There you go bitchez, here it is, didn't I tell you this guy's trying to be a leftwing Alex Jones, I immediately saw right through his faux-femme troon bullshit to see what was really driving him:
I grew up with my parents listening to Rush Limbaugh, every day. (...) And I grew up on these rightwing talkingpoints. And my dad got amped by those rightwing talkingpoint. A lot of people don't realize this but streaming is zoomer radio. It is just radio but in the future. That's it, it's almost the same thing. Now, of course, there's also visual. But radio, the thing that's different about radio and TV, is that live TV rarely had audience involvement. But live radio always has involvement. Because you could call in. Everybody has, everybody in America had a radio at one point. Like literally, it got to the point where everyone had a radio. Just like a lot of people, not everyone, but a lot of people have an internet connection of one sort or another. Streaming is radio. So, in my wildest dreams, in my wildest visions, we build a lefty movement of streaming. And we build it in such a way, that it will destroy the legacy of Rush Limbaugh. And the cool thing about this is, I don't even have to become Rush Limbaugh. Because Rush Limbaugh, being a rightwinger, built a hierarchical single-person empire, a pyramid with him at the top. And what I want to build, and what I want to build, is something very different from that. I want LOTS of people to rize up. And I think that, as a result of that, we will be more succesful than ever before. If we're able to get there. And I want my channel to be a part of that. Yeah, like a hydra. But even better than a hydra. Because you can't cut the heads off.(...) Yeah, we'll grow more heads. That's my wildest dreams. (...) Maybe, I won't succeed. Maybe the CIA will get me or something. I don't know. But Imma do my best. And you can see for yourself what we've done so far. Done some pretty cool shit, huh? Been a fucking cool year. We've done some fucking cool-ass shit. - Demon Momma
And of course
this fucking admission of his megalomania was on a hidden Livestream. He accuses Riley of hiding shit but then he hides all this shit himself, so let's go over it right now.
Demon Momma 2020 retrospective
From the description:
I hope everyone had a good time and in the words of a spiteful destiny viewer "i can see her having 100k". Next year will only get better because we will find each other, together we are strong. The most radical thing you can do is to show some humanity, hate never changed anyone's mind. Times may be tough but together we will prevail, thank you for being strong.
"i can see her having 100k", unfortunately I too can see him having 100k too because there are that many morons on Youtube, just look at Nyk with his millions of subs.
"I've been streaming for a little less than a year". This stream is from the 25th of December 2020... so where are all the other streams going back to December of 2019? The coward has made them all private.
"I'm always here for some Riley Grace Roshong content", LMAO, nevermind, now I see why he privated it!
"Here's where we started streaming on Youtube", and he points at November 2020. So where are all those previous Livestreams going back to December of 2019? Clearly he got on Youtube because he couldn't grow his channel on Twitch. He keeps saying he's a "Twitch streamer" when he's actually a Youtuber.
"The first of March (2020) was my first stream, I had 4 viewers, I knew every single one of these viewers personally."
Here he explains that his channel only really grew when Vermin, Vaush's then fuckbuddy, plugged him on Vaush's Discord server.
So it's thanks to Vaush that this asshole become a prominent BreadTuber.
Here he claims that he did 200 hours of Livestreaming on Youtube in 2020, but only a couple of dozen of hours if that are currently accessible via his VOD playlist.
Here he lists all the other BreadTubers who helped him grow his channel. The people he mentions are:
1) Chud Logic
2) Dylan Burns
3) Lance from The Serfs
4) Vermin and Vaush
5) Prime
6) Riley Grace Roshong! -
"Riley Grace Roshong has raided me two times, both of which were very very kind, and brought people over to my community. So big shout-out to Riley Grace Roshong as well.(...) I was on with RGR twice which was funAF. RGR and I were like, bam-bam!, it was great. Oh, RGR's Discord is amazing!"
So this how a new BreadTuber rises to prominence. They suck up to the ole boys network of BreadTube so that they get to parasite subs from their subs.
"We'll have all the fun stuff of a cult without the bad shit." - Demon Momma.
