How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

Helvítis Túristi said:
Nothing wrong with bitter, it is one of the five flavors our taste buds can recognize. Just don't try to stay too bitter, let some sweetness flow in okei?
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thanks yeah i will...just dealing with a of bull shit right now. Records dept denied my request for a certified birth certificate cause my id was expired But i NEED that certified copy to get my id renewed in the first place. It's and oxymoron curtesy of the system. so yeah that's just one thing,a lot of details over vital records and stuff i ether need to get renewed or new copies of, and the red tape bureaucracy is a fucking nightmare to navigate.
 
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Helvítis Túristi said:
What games are you looking forward for VR? Personally, no amount of VR will replace real life. Video games will always remain a simulation of real life, never truly grasping the spark of life that exists.

For how I'm feeling. For whatever reason, I felt the urge to drink cream soda, vanilla ice cream, and rum mixed together. I felt that would be too unhealthy so I drank something else. I drank too much and recognize the depression stage, so I'll try to watch something positive before bed.
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I just want to play vr horror games. I want the scares.
 
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Had to make an emergency run to the vet. I'm broke again, courtesy of me being a lifelong compulsive spender and from a couple of large necessary purchases I had to make this week, so I had to talk the vet into extending me some credit, which has been a deserved blow to the ego. One of my ratties isn't looking good, and going off her past history and current symptoms, she may have a brain tumour. I suspect she's had a reasonably long life but I'm not sure; I have a bad habit of collecting secondhand rats (I can't stand to see a girl without a home) and I'm not even her second servant, I'm her third. I've had her for nearly two years, which is roughly the average lifespan of a rat, but I have absolutely no idea how old she was when I got her and her two companions/sisters. They may even be as much as three years old for all I know. The vet's given me antibiotics and steroids, but I've been keeping rats for many years and I suspect that these are going to be palliative medications for a very sick little girl. It all makes for a very depressing evening.

In housemate drama update, male housemate is talking about him and I leaving the house when the lease is up and finding a two bedroom place together. It's... not a bad idea? A smaller place means less to clean. Updated kitchen and bathroom would be nice. It'd put an end to the ceaseless searching and uncertainty of trying to find compatible third and fourth housemates for this place. Current third housemate keeps having goes at male housemate over everything, throwing tantrums over nothing, and is overall a thoroughly unpleasant person to be around. I am seriously contemplating just giving her her two weeks notice and taking the extra rent on the chin.
 
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Masks are required at work again. Apparently it'll last through September until further notice, after that, those who aren't vaccinated or who already didn't test positive in the past will be the only ones who need to wear a mask.

I'm not happy about that, but at the very least, I've accepted God into my life. Making silent prayers to help me get through the day.
 
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Just got home from seeing a place 2 towns over. It'll be a bit farther from work but the rent is cheap, the place is nice and the location is fantastic. I'll need a day or two picking other people's brains about it, but I think this is the one! I'll finally be out of the shit hole I'm at now and won't ever have to deal with my garbage fucking room mate again come October 1st.
 
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Same 9-5 grind that's been driving me into the ground for years. Tomorrow I'm on site at one of our new offices carrying out safety assessments. Same shit on Friday. Then I look forward to the whole of next week off. Holidays are always the same though. Two days in; feels like heaven. Towards the end of the week, seething at literally everything I avoid on a weekly basis, wishing I never booked the fucking time off to begin with.
 
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Having a bad trip after taking a 10mg THC edible. I think I'm going through "ego death" as they say. Just doing down various deep trains of thought on how I am a toxic and defective person, how I never do things for people out of kindness, I don't contribute to people's happiness, I am parasitic and I'm driving people away. I project my own insecurities onto everyone around me. I criticized my parents unfairly for the way they raised me, meanwhile they loved me unconditionally and gave me everything.. they didn't deserve to end up with this emotionally distant, hypercritical, selfish kid. I can't die yet because I need to make things right with everyone. I need to spread love and serve others and be kind. I am completely alone in my apartment and just sort of crying and thinking of all the ways I've failed people. And I can't call anyone because I'd be waking them up (it's like 2:30am) and adding to their stress and being even more of a drain. Hopefully I will feel better in the morning and go to sleep. Ruminating on certain life events has distracted me from the more important issues in my life.
 
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Having a bad trip after taking a 10mg THC edible. I think I'm going through "ego death" as they say. Just doing down various deep trains of thought on how I am a toxic
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Kinda like reading about myself, expect I'm the opposite. I'm not sorry, at all *yawn*
Don't really think you need to be sad about it, because those who are kind to everyone around them. Is usually those who live the most shitty life. Because people don't appreciate it and are shitty regardless.
 
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