a mile wide and an inch deep pool of knowledge

[le fishe]

I am a terrible writer, so i don't know how exactly to write what i want to say in a good way, but i will try.

Essentially, my capablility for learning tends to led me to learn from a wide array of things, but with no depth to it. If i learn about chemistry, it will be nothing more than the most simplistic surface knowledge like shells and such. The thing that bothers me is that i think this is caused by a pre set mind value, for lack of better word. my mind is this close to being able to learn more, i hope. it feels that way sometimes. i spontaniously feel a willingness and a capability to learn complex and complicated things and this just dissapears when i need it. not to mention my terrible memory.

I never cared about this, and i mostly don't. But i want money and it's a hinderence. My parents have been whining in my ear about college, we visited it a few days ago and the lady there told me to fuck off. I wasn't happy about this so i sent a message to this college that they are a bunch of cucks and everyone there looks retarded and autistic. They are also claiming i sent a message threatening to bomb this college and apparently called the police over this (i will neither confirm nor deny sending any bomb threats). Primarily i did this because of some impulse, but now i think if the subconcious had anything to do with it it's because i didn't want to go to college and i don't want my parents yelling at me to go to it, and obviously it's off the table now.

My complaint is, ultimately, that inside this person i am now i am much smarter, have a much stronger capability for virtually everything i do. When i do IQ tests for example, i fail miserably because i can't see the patterns i need to see. But only when i put in the option that i just randomly select, and send it, only them does my mind does any work and figure it out, all without me trying. This process is in my mind, it just only works when it is too late. There is no dedication in my life, i have no ambitions. i just don't care about anything i do or where my life is going. Infact i am only posting this because i have nothing else to say or do, i've been reading lots here so i might as well contribute some bullshit for you to laugh at.

As for what i will do now in life i don't know and i do not care, i have no plan set up. i'll spend it on here.

Well there was good news. i got 3 english degrees in the post from a school i have never even heard of. maybe it had something to do with these alledged "bomb threats".

I don't know why i am posting this or why i made it but i've written it now so i might as well.

 

[Justtocheck]

Hey, it's a self-defeating myth that we have to be someone important. Think of writers such as Freud, Borges, Kirkegaard. They weren't through their life extremely important people. Most of the time they just did their thing. Imagine how miserable they would be if every waking moment they'd self-flaggelate about "not arriving anywhere". Enjoy your time as best you can. Don't be cruel with yourself!

 

[SIGSEGV]

I really really really like this post.

 

[Get_your_kicks_with_30-06]

You had me there for a second until this "i sent a message to this college that they are a bunch of cucks and everyone there looks retarded and autistic. They are also claiming i sent a message threatening to bomb this college and apparently called the police over this". You're too much of a pussy to ever do something like this. And if you did well this post just proves it was projection.

 

[le fishe]

Hey, it's a self-defeating myth that we have to be someone important. Think of writers such as Freud, Borges, Kirkegaard. They weren't through their life extremely important people. Most of the time they just did their thing. Imagine how miserable they would be if every waking moment they'd self-flaggelate about "not arriving anywhere". Enjoy your time as best you can. Don't be cruel with yourself!

I don't aspire to be important, but it feels like there is another part of my eating at me for not knowing more because i feel like i could.

 

[Justtocheck]

I don't aspire to be important, but it feels like there is another part of my eating at me for not knowing more because i feel like i could.

That's just remnants of infantile personality. Well, I'm not one to talk, and rate me TMI if you wanna, but I have daily fantasies about stoping a mass shooter that had a go-pro with a tackle; thwarting his live-streaming massacre. Then I'd be famous and get on every podcast, and even give a shoutout to the farms, and start a go-fund me for mental health. At the end of the day, I know I'm just a retard and I just enjoy the small little things as best I can. An anime, coffee, good food, family, my health. Good things most take for granted while "trying" to achieve more and being miserable.

 

[SIGSEGV]

I too coasted through HS with little effort despite being in advanced/honors classes and received A's. I attended a great technical university (back in the early 90s as affirmative action was beginning to ramp up in earnest) for engineering and was caught a bit flat-footed sometimes as it required real efforts to get through (and the beer didn't help). After a few detours and gaining a bit of maturity, I completed my engineering degree and have been working the trade for 25 years. You typically need an IQ in the 120-130 range to be successful as an engineer or doctor. Being a standard deviation above that range, I can tell you that I run circles around my peers. So, for a 160+ IQ, being a doctor, lawyer, or engineer may be beneath your intellect. In hindsight, I should have strove to be a mathematician, physicist, or research scientist to better exploit my natural talents.