Here begins the part where he tells his backstory:
"At the beginning of this year, I had just left California and returned to the PNW, which was a good decision. I am very happy with that decision. I don't wanna live in California again. I just don't... anyway. California was not the place for me. This place [Seattle] is much better for me. Also, not as much of a neo-liberal hellhole.".
Would you look at that: an SJW that didn't like California.
"In the beginning of February (2020) I went to a Bernie Sander rally. And it was a big deal for me because, a lot of people don't really know much about, what my life was like before I started streaming [well, we know now: you were at least trying to be normal] but, when I lived in California, I lived in a very rural area, on top of mountain, in basically the middle of nowhere. And I was very isolated. I had my partners and the people that we lived with. And I watched a fuckload of streams. Basically, what I would do is I would watch streams and I would write, all day, everyday. Because that was my job, I wrote from home. So I would write, and I would write. I would write history and all kinds of random shit that I would work on."
"And I would watch streams. I watched a lot of Vaush. I watched a lot of PhilosophyTube. I watched a lot of ContraPoints. I watched a lot of Jack Saint. Although I really got into Jack Saint this year, I watched a lot of BreadTube. And other things too. A LOT of Majority Report. I was a religious Majority Report watcher. And Chapo. So I would listen to all this politics stuff, and while I was sitting there, in a very rural area with basically nothing to do, like, I started thinking about a lot of stuff. I started thinking about politics more deeply, I started challenging myself more deeply on politics. "
Here's one of his tweets at the time:
Dont worry MsM trash is a thing of the past for many of us. Left Is Best!
for those who still need GOOD as fuck news and politics content that isnt manufactured consent:
@majorityfm
@the_antifada
@NomikiKonst
@LitHangover
@CHAPOTRAPHOUSE
@VaushV
@GutianGang
more below!
Demon Mamma saw BreadTube as a kind of Indiemedia or leftwing alternative to mainstream media, when the fact is that these people shit on the legacy of Indiemedia by spewing nothing but mainstream talkingpoints.
"But I was having a really tough year, I'm not gonna lie. Last year was one of the hardest years of my life, and I've had a lot of hard years. I'm not gonna downplay that my life hasn't been, like, difficult in a lot of ways. It's been really tough in a lot of ways. I've had a pretty strange life. But last year was one of the worst."
#FirstWorldProblems
"And about halfway through last year, I hit a point where I just didn't want to live anymore. It was really tough."
ALERT ALERT! 41% ALERT!
"And I remember, literally, like, breaking down and crying, at the end of my driveway, talking to one of my few family members who actually she talks to me. And at that point, I started thinking even harder. I was feeling very doomer, I couldn't really see any way out, and it was really tough for me."
Now I see why his fanboy with that channel with the clips refers to him as "Tragic Hero.". So much self-mythologizing.
"And then... I played a couple of games."
GAMES TO THE RESCUE! How many trannies would've just offed themselves if it weren't for games? But now of course they have to take over the one thing that kept them alive and ruin it for everyone else, so they will off themselves.
"I played a game called Pathologic 2. I played Disco Elysium. I played a game called Sekiro. And these three games... and I also played a game called Nier Automata. And these games gave me a lot of food for thought, in combination with a lot of streams that I had been watching."
Such feminine games.
"Oh, and around that time, there was a message that I got - and by message I mean, I watched a stream in which Vaush talked about mental health. And there was a part in that stream, somewhere around this point, where he looked into the camera and said, "Stop being so motherfucking cruel to yourself."
... so Emmy is literally delusional? He thinks that when a Youtuber is talking to the camera, he's addressing him specifically. MAJOR fucking narcissistic glaring red flags right here. He doesn't even understand that he has developed a parasocial relationship with Vaush where he assumes that Vaush is sending him personal messages, when he's just addressing an anonymous mass of viewers. Zero media awareness with Emmy.
"And that actually hit me really hard. (fake-chokes) Because I didn't really think about how cruel I was being to myself at the time. And that got me thinking, like, wait a minute, if a streamer can have a good effect on me, that's really fucking cool, right? And I played all these games, right, these games that were very much about, like, LIVING, and understanding how to persist in tough worlds, and things like that."
