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- Aug 4, 2023
i took my drivers test and it was brutal
so backstory ive been learning to drive and today was finally the day except it went all wrong i practiced before but my mom was constantly screaming at me like evil had overcome her she was constantly saying STOP and BRAKES BRAKES BRAKES i became so anxious and angry i felt a wave of emotions driving and i started to be so angry i wanted to run over a mailbox but i refrained
so it started like this then i took the test i was shaking and scared from the previous practice so the lady who had blonde hair an older women said have you practiced driving me trying to be cool like eliot rodger said ye she said cool and marked something off her checklist then the leason started
first i drove by a pizza place i realized i ran a redlight FUCK i thought to myself she said its ok as she marked something off i drove around some more and i braked too hard slinging me foward i knew i had failed by then we drove around somemore but i knew i had failed instantly i felt like a massive failure like ive failed at life like i often feel sure enough
i failed fuck my mom was pissed and i did not know if i should cry or drive off a bridge i was feeling suicidal i was thinking of cutting myself i almost drove over a mailbox out of anger my mom said YOU FAILED ITS SO EASY IM GONNA HAVE A PANIC ATTACK and i said shutup this made her more mad i said whats the point of even driving if your not gonna let me drive anyway she drove me there btw then she said stop being a crybaby and let me drive
i was quitely angry but also started laughing indicating my mood swings im kinda like how my dad will get quitely pissed off but never indicate it intill my mom complains at him and points it out something i hate cause as i said i always feel guilty and my mom is sure to make herself the victim anytime i bring up any of my mental struggles like she can't have her son fail because its a reflection of herself
i never want to drive again this was a rollarcoster of emotions and i felt like a failure
thanks for reading
so backstory ive been learning to drive and today was finally the day except it went all wrong i practiced before but my mom was constantly screaming at me like evil had overcome her she was constantly saying STOP and BRAKES BRAKES BRAKES i became so anxious and angry i felt a wave of emotions driving and i started to be so angry i wanted to run over a mailbox but i refrained
so it started like this then i took the test i was shaking and scared from the previous practice so the lady who had blonde hair an older women said have you practiced driving me trying to be cool like eliot rodger said ye she said cool and marked something off her checklist then the leason started
first i drove by a pizza place i realized i ran a redlight FUCK i thought to myself she said its ok as she marked something off i drove around some more and i braked too hard slinging me foward i knew i had failed by then we drove around somemore but i knew i had failed instantly i felt like a massive failure like ive failed at life like i often feel sure enough
i failed fuck my mom was pissed and i did not know if i should cry or drive off a bridge i was feeling suicidal i was thinking of cutting myself i almost drove over a mailbox out of anger my mom said YOU FAILED ITS SO EASY IM GONNA HAVE A PANIC ATTACK and i said shutup this made her more mad i said whats the point of even driving if your not gonna let me drive anyway she drove me there btw then she said stop being a crybaby and let me drive
i was quitely angry but also started laughing indicating my mood swings im kinda like how my dad will get quitely pissed off but never indicate it intill my mom complains at him and points it out something i hate cause as i said i always feel guilty and my mom is sure to make herself the victim anytime i bring up any of my mental struggles like she can't have her son fail because its a reflection of herself
i never want to drive again this was a rollarcoster of emotions and i felt like a failure
thanks for reading
