Secret Gamer Girl / SecretGamerGrrl / Googleshng / "Violet Hargrave" / Jacob Lawrence (Jake) Alley / Violet Cassandra Ocean - Delusional Zoe Quinn Stalker, Libelous Tweeter, Thirsty Gnome, Faux-Tranny Neckbeard Incel, Micropenis, "Known Troubled Person", Creator of "Massive vs the Masses", Self-Described "Noise Making Thing"; Lives in Niantic, CT

[AirdropShitposts]

Jakey replied to the news with our rapsheet:

 

[Tragi-Chan]

Jakey replied to the news with our rapsheet:
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Are these actual homicides, or is it like when Jake claims he has hitmen after him?

 

[Smaug's Smokey Hole]

Are these actual homicides, or is it like when Jake claims he has hitmen after him?

We killed Jake Alley and had a great big feast, Hellfire died of cholesterol poisoning. Oddly enough he walked it back to just one mass shooting.

 

[Kosher Dill]

Are these actual homicides

Traditional homicides, no less!

And quite a conundrum at that - I had been looking for Miss Scarlett when the perpetrator was Mr. Green all along!

 

[Chan the Wizard]

Jakey replied to the news with our rapsheet:
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Julie Terryberry - shed girl, who killed herself in part because of her abusive tranny boyfriend. Did not blame KiwiFarms or indicate KiwiFarms had any role.

Chloe Sagal - mentally ill troon that left a suicide note explicitly listing why she was killing her self. Wasn’t KiwiFarms. Even one of her few friends posted her after it.

Couch Cuck - is the only homicide I can think of and he never posted his plans and everyone thought he was an edgy faggot. Something Awful has had more murderers.

Christchurch video - only mass murder I can think of and he wasn’t a member or even aware of the site. Null just refused to takedown his video and cave to censorship.

 

[AirdropShitposts]

I’d like to get out from under these buses already.

It has been just a little over 7 years since the following things all happened in pretty close proximity to each other: I came out as trans, I started this blog, 4chan’s nazi population really broke...

secretgamergirl.tumblr.com

I’d like to get out from under these buses already.

It has been just a little over 7 years since the following things all happened in pretty close proximity to each other: I came out as trans, I started this blog, 4chan’s nazi population really broke out into being everyone’s problem, and a cascade of people I loved and trusted started using convenient lies to justify treating me in absolutely monstrous ways without ever looking back. I think that’s long enough to have earned the right to vent about these things so I’m going to do a bit of that here. If you aren’t interested, just don’t click through the break.

I don’t want to spend a lot of time setting all these up and laying out when they happened relative to each other, and I don’t especially want to stir up the heat of naming names. Again, I just need to vent about how messed up it is that these things were done to me and that none of those involved nor anyone who believed the cover stories of various bad actors ever for one second ever looked back.

So this one time I was in this support group of sorts for people dealing with being terrorized by nazis, and there was a firmly established rule that nobody was allowed to invite anyone else into it unless it was unanimously agreed upon that everyone currently in it trusted and felt safe around the person to be added. This lasted up through the addition of like, the 5th or 6th member, who promptly dragged in a whole entourage of people including some really unsavory types. And when I say unsavory types this person dragged a damn nazi into a place where explicitly anonymous trans people under siege from nazis were letting our guards down. And yes, the person dragging him in knew his nazi history. Take a guess how that played out for everyone else.

There was a period of time where I was in a really dangerous place, and someone kept asking me to look through the sort of stuff you read about Facebook employees needing years of therapy for filtering. Cute animals being tortured, killed, desecrated after. Imagery explicitly designed to cause as much distress as possible to trans women specifically. Snuff film stuff. They kept promising me everything I was being asked to catalog was going into a report that would get it all shut down and if I just kept at it, a grant was being secured that’d keep me from ever needing to work, cover my medical expenses, and I’d have safe housing set up to protect me from abusive family and dangerous stalkers. I feel like such an idiot now for believing any of it.

Some people got into a weird stupid argument with someone. I never really heard who, or what was involved. What I do know is that somewhere along the line, someone on one side of it wanted to be done with it, and plenty of people seemed all too happy to go along with it when my name was apparently pulled out of a damn hat for who to use as a scapegoat for whatever it was. And at least a few people on the other side of things decided to make hating me for who the hell even knows what thing that never had anything to do with me a lifelong project, stalking me for years, and continuing to build out the mythology of why trying to make me kill myself is important for… I don’t know, the value of friendship or something? I’m not saying this is a group of bloody-minded people on a power trip, but they certainly seem to enjoy it, and have a long list of people they’ve done it to.

Early on with this, someone who knew I had nothing to do with any of this spoke up about the abuse. And came under fire from the same people, caved in about 5 seconds, and posted a giant retraction claiming not only were they right to be attacking but also that I “took advantage of her autism to trick her.” Ghoulish. I hadn’t even talked to her about this.

