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I have a shitty personality for wanting to be left the fuck alone dad because of how I speak to you? I guess the apple doesn’t fall far from the fucking tree then. You pick on our most insecure bits and then call us snowflakes for not handling it? And then when I tell you I don’t want to have anything to do with religion when I was younger, you basically go out of your way to bring it up and even buy me A FUCKING CHILDREN’S BIBLE AND SAY MY FUCKING DEPRESSION IS CAUSED BY NOT BEING RELIGIOUS ENOUGH!? Wtf is with my family anymore.
Maybe the waifuists are right, with a 2d character you won’t be fucking mocked for standing up for yourself and will have your fucking boundaries respected.
Are you okay?
 
I left the city last Saturday, took a day trip to a car show. There was well over 1,000 people there mingling, having a good time, maskless! Reminded me of life a couple years ago. I got back into the city the next day and went to the grocery store to be met with the stockholm syndrome fucks affraid of their own shadow. . It felt like I went through some kind of wormhole. I gotta get out of this god-forsaken city.
 
I realized today that I've become depressed again. I was doing fine for nearly an entire year, but recently it's gotten more difficult to just go about my life. It's a high functioning depression so I can still go to work, and take care of myself okay but sometimes it's a struggle to just cook something to eat and my energy is just depleted from simple things. I also just don't feel my emotions right now. I don't feel sad or angry, but I don't feel happy or content either. It's like a flat line.

I don't know what initally caused this, but I'll try to just get some more sunlight and take vitamins and what not and see if that helps. My birthday is also coming up so hopefully doing something fun and going on a day trip will help. At least the Corona restrictions are being taken down.
 
I have a shitty personality for wanting to be left the fuck alone dad because of how I speak to you? I guess the apple doesn’t fall far from the fucking tree then. You pick on our most insecure bits and then call us snowflakes for not handling it? And then when I tell you I don’t want to have anything to do with religion when I was younger, you basically go out of your way to bring it up and even buy me A FUCKING CHILDREN’S BIBLE AND SAY MY FUCKING DEPRESSION IS CAUSED BY NOT BEING RELIGIOUS ENOUGH!? Wtf is with my family anymore.
Maybe the waifuists are right, with a 2d character you won’t be fucking mocked for standing up for yourself and will have your fucking boundaries respected.
thats not very frogloli waifu of you
 
I have a shitty personality for wanting to be left the fuck alone dad because of how I speak to you? I guess the apple doesn’t fall far from the fucking tree then. You pick on our most insecure bits and then call us snowflakes for not handling it? And then when I tell you I don’t want to have anything to do with religion when I was younger, you basically go out of your way to bring it up and even buy me A FUCKING CHILDREN’S BIBLE AND SAY MY FUCKING DEPRESSION IS CAUSED BY NOT BEING RELIGIOUS ENOUGH!? Wtf is with my family anymore.
Maybe the waifuists are right, with a 2d character you won’t be fucking mocked for standing up for yourself and will have your fucking boundaries respected.
It sounds like your father is, while misguided, attempting to help you in the only way they understand. They at least in some fashion find comfort and stability in religion and are hoping to help you find the same given your issues. I have no idea how old you actually are but your posts have indicated relatively young thus its a child's bible.

I also really, really, really wouldn't suggest admitting those feelings about 'waifus' and the like here unless you are looking to be viciously mocked. You also won't have your values mocked because it's a fictional character and thus is incapable of having any feelings on the matter.
 
thus its a child's bible.
He got it for me years ago.
I also really, really, really wouldn't suggest admitting those feelings about 'waifus' and the like here unless you are looking to be viciously mocked. You also won't have your values mocked because it's a fictional character and thus is incapable of having any feelings on the matter.
Yeah, that part was a more heat of the moment.
 
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when I was younger, you basically go out of your way to bring it up and even buy me A FUCKING CHILDREN’S BIBLE AND SAY MY FUCKING DEPRESSION IS CAUSED BY NOT BEING RELIGIOUS ENOUGH!?
Bible is an important cultural artifact, whether you believe those stories or not. Give it a read if you have it, will make your rejection of it more rational and less emotional.
 
It sounds like your father is, while misguided, attempting to help you in the only way they understand. They at least in some fashion find comfort and stability in religion and are hoping to help you find the same given your issues. I have no idea how old you actually are but your posts have indicated relatively young thus its a child's bible.

I also really, really, really wouldn't suggest admitting those feelings about 'waifus' and the like here unless you are looking to be viciously mocked. You also won't have your values mocked because it's a fictional character and thus is incapable of having any feelings on the matter.
My mother is like this too, stupid and her help is so misguided. I rather want her to not do anything at all, because she makes more frustration than needed.
She's 19, she talked about her birthday her before. So she's not underage.

The fuck dude? She just wants someone that treats her good. Most of humanity is shit, and at least with a fantasy-bf it's fine. Sometimes it's better to not feel anything at all, when all the other solutions is to feel like shit.
Bible is an important cultural artifact, whether you believe those stories or not. Give it a read if you have it, will make your rejection of it more rational and less emotional.
Actually this, she could actually fight off her dad with some good snarky and rational arguments.
 