He doesn't understand that playing a game is no different from watching a movie. It's all escapism. IRL, people usually do not just persist in tough worlds. We play games, read books and watch movies because we enjoy the (interactive) fantasy of a character who is superior to ourselves managing to do so (with lots of cheats and walk-throughs).
"And somewhere around that thing I said: maybe, some day, I would like to stream myself. But I didn't have the ability to do it. I didn't have the set-up, I didn't have the tools necessary, I definitely didn't have the space. We lived in a really, really, really, like, tight quarters. And so I just thought about it for a long time. And then I decided, through a couple of things, that I wanted to push myself to get more involved. And at that time, I decided to go and, like, do a politics, actually. And I went to - this is gonna be really funny - but I went to a marihuana legalization reform... I don't know what to call it, rally?"
"Honestly, I don't know. We went there to basically crowd-up the local county council. And give a statement on why we thought that the marihuana legalization should be reformed to be more liberal. Not liberal, like, neo-liberal, liberal like more generous. The county that I lived in was very restrictive with legalized marihuana. It was legal, but it was more restrictive than most of the other counties in California. So, I went there, and I gave my little speech, and I was very nervous. But it showed me, that there's a lot of other people who are involved, and that you can have an impact by taking that time to do something with your energy. And after that I decided that I wanted to do more politics stuff."
"So, I moved [to Seattle]. And then, I had the opportunity to go to a Bernie rally. And I kinda roped my partners into going with me. And at that Bernie rally, Vaush and Vermin announced a meet-up. You've seen my pictures from this meet-up."
Was this the rally in the Tacoman Dome he attended?
So Vaush and Vermin live in Seattle too?
"So I went to the meet-up. This was at the beginning of February [2020]. And while I was there, I just hung out with a bunch of really fucking cool people. And had some pizza. The rally was amazing. I was super-inspired by the rally because, it was, like, wow, let me just tell you how cool it was.
(...Skipping this part because there's nothing more boring than people describing being swept up by a crowd.)
"After that rally I hung out with Vaush and Vermin. And I was, like, wait a minute, maybe... and I had a good time. I was like, wait a second, maybe I can do this. Yeah, free beer and pizzas. Maybe I can do something like this. Maybe I won't ever be as popular as Vaush, and I'm OK with that. Maybe I will never succeed super-big at it. Maybe I can make - Vermin is amazing! (...) We had a great-ass time. I realized, at that moment, that, like, wait a second (...) hey, I can actually do this shit. I think I can actually make this shit. I think I can make something.
So I decided that month (February of 2020) I was gonna do whatever I could to figure out how to stream. So I did. I figured out how to make my iPhone run. I barely ran, it crashed a whole bunch. In my early streams, my camera kept crashing, so I had to switch to this little AVI. Some of you may remember that, I don't know how many people are here who would still remember that. Probably 404 [Gender Not Found] does. (...) And I just started doing it. And I had no fucking clue what I was doing. I was just coming up with funny ideas on the go, sometimes I'd play games, sometimes I would talk with people. Yeah, it was basically every single stream, my camera would crash at some point. It was so fucking annoying, then I figured that out, then that stopped happening. Some of y'all will remember when I figured it out, and how excited I was when I figured that out. And it was hard. Early on it is hard. Streaming at the very beginning is probably the hardest part."
Here's his tweet at Vaush where he tells him he'll start streaming as soon as he gets his mic:
hopefully, ill be one of those soon, just waiting for my mic to ship then ill be doing my first video 
calm lefty debunks, angy political video game streams!!
"Calm" is not exactly a term I would associate with Demon Momma but whatever.
Then
he shows off his first ever stream, and it's a 29th of February 2020 stream that isn't even listed because "only 4 people watched it":
No wonder he's hiding these VODs, he really doesn't want people to know that he was basically recruited to join BreadTube by Vaush at a Bernie rally, and that his intent was always to appropriate a rightwing talk radio mode of presentation for a leftwing audience, creating a kind of "talk radio for zoomers".
So there you have it, he always meant to be a "leftwing Alex Jones".