Someone I’d known for years, met face to face several times, collaborated with. I was talking about some random creep of the sort who just love to do so throwing vile and disgusting accusations my way. She immediately starts trying to distance herself. Lots of “I don’t even know them, I’ve been trying to get them to take a hike for years, I’ve heard all sorts of horrible things about them.” It wasn’t until she stopped to double check who I was saying was acting unacceptably that I learned oh, she hates me and never uses the right pronouns when I’m not present, apparently.

Throughout all of this, and at least half a dozen other times where hell if I know what prompted it, I’ve just been constantly hit by these waves of entire social circles just ghosting me all at once. Nobody ever says a word. One minute we’re friends, the next I don’t exist.Or worse, they’re working with nazis to get me killed. And with one very notable exception, I don’t have anyone left to talk me through it. These weren’t just casual acquaintances. These are people I’ve helped get away from bad relationships, move countries or across the country, talked though suicidal episodes. Met their families.

I can’t get work anywhere anymore either. Rent’s 50% than patreon brings in.

I think about killing myself a lot.

The worst thing about all of this though? I always talk about this sort of thing without names for… everyone’s safety, really. People always say, these people are abusive, and terrible, and I’m far better off not having any of hem in my life anymore. But the same people who tell me that turn around, and sing the praises of all these people who have done all this to me, constantly. Celebrate them as the kindest people in the world, doing the best work. And I just have to sit here, never saying anything. Nobody has ever had my back, and I never expect that to change.

lol if his rent is actually near $2000 and he thinks he's living in the cheapest place ever


Then right back to Smug Jake:

https://twitter.com/SecretGamerGrrl/status/1414861704140308481

 

[Tragi-Chan]

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I’d like to get out from under these buses already.

It has been just a little over 7 years since the following things all happened in pretty close proximity to each other: I came out as trans, I started this blog, 4chan’s nazi population really broke...

secretgamergirl.tumblr.com

lol if his rent is actually near $2000 and he thinks he's living in the cheapest place ever

If seven years is enough time to allow him to vent, how does he justify his near-constant ranting about exactly the same subject previously? He’s still too much of a dripping pussy to name names.

Then right back to Smug Jake:

https://twitter.com/SecretGamerGrrl/status/1414861704140308481

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TRANSLATION: He read Null’s announcement. Or more likely, read someone else’s tweet about it and made the details up himself. I look forward to his condescending and yet entirely wrong take on the situation.

 

[Water-T]

Is it already that special time of year where Jakey rattles his tin cup and once again pretends that he's THISCLOSE to being homeless despite Patreon and one of his retarded relatives footing the bill? Oh goody!

Maybe now CHELSAY! will see this behind the 78 blockchains and come running to his aid with money, tendies, and blowjobs! Surely this time!

 

[Norvic]

Someone I’d known for years, met face to face several times, collaborated with. I was talking about some random creep of the sort who just love to do so throwing vile and disgusting accusations my way. She immediately starts trying to distance herself. Lots of “I don’t even know them, I’ve been trying to get them to take a hike for years, I’ve heard all sorts of horrible things about them.” It wasn’t until she stopped to double check who I was saying was acting unacceptably that I learned oh, she hates me and never uses the right pronouns when I’m not present, apparently.

Not sure if he's referring to Tanya DePass or Katherine Cross, but either way it's heartwarming to know that there's a level of fat, gnomeish beardyness that even they won't accept as female.

 

[AnOminous]

I was thinking more along the lines of William S. Burroughs, or the early practitioners of Industrial music; artists with actual talent, who used the cut-up technique to make a point about how postmodern society filled people's heads with heaps of useless, decontextualized garbage.

What's great about Jake is that he's done this to himself unintentionally, and can't even conceive of another way of being. The ultimate outsider artist.

Please don't compare Jake's Googleshnging to anything Burroughs ever did. Strung out on smack and literally just randomly stringing pieces of ripped up paper on his floor together, WSB made more sense than Jake's imbecilic gibberish.

 

[MyOtherNicknameIsAPun]

The fun part of reading Jake’s Twitter is you can never tell if he’s actually retarded or just pretending to be retarded.

The best part for me is that he really thinks he adds to the world with those paragraphs of nonsense. He has no introspection to question himself, "Are those my thought or am I just a idea-repeater, set to buzzwords salad?". He can never let the reality creep in, otherwise he'd have to stop and ponder why does he talk about living as a woman if he donned a cosplay wig but a year ago and lived 40 years as a fat attic sped.

We all delude ourselves, but those are minor things. Maybe I'm not as fit as I think I am? Outcome? I can get winded quicker than I thought. But Jake entire self-worth, the only reason anybody reads (present company excluded) what he types is based on a lie. How do you live a life like that without your internal monologue whispering into your mind that you're a fraud.

Watching Jake is like joining on those psychological experiments from the 50s and 60s when the ethical boards didn't have a say.

 

[GleamingTheQ-Bert]

Please don't compare Jake's Googleshnging to anything Burroughs ever did. Strung out on smack and literally just randomly stringing pieces of ripped up paper on his floor together, WSB made more sense than Jake's imbecilic gibberish.

At least Burroughs was interesting.

And he had no qualms about admitting his homosexuality, unlike alot of these neckbeard trans who can't admit that they'd like the dick....and because they've been friendless losers all their life, they decide that they're women.

