Lolcow Melinda Leigh Scott & Marshall Castersen - Sue-happy couple. Flat earth conspiracists. Pretending to be Jewish. Believe Kiwi Farms is protected by the Masonic Order. 0-6 on lawsuits. Marshall is dead.

This is the book Marshall found:

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The "secret knowledge" is chapter 9, The Catacombs: A Temple of the Butthole, which is about a fisting club.
 
One of my favorite axioms: "nobody knows nothing" (it's a double negative on purpose).

Secret knowledge is very real, but it's plain that these rubes don't have any. Secret knowledge is the whole point of the Illuminati, we're "illuminated", enlightened. "We know something you don't know."

Also, I want to point out that wanting secret knowledge is a Luciferian desire and goal. It was Satan that encouraged a bite from the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge. In the Greek version of the "lifting man out of an animal state by gift of God-knowledge" myth it was Prometheus who's the Luciferian character, stealing fire from the Gods and giving it to humans. He was punished for it as well. Typically the Lucifer character offers secret knowledge. Think Loki, Enki, etc. Secret knowledge is the entire point of the occult as well as intelligence agencies.

Secret societies like our own Freemasonry operate purely through the whole secret knowledge thing. I used to want to join the Freemasons because in every lodge they have a little library of books for studying to advance in your degrees, I wanted access to those books. I don't need their books anymore though, I know all their shit better than they do at this point. I've found their Lost Word, the True Name of God. "In the beginning there was the Word, and the Word was with God, and THE WORD WAS GOD."

It isn't "YAHWEH" or "YAHOO" or "JEHOVA" or "JAHBULON", let me relieve you of those notions. I think whoever came up with the name "IALDABAOTH" (yawl-duh-bay-auth) probably knew it. Ialdabaoth is close enough but also different enough that I've been using it as my own placeholder.

You wanna larp about having secret knowledge? You two poor wretches need more regular knowledge first.
 
Marshall claims secret knowledge because that makes him feel special and more exalted than what he actually is: a mouthbreathing moron who does grunt level manual labor, with equally moronic religious takes. Everything Marshall does is colored by his idiocy, and his 'secret' knowledge is no different.

If Marshall really wants to impress anyone, maybe he should spend some time doing literally anything that would improve the lives of his wife and children.
 
Marshall claims secret knowledge because that makes him feel special and more exalted than what he actually is: a mouthbreathing moron who does grunt level manual labor, with equally moronic religious takes. Everything Marshall does is colored by his idiocy, and his 'secret' knowledge is no different.

If Marshall really wants to impress anyone, maybe he should spend some time doing literally anything that would improve the lives of his wife and children.
Like murder/suicide with Melinda!
 
There's a nonzero chance Melinda ends up a family annhilator. She fits a certain subset of the female type extremely well. Melinda's isolation from society, her lack of social support, and her estrangement from family could actually lead to all kinds of terrible outcomes when there's a crisis, especially a mental health crisis.

There's also a nonzero chance that one of the children dies, probably from physical abuse (or mutual combat when they get a little older), and they try to cover it up. They could die from an accident or a refusal to seek medical care, that's a definite possibility that's only increased by Melinda's attitudes toward modern medicine.
 
There's a nonzero chance Melinda ends up a family annhilator. She fits a certain subset of the female type extremely well. Melinda's isolation from society, her lack of social support, and her estrangement from family could actually lead to all kinds of terrible outcomes when there's a crisis, especially a mental health crisis.

There's also a nonzero chance that one of the children dies, probably from physical abuse (or mutual combat when they get a little older), and they try to cover it up. They could die from an accident or a refusal to seek medical care, that's a definite possibility that's only increased by Melinda's attitudes toward modern medicine.
Yeah, nobody really cares what happens to Melinda or Marshall, the fact that she's a mother, that she's responsible for the development of 6 human beings is by far the most obscene aspect of this thread.

It's so clear to any outsider that she doesn't give a fuck about her kids. Her kids are there for her, she isn't there for her kids. They exist only as props in her delusional "I'm a genius/scholar" fantasy. It's very sad. Very, very sad.