As a father with a high IQ wife with a bunch of smart kids, I can tell you that although the public education system makes some efforts to keep smarter kids engaged and challenged, they are certainly falling short. Comparing my experiences as a kid with those I see with my own kids, schools providing sufficient attention to high IQ kids has diminished a bit. My wife and I challenge our kids with physical and intellectual activities to keep them engaged. I agree with you that the mid-wits in charge of the education systems don't really know how to best cultivate geniuses. The nice thing about being a genius today, is that you do not have to depend on anyone in particular to gain knowledge and skills? I recently took on carpentry as a hobby.

Despite living in 98%-white semi-rural conservative county in the deep south, leftest propaganda does occasionally come home with my kids from school. My wife and I are quick to rectify our children's understanding and attitudes, and to keep our beliefs secret, as people are recording everything these days.

If you are fortunate to having been born with a 160+ IQ (as your stated percentile would indicate), then you have the gifts to accomplish virtually anything you heart desires. I have heard it said "Geniuses make their own rules." If you are a bored and unenthusiastic genius, then take-up a challenge and excel at it. Wrap a runway-model girlfriend around your finger (I knew a genius who did that), built a web site, invent something, start a genius "mad scientist" group, or do it all simultaneously. Slipping into a hell of degeneracy, likely so you can relate more easily with others, is easy to do--I've been there and done that. Pick a goal, or a dozen, and complete them. Pat yourself on the back or reward yourself with each completed goal. Then, in a few years look back on history that is now, and evaluate which is the better life to live. Do this, and I'll think you will want to thank me later.

 

[NOT Sword Fighter Super]

Lol, reminds me of when Maddox failed an interview at Huffington Post (which is really why he hates them) and his first impulse was to buy one of those custom awards that said "Biggest Dipshit" and send it to the interviewer.

 

[Tim Buckley]

Lol, reminds me of when Maddox failed an interview at Huffington Post (which is really why he hates them) and his first impulse was to buy one of those custom awards that said "Biggest Dipshit" and send it to the interviewer.

He just returned it because he's too much of a dipshit to even deserve that trophy.

 

[Exigent Circumcisions]

Pervitin? Pervitin... rings a bell, hold on;

I think we've cracked the code here.

 

[Foolish Samurai Warrior]

I too coasted through HS with little effort despite being in advanced/honors classes and received A's. I attended a great technical university (back in the early 90s as affirmative action was beginning to ramp up in earnest) for engineering and was caught a bit flat-footed sometimes as it required real efforts to get through (and the beer didn't help). After a few detours and gaining a bit of maturity, I completed my engineering degree and have been working the trade for 25 years. You typically need an IQ in the 120-130 range to be successful as an engineer or doctor. Being a standard deviation above that range, I can tell you that I run circles around my peers. So, for a 160+ IQ, being a doctor, lawyer, or engineer may be beneath your intellect. In hindsight, I should have strove to be a mathematician, physicist, or research scientist to better exploit my natural talents.

As a father with a high IQ wife with a bunch of smart kids, I can tell you that although the public education system makes some efforts to keep smarter kids engaged and challenged, they are certainly falling short. Comparing my experiences as a kid with those I see with my own kids, schools providing sufficient attention to high IQ kids has diminished a bit. My wife and I challenge our kids with physical and intellectual activities to keep them engaged. I agree with you that the mid-wits in charge of the education systems don't really know how to best cultivate geniuses. The nice thing about being a genius today, is that you do not have to depend on anyone in particular to gain knowledge and skills? I recently took on carpentry as a hobby.

Despite living in 98%-white semi-rural conservative county in the deep south, leftest propaganda does occasionally come home with my kids from school. My wife and I are quick to rectify our children's understanding and attitudes, and to keep our beliefs secret, as people are recording everything these days.

If you are fortunate to having been born with a 160+ IQ (as your stated percentile would indicate), then you have the gifts to accomplish virtually anything you heart desires. I have heard it said "Geniuses make their own rules." If you are a bored and unenthusiastic genius, then take-up a challenge and excel at it. Wrap a runway-model girlfriend around your finger (I knew a genius who did that), built a web site, invent something, start a genius "mad scientist" group, or do it all simultaneously. Slipping into a hell of degeneracy, likely so you can relate more easily with others, is easy to do--I've been there and done that. Pick a goal, or a dozen, and complete them. Pat yourself on the back or reward yourself with each completed goal. Then, in a few years look back on history that is now, and evaluate which is the better life to live. Do this, and I'll think you will want to thank me later.

Bro, you really are a chad.

 

[Wraith]

I'm not reading all this. But...
>There is no dedication in my life, i have no ambitions. i just don't care about anything i do or where my life is going.
Nothing pisses you off? Nothing makes you upset and you want to fix it? There, there's your direction.
Also you need Jesus and a bowl of spaghetti, in that order. Lots of sauce and meat to it too. Don't jew out on the sauce and meat else you'll end up with slop.
This made sense in my head at 3:40 in the morning.

 

[Curt Sibling]

Not everyone can be a leader.