Jake has gone so far as to suggest that being into role-playing games is indicative of being trans. Think about this for a second. Although we associate RPGs with nerds, rightly so, it's still a very typical male interest. Perhaps not a macho male interest, but certainly a male one. A male nerd interest. This sort of fantasy of wanting to aspire to heroics and Grand adventures. Jake understands so little about the psyche that he can position wanting to pretend that you have swords and battles as a feminine interest. That's how deluded he is...

 

[Water-T]

Watching Jake is like joining on those psychological experiments from the 50s and 60s when the ethical boards didn't have a say.

I cross my fingers that one day Jake's mom comes forward and admits that she raised him to become a retarded shut-in tranny on purpose as a joke.

 

[MyOtherNicknameIsAPun]

I cross my fingers that one day Jake's mom comes forward and admits that she raised him to become a retarded shut-in tranny on purpose as a joke.

Skinner's Box dispensing tendies.

 

[Kosher Dill]

I love how the CON story has slowly started to accrete new details in every telling.

a grant was being secured that’d keep me from ever needing to work

Jake let the mask slip a little too far, from "CON was going to be my job" to "I'd never have to get a job"

lol if his rent is actually near $2000 and he thinks he's living in the cheapest place ever

I'm guessing that was supposed to be "50% more than" and it's probably closer to $1500.

Not sure if he's referring to Tanya DePass or Katherine Cross, but either way it's heartwarming to know that there's a level of fat, gnomeish beardyness that even they won't accept as female.

Did he actually meet them? I was keeping a list of people who actually encountered The Beard in person here:

https://kiwifarms.st/threads/secret...-cassandra-ocean.23920/page-1181#post-5866301

 

[GleamingTheQ-Bert]

I love how the CON story has slowly started to accrete new details in every telling.

Jake let the mask slip a little too far, from "CON was going to be my job" to "I'd never have to get a job"


I'm guessing that was supposed to be "50% more than" and it's probably closer to $1500.


Did he actually meet them? I was keeping a list of people who actually encountered The Beard in person here:

https://kiwifarms.st/threads/secret...-cassandra-ocean.23920/page-1181#post-5866301

De pass was in those pics with him and Katherine Cross. So at least once, yes.

 

[Next Task]

lol if his rent is actually near $2000 and he thinks he's living in the cheapest place ever

Is he claiming it's near $2000 dollars now? Because for over a year his begging was to get his Patreon to over $1000 because that would cover his rent and necessities. Seems like the cost of living tendies and ugly wigs is rising for poor Jakey.

Jake has gone so far as to suggest that being into role-playing games is indicative of being trans.

Because Jake is a moron who isn't even a roleplayer. This is a man who desperately wants to be an important part of the industry and has been involved in games for likely over two decades, but couldn't see the appeal of Westworld. I still find that mind-blowing, that someone who is an avid gamer can't understand how anyone would want that level of immersive experience. It only makes sense when you realise that, even in Westworld, there would be no way for Jake to be treated as the lissom young redheaded woman he desperately wants to be, and every single one of his characters undoubtedly has an aspect of his transformation/troon fetish involved.

It takes skill to remain completely terrible at something you've been doing for decades. Possibly the one skill Jake has, because he's only gotten worse at everything he thinks of as his skillset.

 

[Kosher Dill]

De pass was in those pics with him and Katherine Cross. So at least once, yes.

Oh right, of course, the GaymerX panel. I forgot about that because he absolutely refuses to mention it on Twitter except once as an example of "that random guy with a beard who isn't me"

Random on con panels: Jake wants to hold a panel about women's underwear.
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EDIT:

Is he claiming it's near $2000 dollars now?

His latest claim (from April 2021) is $1500 for all his living expenses.
https://archive.md/Kk7oz

 

[Tragi-Chan]

Not sure if he's referring to Tanya DePass or Katherine Cross, but either way it's heartwarming to know that there's a level of fat, gnomeish beardyness that even they won't accept as female.

At this time, I think they could have been forgiven for thinking he was just figuring himself out. After all, he didn’t present as female and was likely using male pronouns outside of safe space settings.

Jake has gone so far as to suggest that being into role-playing games is indicative of being trans. Think about this for a second. Although we associate RPGs with nerds, rightly so, it's still a very typical male interest. Perhaps not a macho male interest, but certainly a male one. A male nerd interest. This sort of fantasy of wanting to aspire to heroics and Grand adventures. Jake understands so little about the psyche that he can position wanting to pretend that you have swords and battles as a feminine interest. That's how deluded he is...

Violet basically is an RPG character, given how little resemblance Jake’s pretend life bears to his real one. I wouldn’t be surprised if he always used to play as a sexy redhead with massive tits.

 

[Kosher Dill]

Not on-topic to anything, but I just stumbled across this old blog from 2014 again:

Secret Gamer Girl — Distance and Sympathy

archived 8 Dec 2018 12:13:09 UTC

archive.md

In which Jake claims to have been sexually assaulted by an old, frail woman. No wonder he loves to claim that TERF grandma was beating up 7-foot-tall troons, he says practically the same thing about himself