However bad your life might be, or whatever mistakes you feel your parents made, hey, it could've been a lot worse. Can you imagine having Melinda as your mother? I think kids born in 3rd world shit holes are probably going to lead more productive lives than anything that she squeezed out in between getting pumped by something like 10 "use once and destroy" husbands.

It's amazing that Andrew was so obsessed with this wretched bint. You'd have to be borderline retarded to believe she's a decent human being.
 
It's amazing that Andrew was so obsessed with this wretched bint. You'd have to be borderline retarded to believe she's a decent human being.
Andrew is unable to recognize his own actions as very inappropriate, hurtful and anti-social so I doubt he can recognize someone else's misdeeds and character flaws.
 
If Marshall really wants to impress anyone, maybe he should spend some time doing literally anything that would improve the lives of his wife and children.
Yeah, that's never going to happen. I let go of that expectation a long time ago.

And I'm okay with that because I have no plan to stay with Marshall long term (nothing I haven't said to his face). Once I resolve a few issues here in the next few months where I don't need Marshall in my support network for survival, then that's it, I'm done. (Almost there!). I can raise and support my children on my own. It's pretty much what I'm doing now anyway.

Marshall just isn't the one I see spending the rest of my life with. He has a very different concept of what marriage is than I do, and somehow this was not communicated to me during Shidduch despite me asking him ample questions to tell me how he really thinks. Over the last 5 years I've come to know how he really thinks and what he really thinks about life and marriage and it is too different than my beliefs in some very critical areas. I have valid reasons under the rules of Torah that allow me the freedom to leave and I will exercise that freedom. I believe I am master of my own life, and that includes the freedom to have a marriage on my own terms. I don't believe anyone can be "stuck" in a relationship. I won't be chained to any situation that violates my truths, values and moral principles.

He could have saved himself and me grief, trouble and 5 years of wasted time by being honest about how he thinks and finding a woman that agrees with his thinking. He's attractive, can hold down a steady job, and he has other positive qualities. He can get another woman. Why pick someone that you're going to cause trouble for? It's reckless to invite someone into your life without making sure they will be a good match to you.

So I will join the many ranks of women who stay until they can safely go. Having small children under the age of 5 delays the process. I am not the first woman in this situation, I won't be the last. Life will go on and I can still be happy.


Melinda's attitudes toward modern medicine.

" Here is what Adonai says:

“Stand at the crossroads and look;
ask about the ancient paths,
‘Which one is the good way?’
Take it, and you will find rest for your souls.
But they said, ‘We will not take it.’ " (Jer. 6:16)

"Modern" is not always best.

Yeah, nobody really cares what happens to Melinda or Marshall,
Obviously you do if you're still Trolling my life like Paparazzi
 
And I'm okay with that because I have no plan to stay with Marshall long term (nothing I haven't said to his face). Once I resolve a few issues here in the next few months where I don't need Marshall in my support network for survival, then that's it, I'm done. (Almost there!). I can raise and support my children on my own. It's pretty much what I'm doing now anyway.
Why is everything either a conflict or a transaction for you?
Aren't you capable of enjoying another person's company without gaining anything material from it? I mean, just for the simple joy of conversation or doing something together?

He's attractive
You have low standards.

"Modern" is not always best.
True. But it's not always the worst either. Smart person takes utilitarian approach: if it works it's good. A view actually supported by the Bible (Mat. 7.17-18.)
Modern medicine works therefore it's good.
 
I feel like we shut down the secret knowledge discussion a little too soon.

Once upon a time I was at a gas station, there happened to be a crazy person there who started talking nonsense to me. You know the type. Chem trails, 5g, vaccines, whatever. So after their initial spiel I get real serious and I say to them, "you know, you're absolutely right. This is very concerning to me. You aren't supposed to know this, tell me, how do you know this?"

Boy, you should see the way some of these people light up when you say something like that.

I'm kind of a dick, I know.

Given their inability to understand subtext, I'll bet this whole thing flies right over their head.

Tell me your thoughts, @TamarYaelBatYah ? Would you sell one of your children for $10k? How about the disabled one?

I wonder if such a blatant misdirect will actually work.
 
