How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Vibromatic Heart Bed]

Kinda like reading about myself, expect I'm the opposite. I'm not sorry, at all
Don't really think you need to be sad about it, because those who are kind to everyone around them. Is usually those who live the most shitty life. Because people don't appreciate it and are shitty regardless.

Other people being shitty doesn't have to be your problem though. You can still rise above and be kind. I've been depressed pretty much my entire adult life, convinced that I was a victim of narcissistic abuse. But I was the perpetrator in so many of my relationships failing. I've never felt physical shame in my chest, until this experience. It's time to take responsibility for my selfish actions, my negative view of the world. be an actual source of goodness and make people happy to be around me. I think this new way of interacting with the world will make me happier too. I actually feel motivated to look into therapy. Maybe you should consider taking a trip? I mean it was a devastating experience and I was totally unprepared for it (i literally just wanted to get high and watch funny youtube videos) but also may have just cured my narcissism and misanthropy???

 

[Vingle]

Other people being shitty doesn't have to be your problem though. You can still rise above and be kind. I've been depressed pretty much my entire adult life, convinced that I was a victim of narcissistic abuse. But I was the perpetrator in so many of my relationships failing. I've never felt physical shame in my chest, until this experience. It's time to take responsibility for my selfish actions, my negative view of the world. be an actual source of goodness and make people happy to be around me. I think this new way of interacting with the world will make me happier too. I actually feel motivated to look into therapy. Maybe you should consider taking a trip? I mean it was a devastating experience and I was totally unprepared for it (i literally just wanted to get high and watch funny youtube videos) but also may have just cured my narcissism and misanthropy???

I see your point, and being nice is fine and dandy. There’s just no point to it. Don’t go out of your way to be cruel with people, but it’s much better to be in the shadows and looking over.

Can’t take anything, because it’s not legal in my country. People do take it here,but I don’t have any shady friends.

 

[Sped Xing]

I see your point, and being nice is fine and dandy. There’s just no point to it. Don’t go out of your way to be cruel with people, but it’s much better to be in the shadows and looking over.

Can’t take anything, because it’s not legal in my country. People do take it here,but I don’t have any shady friends.

Take something? I'd like to take a moment, just sit right there. I'll tell you how I became-- a better person.

 

[Catman from cat town]

This week has been challenging but I’m dealing with it really well.

 

[Drkinferno72]

Well

I was born with glass bones and paper skin. Every morning, I break my legs, and every afternoon, I break my arms. At night, I lie awake in agony until my heart attacks put me to sleep.​

 

[Meat Target]

I'm 2 or 3 glasses of wine deep, sitting on my porch during a severe thunderstorm, enjoying the lightning show.

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

Dad keeps mentioning declawing Max. I don't think he will, but also he could. He won't listen to me that it's a shit thing to do

 

[FarmerKhourtney]

I tried to keep busier today. It helps with the awful sense of dread I have all the time now

my cat is coming to sit with me and that’s always nice. She’s somewhat aloof a lot of the time. I was spoiled by having big and dumb friendly cats for years

 

[Dysnomia]

I don't think I can avoid knee surgery. The doctor says the cartilage is wearing away because the groove my kneecap fits into is too shallow. I knew for a long time that my knees were deformed. But I didn't know it was as bad as this. II can feel it wearing away. I can feel it grind. I'm in my third month of therapy and now it's for both knees. My left is apparently in the same boat but just not bad yet. But since I use it as one and a half legs it's getting very tired. It's stiff and swells and just looks weird.

I wish there was some alternative. But I went through this before with other doctors and they all said the same thing.

I'm not really prepared for surgery. I don't live in an environment where I want to recover from surgery. And no one's going to help me much. I now realise I should have gotten this done years ago instead of opting for more therapy. That way things would have gone better. But it didn't bother me much for a decade after the therapy so I didn't really think it was a major issue anymore. And how was I supposed to know my life would change this much?

Then two years ago a lot of swelling started and stairs became difficult. I started falling and losing my balance. I was planning on getting the scar tissue on my left calf looked at. It's getting bigger and something is going on in there. Another doctor thought I should see a vascular surgeon. Damn. One leg at a time I guess.

If I get this surgery it's eight weeks recovery, I'll have screws in bone and I will need even more therapy. Everyone is telling me to get it but they aren't the ones who have to deal with it. I had arthroscopy on my knee when I was 18. I have a history of waking up while under anesthesia. It's already happened twice. The second time attempts to put me back under failed repeatedly. I do not want to wake up while they are cutting bone.

 

[Cheesegirl78]

I am a grandma for the seventh time.

Oldest cheeselet and his wife had a baby boy about 25 minutes ago. Grandcheeselet is healthy and has all ten fingers and toes.

 

[awoo]

I don't think I can avoid knee surgery. The doctor says the cartilage is wearing away because the groove my kneecap fits into is too shallow. I knew for a long time that my knees were deformed. But I didn't know it was as bad as this. II can feel it wearing away. I can feel it grind. I'm in my third month of therapy and now it's for both knees. My left is apparently in the same boat but just not bad yet. But since I use it as one and a half legs it's getting very tired. It's stiff and swells and just looks weird.

I wish there was some alternative. But I went through this before with other doctors and they all said the same thing.

