It's not really possible to "overdose" on the vast majority of popular/common psychedelics. You can run into a whole massive host of other issues due to psychedelic abuse, but overdosing on DMT (the principal psychedelic constituent of Ayahuasca) isn't possible. He may have a horrible drug interaction between the low-grade MAOI that is often part of the Ayahuasca brew and any other anti-depressants he might be taking which could potentially result in fatal serotonin syndrome, but the psychedelic itself is essentially harmless in the physical sense.
Small powerlevel, but I've smoked DMT a handful of times. It's a pretty incredible experience, but only lasts about 15-30 minutes. When taken as Ayahuasca though the key to its potency is the aforementioned MAOI which prevents the drug from rapidly breaking down in the stomach when ingested as it normally would which can extend the lifetime from the average 20 minutes when smoked to ~6-24+ hours when swallowed as the brew depending on dosage. While we can't really know how high of a dose he was taking, if he was taking a moderate dose every 2 hours for an extended period I can't even begin to speculate for how long he's going to be out of his mind for. I've heard tales of people taking "heroic" doses of LSD and not coming down for a week or more.
Sure thing. Steroids:
1. Don’t get you high, thus removing 90% of the degenerates right away
2. Require diet and exercise to even have a meaningful effect
3. Are not nearly as addictive
4. Are not actively cardiotoxic (although steroids can cause Left Ventricular Hypertrophy at high doses over long periods, this is not the same as the active tissue death chronic cocaine use can cause)
Don’t know about weed though, but I’d rather deal with a meathead then a pothead, you know?
I think arguing which came first: the mental illness or the drugs is very circular and quickly going to consume many pages of this thread. While yes, you can’t “OD” on psychedelics - it can and often times does fuck people mentally. I mean, that’s the whole point of psychedelics. Yes - Conner was very insecure before he started dabbling in mind altering substances. And it can be assumed that his body building was a cope for that. If you watched Conner before his spiral downwards he generally was cringe, but otherwise positive, sane, and uplifting channeling his obvious awkwardness and insecurities into healthy copes like gains, girls, bravado. Typical /fit/ copes. The Conner you see today, while I hesitate to say “classic” fried schizo brain does have a lot of classic fried schizo tropes. Which is a weird fixation on 3 things. “ascending/religion” pedophilia and truth seeking. These are common tropes of people that use these kinds of drugs and the drugs start to fry their brain. They know the truth everything else is fake. Pedophiles lurk everywhere. And incoherent ramblings about god. So, no you can’t OD as in the drugs won’t kill you like black tar or alcohol will. But they sure as shit can fry your brain and a lot of people who do fry their brain such as Conner has done talk in the weird rambling ways Conner does. Anyways, adding my own two cents. I doubt anybody will read this. But maybe we can document more on Conner and his shenanigans instead of turning this into a /drug general/ where we send 25 pages talking about psychedelics while power-leveling our own experiences and trips and how you can or can’t OD or whatever. Yes, Conner had mental issues. Yes, he scrambled egg’d his brains with this shit. Anyways hope I don’t sound like an asshole. If I remember I’ll try to archive some more stuff off his Instagram. It’s a gold mine. I love his police interactions.
Link to LPSG thread which contains some OnlyFans leaks. Edit: someone LPSG autist archive pl0x.
Here's a nice summary of the cum chalice vid from a poster there in case you don't wanna see that gay shit.
just as a heads up, i bought his video of him "eating cum" when i was not very sober. The video is basically 8 minutes of another guy jerking off into a cup,then conor comes in, mixes a full packet of like ground berry sauce into it then drinks the cup but you don't really see anything it mostly just looks like berries, the only thing that wasn't shitty about this obvious bait & switch video is that he at least seems to actually drink the cum but hes got shorts on and really only appears in the last 2-3 minutes of the video to drink berry juice out of a cup while trying to stay physically as far but not awkwardly far away from the dude with his dick out. which is pretty shitty and he won't get any money out of me again.
for context the video was called "finally took my first load and it was... amazing " after sending multiple free dm's with titles like "ok I'm about to take my first load. wish me luck" and "Really appreciate your advice on hooking up with a guy for the first time. Between you and Nico I'm getting a lot more comfortable and I'm loving where my life's at right now" then he drops a $25 video of basically another person.
