Skitzocow Taxman / Kyle Hawkins

I'm having a hard time figuring if he wants friends or people to serve under him.
I think he sees them as one in the same. When people view friendship as a one way street they tend to be pretty alone. Toss that in with clear abuse of drugs and off setting rants, it's not much a shock his friend count is rather low.

He really needs to step away from the net. Wasting what little money he makes on hard assets because /pol/ told him the world was going to end. While I don't think this is a :ruse: it's almost like Jace, with his fears.

@Anal Beads I agree but I think his family is avoiding him and it seems a common trend in cows a messed up family unit. Tax is clearly dealing with one in some way as they aren't setting hard lines for him or rules just off to do his thing as long as he's not too much a hassle it seems.
 
I should mention a conversation I had with him Monday night. In it, he said that even Curio doesn't want him to do datura, as it's "toxic and evil" (If a psychotic voice in your head is telling you not to do something, you shouldn't do it.). He also mentioned cooking for his family on Labor Day, a sign that he possibly has some filter in public but likely unleashes it in private. I also managed to hear about his supplier (Who is essentially some small-time Brazilian hustler.). But if Tax's hallucination can't convince him, I'm pretty sure nothing can.
 
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The Oddball from MLW said:
I should mention a conversation I had with him Monday night. In it, he said that even Curio doesn't want him to do datura, as it's "toxic and evil" (If a psychotic voice in your head is telling you not to do something, you shouldn't do it.). He also mentioned cooking for his family on Labor Day, a sign that he possibly has some filter in public but likely unleashes it in private. I also managed to hear about his supplier (Who is essentially some small-time Brazilian hustler.). But if Tax's hallucination can't convince him, I'm pretty sure nothing can.
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thats like next level schizo shit. the voices in his head are actually trying to help him and hes battling against them just so he can hang out with said voices
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Just finished reading through this thread. I fucking love this guy, he's absolutely bonkers.

And guys he'd be this nuts with or without this thread so don't feel too bad about observing and commenting. If he wanted help he would of gotten it by now.
 
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Well, his sanity has been long gone now if even the voices in his head are telling him not to do whatever that messed up drug is (Jimson's Weed you guys called it?). He's freaking out in the newest video about "the evil wizards and NSA and New World Order" and about how he has a curse on him. He's long gone, jeez, I feel bad, but you can't reason with someone who is suspicious of everything, because then he will just think you are one of his imaginary enemies. Really sad.
 
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AhoyFancyPants said:
The thing is if you think you're crazy you're not. I'm not sure he fully grasps just how off the deep end this all is. Why get help when you don't understand you have a problem? I mean I'm sure he realizes something is askew but clearly not the way someone with an outside perspective would. It's all just really sad.

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A requirement that cannot be met until a prerequisite requirement is met, however, the prerequisite cannot be obtained until the original requirement is met.
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Yeah I get that. I meant more about his substance abuse before he completely fried his brain. Now he probably needs to be involuntarily committed, but before this he probably had a support system seeing as people are still sticking by him now.

No matter the case it isn't our problem and there's nothing we can do, eespecially by now.
 
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This is just harrowing to watch. I can just sense his fear seething from every word he says. It permeates him. Consumes him. It's all building up to a terrible climax, where the fear he harbors will literally kill him. He knows he needs help - he pleads for it each time he speaks to the camera - but he doesn't know that the only person who can help him is himself. And, now... as he continues to reach out to others, continues to plead with the impossible to lift him from his pit of misery, give him the 'new position he deserves,' 'recognize his genius,' and so on, it's far from likely that he'll ever see that truth he so desperately needs.

"Alone. Yes, that's the key word, the most awful word in the English tongue. Murder doesn't hold a candle to it and hell is only a poor synonym." - Stephen King

We can see it in this man, loneliness personified. It's pretty scary.
 
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tehfolder said:
He got the Datura seeds...
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It always feels intensely depressing when he describes his literal self-created hell of paranoia and loneliness...then he launches into talking about the NSA wizards and warlocks and Illuminati preparing the orgy of Satanic bloodletting known as World War III, and it just turns absurdly funny.

Edit: "This cursed weed"
 
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Nah it's fucking funny.
No one should show sympathy towards bronies
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We're all human. I personally don't care if he's a brony, a basement-dwelling degenerate, or even a living shoe. He feels fear. I'm in no way defending the things he's done or said, but this man's plight is, no matter what way you look at it, a wonder to behold. He's so far gone from any place of reality that I see it as... scary. To think that a human, a man like you or me, could be in such a place makes one think.

...But we digress. I'm simply commenting on his latest video with my thoughts and feelings.
 
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At this point he's basically a hallucinogen junkie who is more addicted to his fantasy world than to reality. It's fairly understandable, really. He has allowed things to progress to the point where his madness is more internally palatable than sanity. I'm no psychologist, but I'd say that nothing short of a massive system shock (like, say, OD'ing on Datura and getting rushed to IC) will jog him out of his loop. This kind of person doesn't so much need help as need a reason to view 'real life' as in any way a better alternative than the insane fantasy he has diligently created for himself using every means at his disposal.

Really, there are tens of thousands of Taxman's out there. Most of them are just content to rot in a trailer park or in a freight wagon.
 
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