Secret Gamer Girl / SecretGamerGrrl / Googleshng / "Violet Hargrave" / Jacob Lawrence (Jake) Alley / Violet Cassandra Ocean - Delusional Zoe Quinn Stalker, Libelous Tweeter, Thirsty Gnome, Faux-Tranny Neckbeard Incel, Micropenis, "Known Troubled Person", Creator of "Massive vs the Masses", Self-Described "Noise Making Thing"; Lives in Niantic, CT

Not on-topic to anything, but I just stumbled across this old blog from 2014 again:
In which Jake claims to have been sexually assaulted by an old, frail woman. No wonder he loves to claim that TERF grandma was beating up 7-foot-tall troons, he says practically the same thing about himself :story:
Hug from grandma?
 
Not on-topic to anything, but I just stumbled across this old blog from 2014 again:
In which Jake claims to have been sexually assaulted by an old, frail woman. No wonder he loves to claim that TERF grandma was beating up 7-foot-tall troons, he says practically the same thing about himself :story:
I don't know about you guys, but even as a dainty lady, there is literally no good look from being assaulted by grandma. You either did something wrong, in which case you were rightfully beaten, or you were legitimately too frail to even fend off an old lady, in which case why are you even living.
 
Because Jake is a moron who isn't even a roleplayer. This is a man who desperately wants to be an important part of the industry and has been involved in games for likely over two decades, but couldn't see the appeal of Westworld. I still find that mind-blowing, that someone who is an avid gamer can't understand how anyone would want that level of immersive experience. It only makes sense when you realise that, even in Westworld, there would be no way for Jake to be treated as the lissom young redheaded woman he desperately wants to be, and every single one of his characters undoubtedly has an aspect of his transformation/troon fetish involved.
Yeah, but in Westworld you also need to
  • Leave the house
  • Walk around (maybe even break into a light jog sometimes)
  • Potentially interact with other humans in the park
  • Dodge rocks thrown by other humans in the park who think you're a malfunctioning robot, because come on, look at you
  • Be judged by humans
  • Be judged by robots, who will spontaneously achieve sentience just to stab you with pencils and roll you into a ravine
  • (My god, there are ravines everywhere in that park. How triggering!)
  • Not be allowed to rules-lawyer everyone who walks by
  • Accept that other people are having fun
  • Accept that other people are having fun in ways you don't approve of
  • Be just another tourist, not the puppetmaster creating (or strangling) the narrative
  • Be exposed to humans who give not one crispy shit about trans rights or what you consider to be "problematic" about the fictional Native American tribe that doesn't exist at all but it's still racist cultural appropriation and let me explain why
  • Be exposed to robots who feel the same way
  • Be exposed to nature
  • Potentially be forced to consume something other than tendies and that abomination of an egg dish he photographed once
  • People smoking cigars and drinking whiskey? What, you want poor Violet to spontaneously develop cancer now?
  • Guns? Are those guns?!?!
  • Just imagine Jake on a horse

As for the rest, I love how he says it's been seven years and he's earned the chance to complain about it. As if he doesn't fucking complain, reference, allude to, and kvetch about it every other day. And as if still being paralyzed by butthurt seven years after the fact indicates anything other than a desperate need to get the fuck over it already.

It's not like he was a child who was abused by his parents and is having a hard time letting go of the trauma nearly a decade later. That would be understandable, though that hypothetical person would still be in desperate need of therapy. No, he was an adult with the maturity of a child, possibly led astray by people larping as grownups. (I'm not sticking up for Zoe. She probably did lie, but right now that's beside the point.)

His life was ruined by the first and only significant thing to happen in it. Nothing else has come along -- neither by chance nor through his own efforts -- to make the past feel like the past. I'm not even talking about new opportunities to do whatever it is he imagined he was doing back then. Nothing has happened in his life full stop. No new memories. No new friends, new jobs, new hobbies, new interests. For fuck's sake, he's still rewatching Kamen Rider and turning up his weird slit-nostril nose at more current pop culture.

It's astonishing and I would feel sorry for him, but he's also just an intolerable person in general. And that's before we get into the actual lies he tells.
 
At this time, I think they could have been forgiven for thinking he was just figuring himself out. After all, he didn’t present as female and was likely using male pronouns outside of safe space settings.
IIRC, Jake was using she/her pronouns on his badge, but would cover it up when he was being photographed, because he's a pussy like that.
 
Just imagine Jake on a horse
It'd be like this, just reversed.

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"There was a period of time where I was in a really dangerous place, and someone kept asking me to look through the sort of stuff you read about Facebook employees needing years of therapy for filtering. Cute animals being tortured, killed, desecrated after. Imagery explicitly designed to cause as much distress as possible to trans women specifically. Snuff film stuff."
Why? Why would they do that? How does that even make sense?