And here's a screenie from his Tantric Massage jerk off tutorial, if you do wanna see that gay shit.
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Sure thing. Steroids:
1. Don’t get you high, thus removing 90% of the degenerates right away
2. Require diet and exercise to even have a meaningful effect
3. Are not nearly as addictive
4. Are not actively cardiotoxic (although steroids can cause Left Ventricular Hypertrophy at high doses over long periods, this is not the same as the active tissue death chronic cocaine use can cause)
Don’t know about weed though, but I’d rather deal with a meathead then a pothead, you know?
I've been around enough people on the juice through working both nightclub and entertainment security to know this is complete bullshit (the not being degenerate part). They're tapped in the head to begin with (hence the obsession with body image) and are usually the type who've never met a chemical they haven't liked. Only a couple I've met haven't also been into other stuff both prescription and non-prescription. Guys who go that hard into body building are the XY chromosome equivalent of the XX anorexic, and whilst they have razor focussed control on doing what they do to maintain that body image they have fuck all in most other areas of their life.
Working out to be fit and healthy is fine and people should do it. Filling yourself up with chemicals and animal hormones because you've got self-image problems is not. What women that type of dysmorphia do with not eating and two fingers men with that type of dysmorphia are doing with jabbing themselves full of shit and hoovering up protein powder, two sides of the same coin.
Connor isn't an outlier, he is an endpoint. He is what happens when you give someone with those type of mental health issues a taste of success and remove any checks and balances that keeps a headcase in the normal range of the behavior bellcurve.
He is wrong about it filtering out degenerates. You can't have something that has that much of an appeal to those with mental health issues and not have it chock full of degenerates. The only thing you can argue as a pro when compared to other things is that the nutters into roids have better diets and hygiene than the nutters into My Little Pony.
He is wrong about it filtering out degenerates. You can't have something that has that much of an appeal to those with mental health issues and not have it chock full of degenerates. The only thing you can argue as a pro when compared to other things is that the nutters into roids have better diets and hygiene than the nutters into My Little Pony.
It depends, honestly speaking. There are degenerates, like those who injected silicone in their scrotums(and no, they wre abusing steroids before that) or synthoil abusers, but there is enough who use it without going full Rich.
I am not defending steroids though, just don't think they are as bad as drugs.
Yeah I've been seeing some negative comments about Jane Conquest here and in the general chat. Tbh I don't know much about her, and she could be a turbo clout chaser - no clue. But in this case concerning Connor she acted in the best possible way imo. You can boo me but I'm right.
From Jane's perspective, she thought she was meeting some pretty well known Youtuber and he was flirty with her. (It seems they share a mutual friend) She sees how weirdly edited the video is and starts digging into his life. As far as she knows, he's just in a hard period in his life and not full blown psychotic. He tells everyone they're engaged while she has no idea what's going on. After trying to help clean this stranger's apartment she starts realizing how deep this problem is. She wakes up to everyone calling her a slut and prostitute for "just getting engaged to Connor after knowing eachother less than a month" which was Connor's fuck up. Instead of pulling out a camera and getting those sweet drama clicks she helped this stranger at her own risk. She recorded some of these convos, but I would too. People are calling her a slut and manipulative, meanwhile there's a psycho body builder who could crush her head with his ass cheeks. We all like to think we'd be that good person who would help some rando, but she actually spent a lot of her time helping him recover some money, deal with the fucking cops and legal system to get this guy committed. We don't know where Connor would have been if she didn't meet him at the right time, man could of been dead and we wouldn't be dunking on the cum chalice
She also was dealing with an auto insurance claim and a friend who died at the same time. If this chick wants to make a video explaining her side then she deserves it.
