- Joined
- Jul 31, 2020
I know exactly how you feel. At this point I am only following her because I am anticipating something wild happening and causing her to realize how vile she has become and to understand that her entire life is meaningless and vapid. To realize how Dom really sees her and how 99% of the population sees/would see her.Jesus fucking CHRIST! I am at work so can't watch, but there has to be an end to this. Right? I mean, there is no way she can continue this meaningless, flaccid, hollow, utterly endless purgatory--no, straight-up hell--of an existence. Livestream after livestream, hour after hour, week after week, in which she does the same shit, which amounts to absolutely nothing. GRWM. Eating. The llama. Being high. Maybe some Guntio Kart, which looks like a child's cartoon. Rinse. Repeat. Ad nauseum. Ad infinitum. No friends. No family. No hobbies. No job. No nothing.
How can someone...do this, week after month after year? It calls to mind how Manson stabber Susan Atkins was once described during the trials: "I get the feeling that one day she's going to start screaming...and will simply never stop." Except even ol' Sadie Mae Glutz had a life, and was self-aware enough to sorrowfully reflect on her egregious behaviour for decades afterwards. And she was a kid, only 21, strung out on drugs and immersed in a violent cult.
Chantal, at nearly 38, has been doing this for years. YEARS! And there is no indication she is unhappy or wants anything more. She has carved out her ideal, idyllic existence, and that is far more haunting, more terrifying, than any fucking murderous hippie. I can't believe this is how someone chooses to "live." She really is a human monster. Will she PLEASE badly injure herself or something? Can Shannon stage a B & E where the intruder trusses Chantal up like a turkey? This can't go on for much longer!
I cannot look away, even though we've been stuck in this putrid, stinking, disgusting rut for months now. The rut of eye-fucking, lying, manipulation, flashing, and self-absorption. The slurring, munching, tee-heeing retardation rut. It's like when the ballgame has gone 7 innings and the score is 10-2 and you change the channel because it's hopeless and a couple of guys get up and hit grand slams. I don't want to miss it.
I know I deserve some rainbows here. She will never "get" it, will she? She will live in her delusion and her family will bail her out of trouble and Peetz will always be there to service her.
And I will be MATI...