She's 19, she talked about her birthday her before. So she's not underage.

The fuck dude? She just wants someone that treats her good. Most of humanity is shit, and at least with a fantasy-bf it's fine. Sometimes it's better to not feel anything at all, when all the other solutions is to feel like shit.
I'm not terribly convinced of that though it's hardly relevant, in the grand scheme of things a lot of people consider 19 to be young. Also as they mentioned afterward the bible was given much earlier.

This is Kiwi Farms, I'm mentioning that because people can and will dedicate time to shitting on them for those kinds of statements. You may also want to take note of the fact that I did not at any point condemn waifuism or what have you. I don't really care how someone spends their time but openly espousing that here on the Farms is a real poor move.

If you're looking for someone to treat you nicely I'd still not suggest looking for a waifu or a husbando, as they are not a person. They are a character who cannot actually interact with you. They are free to do whatever they want but if they've poked their nose into the waifuist thread for a moment they'd quickly see the pattern that doing so just makes for growing delusions and a lost grip on reality.
 
After months of insanity and arguments and letting myself be insulted and belittled I told my mentally ill, narcissistic ex last week that I'm done and cut him off. I get a call while at work on Wednesday from the emergency room, he did something to get the cops to take him in. The doctor said he didn't see any reason to keep him so I assume he didn't try to hurt himself, he was just acting crazy. I gave him the highlight reel and said I'm not comfortable seeing or talking to him so there's nothing I can do. I haven't heard anything since then and he hasn't been active on any social media or on Playstation (which is the biggest shock to me) so I really hope that they either kept him or sent him to a psych facility of some sort. I'm just surprised that he hasn't tried to contact me. I'm scared and I can't stop worrying because even though he's been horrible to me, especially since I broke up with him, I still care about him and I just want him to be okay. I know I can't blame myself if anything happens/happened, but being a codependent idiot I know I will and I don't know if I'll be able to handle it.
Turned out my ex went into inpatient at the hospital's mental health clinic.

As a result of having that anxiety lifted off my shoulders, I've finally been able to focus on shit I've been wanting to do, mainly cleaning out my depression hoard. Looking at new furniture. Been dressing cute and wearing makeup to work on days where I don't have to bust ass. Redownloaded Tinder out of boredom last week, happened to match with a cute younger guy who's totally my type (that's like finding a fucking shiny Pokemon in this city) and got laid, hopefully going to meet up again this week. I need to go directly to horny jail.
 
Depends on what the field is, but maybe freelance on the side for a while, see exactly how much the field has stabilized in reality.
Some of the jobs I've been offered are a couple months in length and one of them is temp-to-perm. I can't get off unless it's on medical leave and the union's pretty nosy about that.
 
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Some of the jobs I've been offered are a couple months in length and one of them is temp-to-perm. I can't get off unless it's on medical leave and the union's pretty nosy about that.
Oh, so it's not a thing that you can set aside a couple hours a day to do. Well, yeah, you gotta choose wisely then.
 
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I'm not terribly convinced of that though it's hardly relevant, in the grand scheme of things a lot of people consider 19 to be young. Also as they mentioned afterward the bible was given much earlier.

This is Kiwi Farms, I'm mentioning that because people can and will dedicate time to shitting on them for those kinds of statements. You may also want to take note of the fact that I did not at any point condemn waifuism or what have you. I don't really care how someone spends their time but openly espousing that here on the Farms is a real poor move.

If you're looking for someone to treat you nicely I'd still not suggest looking for a waifu or a husbando, as they are not a person. They are a character who cannot actually interact with you. They are free to do whatever they want but if they've poked their nose into the waifuist thread for a moment they'd quickly see the pattern that doing so just makes for growing delusions and a lost grip on reality.
Who are they, she's not a troon.

"Words on the internet really hurts me.". Guess what, turn off the internet.

That's the point, sometimes you don't want any interaction.
 
This is up to verygayFrogs, and I only suggested this because:
1: She feels bad for posting so much in this thread.
2: Some are tired at looking at her venting, and one went vocal about it.

I'm just trying to find a solution.
I have a shitty personality for wanting to be left the fuck alone dad because of how I speak to you? I guess the apple doesn’t fall far from the fucking tree then. You pick on our most insecure bits and then call us snowflakes for not handling it? And then when I tell you I don’t want to have anything to do with religion when I was younger, you basically go out of your way to bring it up and even buy me A FUCKING CHILDREN’S BIBLE AND SAY MY FUCKING DEPRESSION IS CAUSED BY NOT BEING RELIGIOUS ENOUGH!? Wtf is with my family anymore.
Maybe the waifuists are right, with a 2d character you won’t be fucking mocked for standing up for yourself and will have your fucking boundaries respected.
lol, @Vingle time to find the final solution.

The only reason I don't like Faggytoads's vents is because like most depressives, she lives in her own world obsessed about her emotions and cannot relate to other people. She never asks how are we in this thread. And doesn't even give sticker when she's answered (very rude, we KFers live off of stickers). It's all what it all means to her because she can't escape her self-involved reality.

And see, we cranked her up too much and now she's somehow talking to her father in a KF thread, but as a silver lining, at least her grammar is a bit better.
 
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