Fellas find yourself a woman like that, these people are rare.
My limited understanding is that it basically is DMT. Being a psychedelic its rarely dangerous and isn't addictive. It however can have some bad outcomes when combined with SSRI's and anti-depressants, which this guy is definitely on. It also probably isn't good for you when you are doing it every day like this guy.
Made an account after seeing Connor on the front page. This guy has a lot going on that we can potentially learn a lot from. The link between psychedelics and mental breakdowns is a minor interest of mine. I also know of some Connor lore that doesn't seem to have been posted yet. This is going to be a long post so i'll put it behind spoilers to not fill your screen.
The common idea that they 'make you crazy' or whatever doesn't hold because not everyone who takes them gets their mind blended, but they're clearly doing something that makes a certain kind of person collapse. I think Connor's case is a good one to study because so much information about him is available and he gave us a running inside look into his thoughts and feelings after taking the drug.
I've never taken ayahuasca but a professional psych turned writer/blogger/vlogger that i like has experience with it and has thoughts on the drug which i think perfectly explain what happened to Connor:
Gist of this thinking is the popular old school (70s-ish era) psychology idea that everyone is operating on some level of normopathy and repression of authentic feelings to stay functional and 'sane' and that what ayahuasca and other hardcore experiences can do is shake your mental/emotional defenses down. This opens you up to greater sensitivity and vitality by exposing you to more of yourself, but nobody represses/suppresses for no reason. As a general rule we're all living as fully and authentically as we can bear, and the danger of ayahuasca is that a sensitive person who has taken an emotional beating from life and buried it behind a wall of deliberately and/or unconsciously cultivated insensitivity and inauthenticity can have it all knocked down in a moment, then they get hit with potentially a lifetime worth of horrible and traumatic sensation which they cut off behind an internal dam of normopathy/narcissism. I think that other drugs with psychedelic or hallucinogenic properties are also doing this to some extent, and that this is why some people develop schizophrenic personalities in response to weaker substances like marijuana. Weaker drug but also perhaps weaker defenses and/or stronger buried sensations.
Why i think that this is important is that by tracing this thought back in Connor's life we can find meaning behind his actions, and by looking for the truth to Connor's life we might also find more of the truth in our own.. He isn't the way he is because he's a stupid gay retard, those are just adjectives. I think he's a sensitive person who has had a mostly miserable life since the very start and that all of his observable and notable adult behaviours have been responses to this early pain.
I don't have the full picture but what i do know about his early life and family life sounds very bad. He's mentioned bullies in school, he's mentioned feeling awkward and unpopular, generally not respected, a suicide attempt from his sister, and a feeling that there was no joy in his life and that in particular his parents were somehow responsible for this. He's not lucid enough now to give us an organised and coherent factual account of his past, but the emotional truth is always there. If he feels like his life was absolutely horrible it was, even if the horribleness has left him too scrambled to identify exactly why or how. I don't know how they were in detail but if both (or at least two) of your children become suicidal hardcore neurotics you have fucked up and are running an awful dysfunctional family. Connor obviously grew up hideously insecure, no sense that he's good enough or worthy of love or respect, not from his school environment (because all schools are awful for this) or home, and in response to this he developed his first serious emotional defense posture, bodybuilding and socialmaxxing.
By putting all of his desperation and sensitivity into these pursuits he was able to get pretty damn good, millions of youtube views, could probably fuck 99% of the planet if he wanted to, a go-to example of how mogging works. But anybody who has studied the issue or even just paid attention to the world can tell you you can't cure insecurity by acquiring some finite amount of stuff, you only feel good as long as your numbers are continuing to go up. If your own body is the source of security/mental-wellbeing/narcissistic-supply you hit a wall pretty quick. An old video about his fitness progression suggests Connor decided to "push through" his natural wall very young, like maybe around 20 or younger. But even with roids entropy wins and connor realised this. baldness was coming for him and his body could only decline from its increasingly hard to maintain peak. Nobody wants to look at a bald deflated retard and connor's not that stupid, he can see where older men go for respect. If he can't be the most physically impressive he'll start transitioning into becoming the wisest.
