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verygayFrogs said:
I’m trying but with a family that will take his side, no friends and a therapy session always about 2 weeks away, it’s rough and I can’t calm down anymore. I’ve had enough of bottling it up. I just can’t express it the way I want because family is the only thing I have left aside from this forum.
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This forum is a better family than your biological family. Just let it all out, we are here for you :)
 
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verygayFrogs said:
I’m trying but with a family that will take his side, no friends and a therapy session always about 2 weeks away, it’s rough and I can’t calm down anymore. I’ve had enough of bottling it up. I just can’t express it the way I want because family is the only thing I have left aside from this forum.
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I understand that your situation is bad, but you need to find a way to deal with it. Even if we keep listening, that's just a brief relief, you need to learn how to minimize the damage.

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Just let it all out, we are here for you :)
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verygayFrogs said:
I’m trying but with a family that will take his side, no friends and a therapy session always about 2 weeks away, it’s rough and I can’t calm down anymore. I’ve had enough of bottling it up. I just can’t express it the way I want because family is the only thing I have left aside from this forum.
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Have you tried DM'ing it directly to the most autistic, empathy-deficient, ratings-hungry doxers on the forum? Because when you post it here that's what you might as well be doing.
 
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So the official response I got about my payment for last month's work boiled down to "Fuck you, it's always your fault, submit your invoice by the deadline, even if we haven't made it yet. Come back in a month." In the span of a week my satisfaction with being their subcontractor has dropped by 95%.

On the bright side, I've found spite to be the best motivator for me to actually get my shit together. It's probably not healthy, but hanging on to hatred to get healthier in every other aspect seems like a fair trade off. I'll deal with that problem when I finally get around to feeling like a human being.

Dyn said:
Have you tried DM'ing it directly to the most autistic, empathy-deficient, ratings-hungry doxers on the forum? Because when you post it here that's what you might as well be doing.
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Any recommendations on who that might be? I, for one, would love to cut out the middleman when spilling my spaghetti everywhere :story:
 
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Tom Myers said:
Not great. Started drinking again and I'm back to not eating, showering, brushing my teeth, or working. I don't know what I did to deserve this curse.
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It's not like it gets bought and in your system by itself. Personal responsibility and stuff.
 
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Vingle said:
It's not like it gets bought and in your system by itself. Personal responsibility and stuff.
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That is very true. The problem is that I've managed to fuck myself up so much that if I start drinking at all I end up in DT range within a couple days. Then I'm hallucinating and having seizures. My mistake was thinking that beer would be ok.
 
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Tom Myers said:
That is very true. The problem is that I've managed to fuck myself up so much that if I start drinking at all I end up in DT range within a couple days. Then I'm hallucinating and having seizures. My mistake was thinking that beer would be ok.
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If you don't think you can let the beer stay, post in this thread when you crave it. Then we can tell you to make some healthy food or take a shower. Beer contains a lot of calories, and it lowers your testosterone. So it's going to get worse if you don't stop.

Basically, turning to the bottle while having hard times is the worst thing you can do.
 
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Vingle said:
If you don't think you can let the beer stay, post in this thread when you crave it. Then we can tell you to make some healthy food or take a shower. Beer contains a lot of calories, and it lowers your testosterone. So it's going to get worse if you don't stop.

Basically, turning to the bottle while having hard times is the worst thing you can do.
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Much respect, but I'm probably going to force myself back to AA. It's boring, idiotic, but it works.
 
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verygayFrogs said:
I’m trying but with a family that will take his side, no friends and a therapy session always about 2 weeks away, it’s rough and I can’t calm down anymore. I’ve had enough of bottling it up. I just can’t express it the way I want because family is the only thing I have left aside from this forum.
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Look. You clearly don't want help, you don't answer messages or address any help/advice given to you. You just want to be heard but don't actually want to hear what anyone else says.
Tom Myers said:
Not great. Started drinking again and I'm back to not eating, showering, brushing my teeth, or working. I don't know what I did to deserve this curse.
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It's not a curse if everything ailing you is all preventable, and especially if it's of your own doing.
 
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Slightly stressed. We're prepping for a holiday in Cornwall and the sticky, muggy heat isn't helping. It also doesn't help that one of the bottles of scented oils I bought today literally exploded in my shopping bag from said heat.

At least my shopping bag now smells like vanilla I guess.
 
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verygayFrogs said:
I saw your message, it’s just sometimes I don’t think I’m ready yet to hear it.
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I really try my best to keep up a reputation as an asshole, so I don't really enjoy having the few nice things I do be ignored.

If you want to talk about the issues, go for it, but just try not to air them in public.
 
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