Dramacow Gatis Lagzdins / goatis / sv3rige / Kids Range - Raw Meat Eating Influencer

Haha, Gatis doesn't even know I'm a musician at all, or that I rap. He doesn't know I make SoundCloud clips, he doesn't know that I play a shitton of instruments, he doesn't know which bands I really like, doesn't know the music I listen to or have composed. Nothing.

He didn't know me much at all.

The day that he left, he played more songs from his mixes and one of them that came up was A Toast to the Future Kids by Emarosa. He was actually surprised that I knew that song. Anyone who knows me at all knows that Emarosa is like top 5 band for me, and that song in particular is from an album that I've listened to hundreds of times.

It made me feel kind of bad, because I was like "damn, even after spending this much time together, we're still strangers."

What did you even do together?
 
What did you even do together?
Listened to music, went to parks/beaches, watched online poker and tv, met up with subscribers, traveled around the country, grocery store runs, shopping. It was a fun time I can't deny that. I really enjoyed being around him, so I didn't have much of a desire to share my hobbies and stuff. I just never felt a need to talk around him much, and sometimes it was general shyness.

He said she's the girl of his dreams yesterday on Patreon. I remembered to unsubscribe.
 
Listened to music, went to parks/beaches, watched online poker and tv, met up with subscribers, traveled around the country, grocery store runs, shopping. It was a fun time I can't deny that. I really enjoyed being around him, so I didn't have much of a desire to share my hobbies and stuff. I just never felt a need to talk around him much, and sometimes it was general shyness.

He said she's the girl of his dreams yesterday on Patreon. I remembered to unsubscribe.
Could you post a screenshot of the post? I'm curious.

He seems like a typical honeymoon phase addict. He didn't seem so convinced about her during his Severe Depression Stream.
 
Could you post a screenshot of the post? I'm curious.

He seems like a typical honeymoon phase addict. He didn't seem so convinced about her during his Severe Depression Stream.
I wasn't able to watch the stream unfortunately. It's like the first one I've missed ever.

Could you post a screenshot of the post? I'm curious.

He seems like a typical honeymoon phase addict. He didn't seem so convinced about her during his Severe Depression Stream.
Oh wtf nah that's patreon shit I can't post stuff like that.

Here's a summary of the post:

Dear Patreon
I'm not making videos again
But this time the reason is because of girls.
Just like the last time.


We're leaving in June
 
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Listened to music, went to parks/beaches, watched online poker and tv, met up with subscribers, traveled around the country, grocery store runs, shopping. It was a fun time I can't deny that. I really enjoyed being around him, so I didn't have much of a desire to share my hobbies and stuff. I just never felt a need to talk around him much, and sometimes it was general shyness.

He said she's the girl of his dreams yesterday on Patreon. I remembered to unsubscribe.
So were you drawn to him because he's Gatis or because he was fun to be around and more compatible with your lifestyle than most people?
 
He's leaving the US. Should I die now?
Pls post your autobiography in the Prospering Grounds before you do anything drastic.

You deserve an Orbiter badge at the least, before you go, Jas.

EDIT: Could you reference your kiwifarms account in a future soundcloud release? I got a response regarding the Orbiter badge...
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He's leaving the US. Should I die now?
No one should ever commit suicide because of someone else. It’s supposed to be a personal decision. So don’t let his rejection kill you. Besides, you’ll keep coming back to deal with the same problems again until the lesson is learned. Better off overcoming this obstacle now so you can level up in the next life.
 
No. You should get off the Internet, put yourself in therapy and work on yourself so you stop falling in love with abusive men.
Tell that to Goaty. I don't fall in love with abusive men. He tends to like abusive women though. I wish he would have let me disrespect him some more.

Do you believe that people are reflections of each other? Or that one person can will another to behave a certain way under some conditions?

I think about that a lot, and what it means. Or how you can control someone else's mind and such.


I'm starting to detach from sv3rige again. It happens in cycles of a few months. Now let's see if the disconnection sticks this time.
 
This is your problem Jas.: You actively ignore things that people who can think rationally see as dangerous and unhealthy. You ignore the things you don't like. You instead focus on what you do like for feeling reasons and pretend that this is reality and you try to feel like you are special through it. It is a strategy that will only ever end badly.

See the pattern playing out here for example, you keep hoping that he will be with you, when he HAS already been with you and not wanted to be with you more. You ignore that reality. Additionally, if someone turns you down it means that they are not compatible. No matter what you want to still how him and prove to him.

Gatis is a dangerous person, who will never be happy, because he is not being accountable for his behaviour patterns. You cannot save him or show him that he is a good person inside. You externalise this and focus it on him, when you need to do that for yourself.

Go see a psych, you have nothing to lose and everything to gain. You don't know what you don't know. Read that again. You don't know what you don't know...you haven't been able to feel better about yourself because you DON'T KNOW how. Instead you compensate through external means. A psych can show you how to feel better in yourself, shop around for one you resonate with. Not choosing to do this, means people are justified in making fun of you and disrespecting you, because your behaviour patterns are degenerate to society and need to be improved.
lmao.


I can't.
 
Here's a summary of the post:

Dear Patreon
I'm not making videos again
But this time the reason is because of girls.
Just like the last time.


We're leaving in June

Because of girls? Can you actually post the actual Patreon message so we know he's not trying to "legally pursue" his ex again. Or are you covering for him like you said you would?

I know you claim to have "saved the Moon" but I have a suggestion on how you can save the Maple Syrup as well as anyone else who Gatis can hurt.

Post a proper video on YouTube exposing Gatis and your relationship, his manipulation and his intent to murder his ex. This will prove that you actually care about people who aren't you or Gatis. All you've done here is blog about your shitty relationship and complain. Then monetize your channel and the video and use that money to see a psych.
 
ETA: Just read not to white-knight. My bad, people.
Hey, it was sound advice. I also wish for @jasthephysicist to find and set some boundaries. Is that whiteknighting too? I wrote a whole ass sermon on that yesterday after watching all of her 3-part Story videos and then decided not to post it.
You're right: You don't know what you don't know and maybe, with a good therapist, you will learn to see where your own perception is off. Where the traps are, into which you fall over and over again and how to change that. You need the neutral outside view for that.
 
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