Nobody itt has mentioned Frank Yang yet, he's a vital part of the Connor story and the one who really convinced him that kooky /fit/-adjacent wiseman was something that could work.
Yang could almost have his own thread but he's less interesting. Rich family, he just fucks around lifting weights and traveling to retreats with random whores he meets on social media and having a new existential crisis, dark night of the soul or spiritual awakening every other week.
He's actually kind of interesting as an amateur filmmaker. Does it despite fairly mediocre viewcounts for this circle, to some extent he's genuinely having fun and expressing himself through these stupid affected quirky guru short-films. Look at the thumbnails on his channel, clearly inspired Murphy's turn.
Back to Murphy, i swear i'm nearly done, Murphy built this defense against bad feeling in the form of being physically amazing and having stupid california trash be in awe of him on camera, but it starts to crack when he starts to physically decay. He decides his numbers aren't done going up, now he's going to dump stat points into WISDOM, but not actually being very wise, he has no idea how to do this and takes advice from popular culture and Frank Yang. Of course we all now know he decided to take ayahuasca in south america, and this exposed him to more worldly truth and insight than he could handle. The ayahuasca he took DESTROYED what was left of his old relied upon defenses against the accumulated emotional pain of his life, filling him with the raw hurt of a mistreated childhood, a bullied and rejected adolescence, and an unfulfilled and uncertain adult life all at once.
The shock of this clearly threw him off balance to the point he's totally disregulated on every level, he's accidentally inflicted an emotional disembowelment upon himself and is now scrambling to hide from his own feelings and build new defenses. The spiritual fortress of /fit/ self-improvement culture and pick-up mindset has been levelled, now he's living in a mud-and-stick palisade of self-aware grandiosity and clownishness.
What i'm trying to get across with this post is that Connor's actions make sense if viewed as those of a victim of awful circumstances trying desperately to defend himself against the pain of his own honest feelings about his life. There's a bit of this in all of us and Connor Murphy's story is something we can potentially learn quite a lot from. I think it'd be a horrible waste for this thread to devolve into 200 pages of "lmao what's this gay retard doing next?".
If any of this doesn't add up or seems wrong/stupid let me know. I'm always looking to test these ideas. My motivation here is to try to make sense of connor so we can do more than laugh and scratch our heads at him.
What would that entail? Also it's complete crap that psychadelics aren't dangerous. Wait until all those Acid drops pool in your spine so that when you crack your back in a year you'll be accosted by a horrible trip and maybe go crazy (my friend told this to me I don't know, I just don't trust anything that's gonna make me see anime irl)
What would that entail? Also it's complete crap that psychadelics aren't dangerous. Wait until all those Acid drops pool in your spine so that when you crack your back in a year you'll be accosted by a horrible trip and maybe go crazy (my friend told this to me I don't know, I just don't trust anything that's gonna make me see anime irl)
I'm not saying psychedelics aren't dangerous. I'm saying mixing psychedelics with SSRI is not as lethal as some people here suggest and that SSRIs are not the culprit of Connor's Magical DMT Bus Ride problems.
Here's a video from last week where Connor confirms he does ayahausca every few hours, apparently this was filmed right after the cops performed the wellness check on him. He says he does not plan on giving up psychedelics around minute 6 "until the day I die." This is top tier mania, he can't finish a sentence without laughing. He even says he's going to "fake his death again, but for real this time" by jumping off a bridge with a seahorse. This lines up with what Jane was saying he attempted to do days later. Connor's stated goal is to make the world realize reality is an illusion and to come together in a worldwide orgy. I may disagree with his methods, but his motives are pure
Never change mgtow niggas
