I'm still new here but the reason why is I've always lurked no matter where I went. Back when the Internet was more fun and free I lurked because I was retarded, made a fool of myself everywhere I went and while I made a fair few friends in online gaming I mostly kept to myself. By the time the Internet was on its downfall to where we are now I always tried posting in places here and there, and I felt like I was making a fool of myself all the same. But no, during those many years of lurking the entire Internet I did actually come into my own, it's just that tech oligarchs, communities like reddit, autists and jannies took over and I couldn't relate to any of it.
I found Kiwifarms when I got into Chris Chan a long time ago but basically just lurked on the Chris board for the most part rarely branching out. Then "Doreen" went onto FOX News, and I saw it; these are the people making the Internet what it is now, I followed the drama here and saw Bardfinn, the Twitter jannies all of it, and it was here I finally found what was bothering so much. The more I read Kiwifarms the more it felt everything in our world was turned on its head unapolagetically. But that didn't matter, everybody was having fun, refraining from being MATI about it all and just having a fucking good time.
When the drama happened with CloudFlare I also thought all the posters that I came to enjoy reading their posts everyday would disappear, but they didn't. When Elliot-Fong-Dong-Gone seemed to get his way unconditionally like an unchained Winnie the Pooh I thought it'd be over, it sounded like Null was giving up because we had no options left especially when we just came back up and half the Internet was blocking us. This day could have been the release of the Kiwifarms torrent, but it wasn't. Somehow Null found the cool to keep going every single day and somehow we fucking made it. I'm not sure how long left we will have but I hope it goes on with the same vigor for as many days as we possibly can. I will be there, I will contribute and even if I make a fucking fool of myself again I'll eat the puzzle pieces. learn from it and keep being here. I'm not going to go back to being too apprehensive to say what I want online, and I certainly will never silence myself because my existence makes monsters who want way too much control of the Internet uncomfortable.
I love you all, see you around just as always.