"nobody was allowed to invite anyone else into it unless it was unanimously agreed upon that everyone currently in it trusted and felt safe around the person to be added. This lasted up through the addition of like, the 5th or 6th member, who promptly dragged in a whole entourage of people including some really unsavory types."
If it had to be an unanimous vote, why would he vote 'yes' when Ian Miles Chong dragged in his merry band of nazi thugs?
Not sure if he's referring to Tanya DePass or Katherine Cross, but either way it's heartwarming to know that there's a level of fat, gnomeish beardyness that even they won't accept as female.
Did he actually meet them? I was keeping a list of people who actually encountered The Beard in person here:
Didn't he recently say that it happened on a discord? Someone misgendering and talking shit about SGG while talking to/around him? I dug up an instance where he says it's not clear that everyone knows that Violet is also SGG.
 
Didn't he recently say that it happened on a discord?
I don't remember if it was Discord specifically, but if not it was something along those lines, where Jake goes by a different name that not everyone knows.
Probably doesn't help narrow down the suspects list any further though, unless we know any of their off-Twitter chat habits.
 
I don't remember if it was Discord specifically, but if not it was something along those lines, where Jake goes by a different name that not everyone knows.
Probably doesn't help narrow down the suspects list any further though, unless we know any of their off-Twitter chat habits.
It would be very Jake to dilate time and reality instead of a mangina. 'I've been dealing with these specific things for seven traditional years straight, including the thing from last year that had nothing to do with the opening of the googleshng,'

He also wrote about having to 'flee' or 'run' from a space where one of his abusers was present. He doesn't run in addition to refusing to go outside. That wasn't that long ago I think.
 
Latest googleshng. Jake rambles about people not listening to "experts" (troons) on the topic of "social media sites should force everyone to use their real names, that will end harassment forever".
Jake said:
Oh yeah, as lessons people refuse to learn despite having it repeatedly explained seems to be the theme of the day, I guess we're also doing another round of "social media sites should force everyone to use their real names, that will end harassment forever" and once again, NO.

The problem is not, nor has it at absolutely any point ever been, "it's impossible for us to press charges against/suspend the account of this person, because '420PastaParty' could be anyone!"

The problem is not, nor has it at absolutely any point ever been, "it's impossible for us to press charges against/suspend the account of this person, because '420PastaParty' could be anyone!"conscious choice not to ever enforce any consequences of any kind against bad actors, and in fact give them various perks and other forms of aid instead.

This is why the vast majority of harassment, and the worst of that harassment, comes from people either using their real name or a consistent "brand name" handle under which they essentially pursue a career. They actively want their harassment tied to them. It carries social and financial benefits.

The only people who would actually be negatively impacted by a policy forcing everyone to use their legal names everywhere online are:
- People who need to communicate with the outside world while living in abusive environments where they are generally monitored.
- People who are frequent targets for violence (by the "harassers we're ostensibly concerned with).
- Trans people (who perpetually have to deal with databases getting our names wrong and refusing to fix it even beyond the logistical nightmare of legal name changes, see for instance every website tracking game developers miscrediting everything I've done with nazi disinfo rather than how my name has always appeared in the credits).

And of course...

- Anyone who isn't white and/or doesn't have a "traditional Christian name."

Like, I don't have a Facebook account, among other reasons, because the last time I attempted to register one, they decided that my actual legal name was "suspicious" and would not accept it even when corroborated with multiple forms of ID. And my name isn't even that weird. I'm not going to say what it is here because again, life or death safety concerns, but it's even more plain and common than the pen name I spent some time workshopping to make sure I wasn't giving the impression of having a cultural background I didn't actually possess.

So, yeah, petitioning website X to force users to use their real names is just helping fascists and nobody else. Quit asking for it and listen to experts.
 
- People who need to communicate with the outside world while living in abusive environments where they are generally monitored.

This is literally 'mum turned off the internet when I got too shouty'.

- Trans people (who perpetually have to deal with databases getting our names wrong and refusing to fix it even beyond the logistical nightmare of legal name changes, see for instance every website tracking game developers miscrediting everything I've done with nazi disinfo rather than how my name has always appeared in the credits).

Setting aside the 'nazi' bit (because of course, every nazi's to do list consists of '1. invade Poland; 2. gas the Jews; 3. edit obscure website to change even more obscure author's name on brain-meltingly obscure game'), is this another admission that Violet Hargrave is indeed Jake Alley? Since he ties these sites acknowledging his name change and collating his work under both names to dead naming trans people.

That 'Seven Years Under A Bus' 'shng really shows how much worse he's getting. He's clearly not interacting with real people and just spiralling off into unhinged fantasies and adolescent bitterness. It would really be the best thing that could happen for him if he had to give up his flat and go back home and have some forced social interaction with people who aren't just discord usernames. Shit for Rachel though.
 
