Queen of Moderation
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- Jun 2, 2018
I agree that in the beginning, she liked the idea of being edgy. A bad girl. Now, I'm not so sure. Also, I have my doubts that she is only using cocaine, even if she thinks she is. It's almost a guarantee that it's cut with another more addictive substance such as meth or fentanyl. It might even be straight low quality meth. She wouldn't know the difference nor would she care.I think she likes the idea of being an addict. She doesn’t talk like an addict, but the way she thinks they should sound. People who are in deep don’t want to talk about it because of the intense shame that they feel, and that perpetuates them to use again to not feel it, or to forget about the dumpster fire their life is and those they hurt because of it.
I disagree with the second half of your statement. Chantal has no shame. She has demonstrated this over and over again. Farting, sharting, ass to mouth with her fingers, picking her nose, and airing out her entire shameful existence. Attention and hedonism supersedes any feelings of shame or even regret.
Look at her house. It's filthy. Most "normal" people who are going through something and their house becomes a casualty of their mentals (or physicals) would be deeply ashamed of the mess. They wouldn't set up a camera to show months old poutine in their bedroom, varieties of pizza boxes and other festering food containers. They wouldn't show everyone a fecal swab casually laying about in the kitchen.
Her eating is the same way. Most people with binge eating or disordered eating hide what they really eat because it's shameful. Chinny puts it on display and monetizes it. She shows herself being an absolute gluttonous hog every chance she gets. She has no shame.
Chinny got into the drugs for ATTENTION. The same reason she does all of her other shameful activities in a very public setting. The attention is her real dopamine rush. The other "addictions" and behaviors are just means to an end .
She's continuing to do drugs to try and keep King Tut. Only, unlike food, or shopping, what she's taking now is actually chemically and physiologically addicting. I think she is at the do or die fork in the road. Either get her shit together and stop the nonsense or spiral into full blown addiction. We know which road she'll take.
One more sperg- I have no doubt that she is giving her patent bullshit pitch to Nader right now. The one where she promises to cook, clean, chauffeur, and be a sugar mamma with the rent and drugs. There is a good chance that Nader might go with it. Just remember, they are both cut from the same cloth. Both craven liars who look out for their own interests first and foremost. That's never good. Entertaining, but not good.
Edit cuz words