I sometimes imagine what it's like being a troon who's gone through a transition: mentally ill, got silicone implants constantly leaking silicone into the blood stream (lots of women have theirs removed due to breast implant illness, a type of autoimmune disease), a poop smelling neo vag leaking smegma, cant reach an orgasm or have intercourse, having to keep injecting hormones because you can't produce any, being paranoid about being clocked by people constantly. What's worse, being a mtf or ftm? I think FTM get away with abusing testosterone whereas MTF have to do a lot more surgeries, and they are pressured to do so, in order to pass.
I'd off myself too. Imagine having to examine a troon body post mortem. The state of it.