Why is everything either a conflict or a transaction for you?
Aren't you capable of enjoying another person's company without gaining anything material from it? I mean, just for the simple joy of conversation or doing something together?
Your statement "either... or" is an assumption, not one based on fact. But I'm not going to dive into that. I'm going to set aside the fact that your statement "everything [is] either" is not based upon facts, as there are many non-conflict, non-transaction situations I've described my participation in, even in this thread, as well as the fact that you would not know the full picture because you do not have knowledge of my personal life. Instead I'm going to tackle the moral issues raised in your statement here instead.

So you learned somewhere on the internet that narcissistic people do "transactions" and so you're trying to make a blanket statement but in the way you're doing it, you've misapplied what narcissistic transactions are. Narcissistic transactions are when someone does not thread together interactions within a personal relationship to build an emotional bond. Instead, they simply use each interaction to feed their needs, mostly for narcissistic supply. Their motive is their own self interests, never the other person's overall well being.

Staying in a relationship for the material benefits attached to marital rights, especially when children are involved is not a narcissistic transaction. It's just a matter of pragmatism. The difference and keyword here is: "staying". Not "starting out". A narcissist *starts out* with only their benefits in mind. All other people may *stay* and *finish* that way for practical reasons, and there is the difference.

a nonzero chance Melinda ends up a family annhilator.

This is illogical really. If a woman wants to annihilate her child, it would start and end with abortion. It makes absolutely no sense why a woman would go through pregnancy, childbirth, breastfeeding and child rearing to only wipe them all out. That's like working every day to pay a 30 year mortgage and then blowing up the house. That would be dumb.

If I didn't want my children, the option of abortion was always there. Murder of an unborn child is legal in the United States. I chose not to murder/abort them already.

Interesting thing about that list is that most all of them are men. Proves my point about maternal investment correlating to maternal devotion. Women sacrifice more from the beginning, therefore, they are usually the last to let go.

Tell me your thoughts, @TamarYaelBatYah ? Would you sell one of your children for $10k? How about the disabled one?

It's against The Torah to sell another Israelite. On that count, no, I wouldn't.

Even if it were not spoken of in The Torah, I wouldn't. I have a good relationship with my children. Sometimes 2 of them are more difficult to raise than the others but I still have a good relationship with all of them. They each are unique and bring something positive to the group in their own individual way.

More than that, we are all family. I'm loyal to family. I don't betray people I love and call family, never, not once.
 
Do you fuck homeless men often?
Awww youre back. I missed your cute face.

@TamarYaelBatYah Could you do me a favor please? Now that youre leaving Marshall, I have a kinky request Ive been meaning to ask. Could you make a voice recording of you saying "fart" but emphasize the "r" so say "farrrt". There's nothing sexier than a woman who does butt stuff and says fart.

Also send pic of chin or shithole.
 
Holy shit that misdirect may have actually worked. Maybe just playing along?

@TamarYaelBatYah but before you said that you supported the idea of indentured servitude for your children. So maybe $10k doesn't buy one, how much time would $10k pay for? You're telling me you're willing to lease, not sell, correct? Would you let one of them go live with a good Israelite for a year for $10k? A month? What if the customer/"john" is a goy instead, does the price go up then?

Perhaps the dark and disgusting nature of this conversation has changed your mind and you're willing to admit that indentured servitude for your children is actually a bad idea? It's okay to admit that you were wrong, we all do it. All of us who are normal, anyway.
 
I feel like we shut down the secret knowledge discussion a little too soon.
I'm actually fascinated by people believing in conspiracy theories (as you can probably tell by my forum handle) and by cults. Did some "research" on both and it turns out people believing in conspiracy theories and people in cults have a lot in common. Very often rejected and lacking support group, very often disappointed by their lives and what the world has to offer for them, strong need of acceptance, if they have families - very unusual and unhealthy family dynamics.
Most often those people are rejected and feel like failures, that's where their desire to hold some special knowledge and be unique in some way comes from.

Your statement "either... or" is an assumption, not one based on fact. But I'm not going to dive into that.
I can only comment on what you tell us.

