(Yeah - I know, I'm rather late to the party to say the least; but anyways, here's my input as I intended and procrasinated on.)
I was previously a card carrying leftoid - somewhere ambiguously between the cusp of your dime a dozen DNCer of the timeframe to explicit che-tee-grade, RATM-listening cringelord pinkoist tendencies (down to openly being pro-LGBTQ+ - bare in mind this was in the latter 00's prior to this stuff even being widely and outwardly accepted among democrats) in my earlier teens, living in my bumfuck 'bakersfield-lite'-esque shithole hometown - which was demographically split between your classic staunch religious rightoids + some of the most caricatural flavors of macho lumpenproletariat scum; tweakerville pretty much. Trailer trash, wiggers, kyles, juggalos, floridaman-adjacents and ghetto trash cholos for days.
My political views were a bit resent-driven, rooted in my rebellion/retaliation/contrarianism against the bullying/abuse/dysfunction I was subjected to around the timeframe by those affiliated by said demographics; and the general overbearing & aggressive anti-dubya, euphoric (le)dora atheist sentiments that were present and all over the internet/forums of the timeframe influencing/enabling me as well. Though as things progressed throughout HS - I kind of identified in flux between right wing liber(tard)ian and dead centrist optics for the sake of avoiding and mending drama between my end and others; while the 'spirit' persisted to linger underneath the surface of things.
A ton of the post-SJW/woke/tumblrina/buzzfeed strain idpol shifts that emerged in substantial cultural/institutional batches about a decade ago definitely kind of left a sour taste in my mouth - though I was also simultaneously binded between that and having to appease the immense emotional guilt tripping + the co-occuring neckbeard shaming wave frequently deployed among wokes really playing into my insecurities real well; speaking as an extremely low self esteemed, self-hating autist. I really bottled up a ton of my sentiments and certain traumas by generally rolling with many facets of woke indoctrination as time slipped onwards.
Anyways - as cultural goalposts of the left continuously shifted to naively destructive extremities; and on my impersonal scale of things - witnessing/dealing with *so* many reprehensibly shitty, fake, shallow, calculated, toxic and all around awful people (including some of the most malignantly homophobic, bravado posturing schoolyard bully types from my HS grad class who gave me the real shit end of the stick and broke my brain) latching themselves to Wokeism as it entered the spotlight - I definitely started feeling major disillusionment with the general state of the nu-left.
I suppose if I were to define my political identity; I suppose I would fall under an amalgamation of stupidpol/anti-idpol/class conscious leftism, political homelessness/political apathy - and the 'radical acceptance'-pill at this point.
As far as political matters go; I would much rather take the angle of 'culturally greyrocking' the clownworldified noise of politics on both ends - and it's probably moreso a matter of accepting the external/tangible circumstances of life/the system; maneuvering around whatever obstacles come your way; avoiding/otherwise tiptoeing around the warzones, and surrounding yourself with very milquetoast, middle of the road grey-thinkers who for the most part are -also- blocking out the many decibels of autistic screeching & drama cranking up outdoors.
However; I will affirm from my personal experiences...it's easier said than done, considering how many people are relapsing and derailing into craziness. Either that, or perhaps another angle to look at here is that I am just unlucky enough to consistently wind up sharing proximities with 'bad apples' + pessimistically projecting from my traumas, and using that to support my depressive cynicism.
One way to look at the greater picture of things: narcissists, sociopaths and dark triad individuals love to install themselves into any established frameworks that operate on the levels of stiff, batshit linearity; and what I am witnessing among the neu-right and neu-left respectively seems accommodating to their sensibilities.
I think the best assessment here is to to assume the worst and
grill up. Show's over.
