- Joined
- Mar 15, 2019
If we’re speculating, I do think there’s a difference between executive dysfunction as a symptom of manic depression versus Amber’s lack of motivation or good will. Amber doesn’t necessarily have ill intentions for anyone, but she is extremely conceited and inconsiderate of anyone else, especially society in general. It doesn’t occur to her to align herself in a career that’s beneficial to others or go out of her way for anyone without ulterior motives. As one person she consumes and wastes more than an entire village and only cares about others’ perceptions in terms of control and attention. She has no goals for herself, no aspirations, only delusions—it’s easier to sit in bed and imagine yourself as the world’s most successful youtuber/writer/choreographer than it is to become one, and while the arduous path to success is rewarding to most, she has no incentive towards anything that isn’t instantaneous and effortless.I do believe that she is depressed and suffers from executive dysfunction - a disorder that makes even the smallest of tasks seem difficult and/or insurmountable - but I think her major problem is her size and overall lack of energy from both her weight and the ED.
She's mentioned in recent lives how immobile she is and how just going through all of her shit in preparation of the split has "built up her stamina". Becky mentioned they said at one point they'd make it a goal just to walk to the mailbox and back each day, but they never even did that. That's pretty telling. Granted, at an apartment complex with a communal mailbox area, that's probably a longer walk than what most people are imagining - walking down the driveway - but it's still very telling.
The amount of movement it would take just to move things around, get special dishes, set up the camera/lighting and a nice backdrop, would likely exhaust her before she even started filming.
Amberlynn does have some reasonable shit to be depressed about, don’t get me wrong, and she very likely does suffer some generic form of mental illness. But she’s fat because she’s a cunt, not because of bad wiring in her brain. She will only get fatter, and no one, not even Becky anymore, will have sex with her.