I'm going to set aside the fact that your statement "everything [is] either" is not based upon facts, as there are many non-conflict, non-transaction situations I've described my participation in, even in this thread,
What I can recall:
- Transaction-like relationship with Marshall,
- Transaction-like relationship with some CPS-avoiding network,
- Conflict with Kiwi Farms,
- Conflict with CPS,
- Conflict with landlord,
- Conflict with people in everyday life (I mean, aren't you a problematic customer? If it wasn't you - sorry)
The only sincere positive relationship you have appears to be with your kids.
as well as the fact that you would not know the full picture because you do not have knowledge of my personal life.
You tell us more than anybody could expect.

Instead I'm going to tackle the moral issues raised in your statement here instead.
I made no moral judgement in this case.

So you learned somewhere on the internet that narcissistic people do "transactions" and so you're trying to make a blanket statement but in the way you're doing it, you've misapplied what narcissistic transactions are.
That's an assumption (and not even a correct one), you don't know what my creds are.

Narcissistic transactions are when someone does not thread together interactions within a personal relationship to build an emotional bond. Instead, they simply use each interaction to feed their needs, mostly for narcissistic supply.
What is it with people of interest here being so interested in narcissistic personality disorder?
Actually when I think about provoking conflicts and instrumental treatment of people, psychopathy (not to be mistaken with sociopathy) would be my first guess... but that's not you, you're too easy to distress or even emotionally hurt.
If I was to diagnose you I would start with trust issues - you had an awful life, probably still have an awful life, you got screwed over too many times and you're afraid to form relationships with people because you expect them to screw you over.

Their motive is their own self interests, never the other person's overall well being.
That's how you explained the thing you have with Marshall - when he's no longer useful he gets the boot, no matter what he thinks and how he feels about it.

Staying in a relationship for the material benefits attached to marital rights, especially when children are involved is not a narcissistic transaction.
Once again, I never mentioned narcissism.

It's just a matter of pragmatism.
I'm a pragmatist but not when it comes to close friends and family.

The difference and keyword here is: "staying". Not "starting out". A narcissist *starts out* with only their benefits in mind. All other people may *stay* and *finish* that way for practical reasons, and there is the difference.
If all parts (you, him, the kids) know what the deal is - it's still strange and unhealthy in my opinion but a bit more acceptable.

If I didn't want my children, the option of abortion was always there. Murder of an unborn child is legal in the United States. I chose not to murder/abort them already.
You assume it only happens as premeditated murder. In reality it's usually a result of someone suffering a mental breakdown.

I don't betray people I love and call family, never, not once.
It's good you're capable of such feeling and hold yourself to this standard.
 
Holy shit that misdirect may have actually worked. Maybe just playing along?

@TamarYaelBatYah but before you said that you supported the idea of indentured servitude for your children. So maybe $10k doesn't buy one, how much time would $10k pay for? You're telling me you're willing to lease, not sell, correct? Would you let one of them go live with a good Israelite for a year for $10k? A month? What if the customer/"john" is a goy instead, does the price go up then?

Perhaps the dark and disgusting nature of this conversation has changed your mind and you're willing to admit that indentured servitude for your children is actually a bad idea? It's okay to admit that you were wrong, we all do it. All of us who are normal, anyway.
The US Government is fixing the child tax credit and I'm getting $1,500/month July through December 2021. They should have fixed that shit years ago!

So long story short I don't have to worry about indentured servitude. This adjustment in the tax system means I can finally leave Marshall and make it on my own with small children under the age of 5. I'm finally going to be free. I have been praying for almost a year and a half for Elohim to help me become financially able to support myself and my 6 children alone. It's almost here, I'm almost free, I just might cry!

39 days and my shackles come off....


That's how you explained the thing you have with Marshall - when he's no longer useful he gets the boot, no matter what he thinks and how he feels about it.

The difference is whether or not it's "eye for eye"/what someone deserves OR that's how the person has always been from the beginning.

I never started out that way with Marshall. It's just what it has become.
 
The difference is whether or not it's "eye for eye"/
Eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth, ass for cash... :)
But seriously, you know the rule originated in Code of Hammurabi?

what someone deserves OR that's how the person has always been from the beginning.
We were telling you Marshall is an asshole and treats you like trash. You were vigorously defending him and justifying his actions.

I never started out that way with Marshall. It's just what it has become.
OK, understandable, happens, things sometimes don't work out. What I don't understand is why you keep him around and why he stays around.
 
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