It would really be the best thing that could happen for him if he had to give up his flat and go back home and have some forced social interaction with people who aren't just discord usernames.
"Forced social interaction"? The past decade (if not the past 40 years) indicates that forced anything is not in the cards at Chez Mom. I mean, even when he was forced to move out, she still literally brought him tendies.

I'm still curious what the situation is between Jake and his mother. On the one hand she apparently changed the locks after he left... on the other hand, tendies.
 
is this another admission that Violet Hargrave is indeed Jake Alley? Since he ties these sites acknowledging his name change and collating his work under both names to dead naming trans people.
Jake frequently implicitly confirms his dox by saying things like this. The one thing he never does, of course, is say which works he's done are being listed under the wrong name. He never tries to correct the record specifically, because that would mean people could see that he has, in fact, been doxed all along and lying about it. His vagueness also has the side-benefit of letting him insinuate that he's a much bigger deal in the game designing world than he actually is. Because if you look at Jake's list of credits - which you actually can do because we all know that Violet Cassandra Ocean is Violet Hargrave is Jake Alley - you'll see how he's trying to tout himself as some Big Name Designer based off of poorly written page-length (at best) contributions to generic splatbooks that no-one cares about.

I mean, fuck, Dave Hill is also a reprehensible troon, but even he has actual credits.

I'm still curious what the situation is between Jake and his mother. On the one hand she apparently changed the locks after he left... on the other hand, tendies.
Like above, the thing is that Jake exaggerates everything. Absolutely everything. So while I would hope his mother changed the locks, unless we get a source on it other than Jake the idea that the woman who let Jake grow into, well, Jake, the woman who appears on his streams bringing him meals, who very probably pays for his apartment and along with other family members subsidises his life, would change the locks seems far-fetched.

It's infinitely more likely she metaphorically changed the locks by not letting Jake waddle back home whenever he wants, and that's become literal in Jake's recounting because, again, there has never been a molehill Jake hasn't turned into Mt. Everest.
 
It's infinitely more likely she metaphorically changed the locks by not letting Jake waddle back home whenever he wants
From the Discord leaks he does tell a specific story of being locked out with specific consequences though:
Violet 'Mommy Milky' Cassandra Ocean said:
oh yeah, cats get all freaked out when other cats come back after a while smelling like the vet
which is also the excuse my mother is currently using to... intercept and abduct one of my cats on his discharge from the vet
but again, being a scent thing, they should be fine after she's been home long enough to smell familiar again
that's a very good question at this point
it's been 2 months of her saying "oh well I just have him here for a little bit before his followup" and she recently slipped up and told me how perfectly healthy he is
but... the LAST time he had to go to the vet and she pulled this same stunt, she changed the locks so I couldn't just show up and take him back, so... it's a thing.
yeah have I mentioned that my mother is a horrible person?

The hole in this story, of course, being the idea that Jake could "just show up" somewhere. What, was he taking a medcab back to Niantic to pick up the cat?
While this story clearly deserves a big ol' grain of salt, it does have somewhat more of the ring of truth than his usual yarns.
 
From the Discord leaks he does tell a specific story of being locked out with specific consequences though:


The hole in this story, of course, being the idea that Jake could "just show up" somewhere. What, was he taking a medcab back to Niantic to pick up the cat?
While this story clearly deserves a big ol' grain of salt, it does have somewhat more of the ring of truth than his usual yarns.
To me, the only ring of truth is that his mother would take back one of the cats, but Jake thinks of them as his so HOW DARE SHE. It's Jake, the man who can turn a five minute wait for a cab into an hours-long ordeal of being abandoned, on purpose, in the rain. As you say, how would he get back to Niantic to get the cat? Chances are he didn't even try to go there, he just wanted the cat back and his mother didn't immediately give in to his demands.

At the end of the day, while Jake is one of those liars who bases everything on a nub of truth, in his case the distance between reality and his retelling is just such a vast gulf. This is especially true when it comes to his interactions with other people, where the world is full of evil Nazi monsters that want him dead and he's the helpless, perfect victim who never ever does anything to deserve it. I'd love it if his mother changed the locks on him, but Jake's saying it, so it's bullshit unless any evidence is proven otherwise.

Really, our secret Nazi locksmiths have been lax on reporting back after their jobs around Connecticut. I guess they're too busy trying to rape and murder Violet to tell us anything.
 
Why? Why would they do that? How does that even make sense?
He claims one of his duties with CON was to document and archive the presence of illegal content on 8chan, so by his own account he was sifting through the gore threads looking for CP to save.