I'm not really prepared for surgery. I don't live in an environment where I want to recover from surgery. And no one's going to help me much. I now realise I should have gotten this done years ago instead of opting for more therapy. That way things would have gone better. But it didn't bother me much for a decade after the therapy so I didn't really think it was a major issue anymore. And how was I supposed to know my life would change this much?

Then two years ago a lot of swelling started and stairs became difficult. I started falling and losing my balance. I was planning on getting the scar tissue on my left calf looked at. It's getting bigger and something is going on in there. Another doctor thought I should see a vascular surgeon. Damn. One leg at a time I guess.

If I get this surgery it's eight weeks recovery, I'll have screws in bone and I will need even more therapy. Everyone is telling me to get it but they aren't the ones who have to deal with it. I had arthroscopy on my knee when I was 18. I have a history of waking up while under anesthesia. It's already happened twice. The second time attempts to put me back under failed repeatedly. I do not want to wake up while they are cutting bone.

Wow, I didn't even know it was possible to wake up under anesthesia. I mean I knew it was possible but I thought it was really rare. Maybe tell your surgeons to give you a heavier dose of anesthesia.

 

[Sped Xing]

Dad keeps mentioning declawing Max. I don't think he will, but also he could. He won't listen to me that it's a shit thing to do

One of my cats has a deformed paw. I took her in to get that one declawed, as they were growing very long and worrisome, and the little cunt at the front desk wrote her down to have her front paws declawed, instead. I have always felt like shit about that, though I take solace that little miss bitchface got fired.

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

One of my cats has a deformed paw. I took her in to get that one declawed, as they were growing very long and worrisome, and the little cunt at the front desk wrote her down to have her front paws declawed, instead. I have always felt like shit about that, though I take solace that little miss bitchface got fired.

I'm awful sorry about that. I hope despite that the poor kitty is having a good life.

 

[JustSomeDong]

One of my cats has a deformed paw. I took her in to get that one declawed, as they were growing very long and worrisome, and the little cunt at the front desk wrote her down to have her front paws declawed, instead. I have always felt like shit about that, though I take solace that little miss bitchface got fired.

I'm always horrified by stories like this. One of my cousins is a vet tech and I've heard a few. My vet is just an old guy and his daughter, and they are the best. No obnoxious, uncaring, young bitches staffing phones and fucking shit up. I just wish I'd found him sooner, like before my last dog got cancer. The vet I went to then was the kind of place I think stuff like what happened to your poor kitty would happen with some regularity.

 

[Vingle]

Dad keeps mentioning declawing Max. I don't think he will, but also he could. He won't listen to me that it's a shit thing to do

It's better to just get the cat put down then, because it will have behavioural problems for life. Aggressive and shit. It's not just shitty, it's straight up cruelty.
Isn't it illegal in your country? Or is this some sort of Murica thing?

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

It's better to just get the cat put down then, because it will have behavioural problems for life. Aggressive and shit. It's not just shitty, it's straight up cruelty.
Isn't it illegal in your country? Or is this some sort of Murica thing?

It's a murica thing. Like I said, I don't think he will, but I'm more annoyed that he'd think about it over a three month old kitten being well, a kitten. Yea he's causing trouble and thinks anything that moves is a toy, but he's still a baby, and he'll probably calm down once he gets fixed (we don't need him peeing on things. We live in a townhouse and our old man cat Wallop already deals with enough shit from Max)
Its just, he's a baby! He's going to be a little shit for a while

 

[Vingle]

thinks anything that moves is a toy, but he's still a baby

Do you got a cat tree? He can't complain on stuff being played with, if you don't have dedicated toys for the cat.

he'll probably calm down once he gets fixed (we don't need him peeing on things. We live in a townhouse and our old man cat Wallop already deals with enough shit from Max)

If Wallop if fixed, Max will likely mellow down to that level too. It's a reason for why it's recommended to have different diet for spayed cats, because they get fat on normal diet.

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

Do you got a cat tree? He can't complain on stuff being played with, if you don't have dedicated toys for the cat.

If Wallop if fixed, Max will likely mellow down to that level too. It's a reason for why it's recommended to have different diet for spayed cats, because they get fat on normal diet.

No cat tree, but plenty of toys. For some reason decent cat trees are expensive as hell. I don't want the boys having one that could break or whatever.

Yes, he is. Was when we got him.
I'll keep that in mind, though Wallop is in pretty decent shape, though he has that little pouch thing that fixed cats get if I remember right.

 

[Sperghetti]

I occasionally go through periods of time where I'll be really into one of my hobbies for some reason, and I'll always be super excited to go spend time on it. I'm kind of between those right now and it's driving me nuts. I want to be excited about something, damn it! I don't like this weird sense of "yeah, sure, that might be okay" ennui.

The worst part is that I know there's so much out to read and watch, but I'm always hesitant about getting too invested in stories because the only thing worse than being bored is being disappointed, and I am nearly always disappointed. I feel like I need some entertainment that is guaranteed to be fun, but low risk. God help me, I might actually start watching slice-of-life anime.

 

[Inflatable Julay]

Woke up to the news that my cousin was stabbed to death on our family farm and his wife is in the hospital. Who knows what happened. Seeing police tape around the place made me want to puke. I get to take care of their dog though.