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i was actually thinking about this as well and its possible she actually saw herself as not only a man but also black. it sounds stupid but if some of the more mannish lesbians are anything to go by many of them tend to emulate men by acting black for some reason.Also, to address Audrey calling the kids "crackers" despite Audrey being a white, upper-middle-class graduate of that same school, I have a theory. I believe she convinced herself that the black girls from the basketball team were her only real friends (even though, based on what those girls & their families have said to the media since then, it seems rather parasocial and one-sided on her part). I believe she also convinced herself that all of the rich white people were unkind to her and that she did not fit in with them. It would line up with the motivations of previous school shooters, just with an anti-white twist.
so it could be a similar situation here but instead of just trying to act black to appear more manly the shooter actually believed they were black but trapped in a white persons body.
i could also see it being possible that like you mentioned she was just super parasocial towards the black girls on the basketball team and maybe was copying stuff they said to her which she took to heart and then being as crazy was she was decided to kill white kids because maybe then she would be accepted by the people who ignored her.