"Taking medication is not the only way"
You're right Hamby, and yet, that's literally the only thing you do. You refuse to go to inpatient which is the only way you will get out of this. You can't fucking cure BED by just taking lexapro and seeing some hick councilor who isn't even an ED specialist, which I doubt you are even seeing anymore considering that according to you, your depression was so bad you didn't wash your hair for two months, and you don't have any reason to go out since restaurants are closed, so why would you even be motivated to go out to see a councilor? Or go out to get your lexapro prescription renewed?