Ego and there is no salvation in Time.

I'll never be happy. I know this.
But goddamn it, I don't want this feeling either.
 
His taste in music is on another level. There was literally no song he played that I disliked and even when finding new stuff it was always quality top tier shit.

The music alone is arguably enough. I literally don't have to say anything else because somehow it captures all of it, but I'll elaborate more.
What did he think of your scenecore and pop-rap?
 
Um have you not watched his videos? What is there not to like? Name one thing. I can't.

His taste in music is on another level. There was literally no song he played that I disliked and even when finding new stuff it was always quality top tier shit.

The music alone is arguably enough. I literally don't have to say anything else because somehow it captures all of it, but I'll elaborate more.

He looks like a model, an underwear model at that. He looks incredibly sexy 24/7 literally there is nothing he can wear or not and not look good in it.

You don't have to say much because he's perceptive. I worry that I didn't speak up enough but whatever. Okay, yeah this was a huge problem and there would be nights I would call my mom crying because I was too afraid to talk to him. I looked up to him so much that I was frozen around him. But also, being around him is heaven on earth I don't even know how to describe it.

My lifestyle is very similar to his, and it's basically the same. The only difference is that he has a higher income than me doing it, whereas I've relied on doing a lot of illegal stuff to keep up my lifestyle. But that whole nomadic traveling shit, I do that. And it just fit. I felt like he and I were in sync. And you know it just sucks if he didn't feel that way and I'm over here having the happiest days of my life just existing around him and I think that was actually hard for him to handle. It was hard for me to handle at times too.


I learned to drive really late too, and I actually didn't learn to drive until my husband taught me so I understood why he doesn't drive, he didn't need to.

And as for the e-begging: he makes content and people support him. It takes a lot of humility to get on the internet and ask for money flat out, because people are just too afraid to do it. Everyone seems to believe that you have to work to make money, but that literally can't be the case because the Federal Reserve makes money without work. But I'm digressing here.

The point is that I had this list, this criteria of who I wanted to be in love with, be with for the rest of my life and then I find Gatis and he fits it. What is fucked up about this entire thing, is that he literally is the man of my dreams, even down to being multilingual and somehow it didn't work and I'm not the woman of his dreams? Why would life be so cruel?

I want to die.
Both you and Gatis are just faggots tbh.
 
What did he think of your scenecore and pop-rap?
Haha, Gatis doesn't even know I'm a musician at all, or that I rap. He doesn't know I make SoundCloud clips, he doesn't know that I play a shitton of instruments, he doesn't know which bands I really like, doesn't know the music I listen to or have composed. Nothing.

He didn't know me much at all.

The day that he left, he played more songs from his mixes and one of them that came up was A Toast to the Future Kids by Emarosa. He was actually surprised that I knew that song. Anyone who knows me at all knows that Emarosa is like top 5 band for me, and that song in particular is from an album that I've listened to hundreds of times.

It made me feel kind of bad, because I was like "damn, even after spending this much time together, we're still strangers."
 
Back