Holy fuck was I wrong here.
She doesn't do it to distract. She does it because she's a fucking narcissist.
I'm sorry to disagree here, but she's not at all bothered by her anti-social behavior--she fucking gets off on it.
She likes making people uncomfortable. She likes pushing boundaries and getting reactions out of her audience. It's attention-seeking, yeah, but it's darker than that. She wants to see people recoil. I suspect it actually gives her a sexual thrill. And she'll keep escalating her behavior until she finds our breaking point.
- Showing her body on camera
- Eating obscene quantities of food
- Swearing
- Chewing with mouth open
- Burping/farting
- Nose picking
- Uncomfortable story times
- Overt discussions of sexual acts
- Running over tiny animals with her car
- Asking chat about their own sexual experiences
- Exhibitionism/flashing (which I now believe to be 100% intentional)
- Display of sexual aides on camera (dild, nipple clamps, etc)
- Shitting outdoors just off camera
- Discussion of habitual outdoor shitting habits
- Abuse of edibles on camera
- Driving under the influence of edibles*
- Discussion of illicit drug use
- Introduction of a possible gambling addiction arc (still fairly benign atm, but we'll see where it goes)
- Driving under the influence of illicit drugs*
- Snorting cocaine/chopping lines off camera*
- Killing (possibly domesticated*) animals with her car
This isn't a perfect timeline, but it's close, and ordered in my opinion from most benign to most egregious--and it's getting progressively worse as time goes on, sometimes even daily. Her behaviors are shifting from one vice to the next, always searching for a new and different thing to shock and horrify her audience. She loves when people ask if she's okay, or wonder about what new vice she could possibly indulge in. She's going to keep upping her own ante, which leads me wonder what the fuck is next?
The only thing that will hold her back is the fear of being demonetized or de-platformed.
*These are things she did without telling her audience, which gives her a secret thrill. She loves getting away with being "naughty" whilst fooling everyone. Hiding in plain sight, or whatever. I wonder if that's partially the reason why she admitted to the cocaine habit-- she couldn't hide the symptoms anymore, and doing it in secret wasn't giving her enough of a thrill. It's been said before, but the expression on her face when Peetz walks in and asks her about her "edibles relapse" is nothing short of orgasmic. Literal orgasm.
This isn't innocent, helpless mental illness. This is identify-and-immediately-get-as-far-away-as-possible narcissistic cluster B mental illness.
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