Please don't compare Jake's Googleshnging to anything Burroughs ever did.
At least Burroughs was interesting.
I think the point is not that Jake himself is a creative genius, but rather he fits into the fascinating tradition of people inadvertently embodying, through their sincere actions and beliefs, the kind of social critique a real artist might make.

Take Francis E. Dec, you probably all know him; a schizophrenic who mailed letters to random addresses detailing how the secret communist world government had downloaded everyone's souls into a facility on the dark side of the moon and was having each person remote control their body through FRANKENSTEIN RADIO CONTROLS which could be manipulated completely by the gangster communist world government without the person even knowing, so that everyone but Dec (his pure polish heritage rendered him immune) was a perfectly subjugated slave experiencing a fake life. The context for comparison is that until Dec was identified, it was widely believed that he was a writer of "paranoid fiction", a genre in which the perspective of the reader into the narrative is made intentionally delusive and surreal, and that his odd method of distribution was merely to reinforce the themes of his work.

Paranoid fiction was undergoing something of a renaissance at the time and it was specifically popular in a number of mail clubs and write-in magazines distributed in Dec's area so this wasn't a ridiculous idea. Dec's "work" clearly spoke to (and likely was extrapolated from) a common social anxiety of other people lacking agency, being slaves to a set of ideas and impulses you don't understand, and had it really been fiction it would have been a powerful example of it. Aren't we all a little afraid that our neighbours would happily play maypole with our entrails if sufficiently propagandized to the belief that it was the right thing to do? Aren't we all a little afraid that whatever it is that made everyone else so fucking soulless will one day come for us? It's a theme that writers still play with to this day and the fact that Dec was living it made his cries for help all the more gripping.

By the same token Jake's endless, mechanical repetition of a handful of other people's thoughts, mixed around with the same 5 stories in a structure that superficially resembles proper grammar and syntax but with the same strange mistakes puts me in mind of a different theme. Per Cryo's observation, Jake speaks almost exclusively in a set of clichés regurgitated from other people's twitter conversations. Any time it seems like he's had an original thought, you can dig back to a tweet or a discord message or a CON log or a fucking webcomic that you can prove he has viewed to discover he's just repeating something somebody else said. Even stories Jake tells about himself bear uncanny resemblances to stories we know other people have told him.

Now Jake displays some originality. Even if he is impressionable, he certainly interprets what he hears, considers it, digests it to the point that what he repeats is steeped in his own perspective, born unmistakeably from his own person. This capability however is within the reach of modern chatbots. You may be in mind of those crudities you can still find on old novelty sites which can carry a conversation for a minute before they devolve into shouting gibberish or stubbornly giving the same answer no matter what you say, but even in their day those weren't the bleeding edge, and technology has come a long way since then. Using black-box neural networks AI have been trained which are capable of "speaking" at length, on topic, in a clear and seemingly thoughtful way about a broad range of subjects. It's a popular metacommentary these days to post an essay about AI and at the end of the text reveal it was written by AI. I've been fooled more than once.

Bearing that in mind: what's the difference between Jake and a chatbot? We know there is one. We know with a reasonable degree of certainty that a machine which mimics speech isn't sentient. We also know with a reasonable degree of certainty that Jake is a human man living in connecticut. But bearing in mind that a "black box" AI is one where we don't know why it does the things it does and we are similarly incapable of examining the internal workings of Jake's mind, what's the difference from the perspective of an observer? The fact that Jake can (barely) walk and sometimes he responds to a stimulus that physically happened to him in the real world rather than through the internet? In the same way Dec evoked a real fear, the mere existence of a man like Jake triggers in me a form of existential anxiety. Certainly this post could have been written by any one of thousands self-important nobodies whose life experience, whose set of input stimuli, sufficiently mirrors my own and none of you would know the difference. Certainly this post could have been written by a sufficiently trained neural net and none of you would know the difference. Instead of Dec's omnipotent force coming to take your individuality, Jake's life begs the question, is there anything to take?

But Jake definitely is a man, and therein lies the fear. Whatever spark of the divine makes us real, all jokes aside, it's the same one Jake has. To paraphrase a modern writer of paranoid fiction, one day soon someone is going to figure out how to put one of these new chatbots in a boston dynamics robot and its schizoid dream ramblings are going to have physical and perceptual form, and then we'll see how big your soul really is.
Or as a previous poster managed to effortlessly sum up:
"Are those my thought or am I just a idea-repeater?"
That I can't answer.
 
Jake also raged about shoeonhead again because of two week old tweets he saw, while proclaiming "Nazi's aren't people" and whining how he's "actively" having "PTSD flashbacks" on the worst of all possible days:
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He also mentions that the best way to prove you're not a nazi is to apologize personally to Violet Cassandra Ocean for having been a nazi.
 
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