Skitzocow Connor Murphy - Body Building Youtube Superstar turned Drugged Out Peepee Guru who Drinks Cum for the Health Benefits

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I find this Frank fellow interesting. He is no Connor - he is better. His thought process is much more clear than Connor and he connects things together - regardless of them being factual or not. Frank has cult leader potential where Connor does not.

Watch out for Frank. He's got potential.

Very.
Frank is crazy, but he can read the room and emotionally manipulate people.
He has that mysticism to him that makes you feel like he has the answers/insight even tho he’s just a big of a fool as Conner and likely has all the same crazy pedophile religious thoughts. Their eyes have that same glassy schizo look. But frank for whatever reason can mask really well where Conner just fell apart. I could easily see frank having a harem of junkies following him.
 
You should never do psychedelics daily, you shouldnt do it regularly. It will make you lose your mind quick and you'll never really come back from that. Do it once if you are interested but beware its always different than what you thought it would be
This post glows more than the sun. Do psychedelics with every meal. Break government ownership of your mind and grab ahold of your own master race frankenstein radio controls.
 
So how exactly does someone like this go from a well-known bodybuilder to getting a horrible addiction to drugs and doing them daily? Was he already mental?
 
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So how exactly does someone like this go from a well-known bodybuilder to getting a horrible addiction to drugs and doing them daily? Was he already mental?
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Connor Murphy probably had a pre-existing mental instability issue and fragile ego, coupled with him basing his personality and online persona as a guy with a crazy physique. He had to come off gear because of his hair receding, and probably experienced some mental instability as a result. Then, with Covid around the corner, he turns to 'spiritual healing' to help solve his problems, but probably triggered some mental problems. Now he's insane.
 
So how exactly does someone like this go from a well-known bodybuilder to getting a horrible addiction to drugs and doing them daily? Was he already mental?
I'm not gonna say that abusing steroids necessarily leads to mental breakdowns that lead you to freaking the fuck out in public, get naked, fight strangers and then fight cops and end up with 3 years in prison with early probation, but
 
Was he already mental?
Bodybuilders tend to have very extreme personalities. They have strange priorities in that they put their looks above wellness, hold unorthodox beliefs and aesthetic ideals, are hyper individualistic and will do any drug and anything to reach their goals, yet often under achieve in other parts of life, but most of all they are often insecure to the point of narcissism. This is also why the online body building sphere is so goddamn entertaining. Bodybuilders are basically hyper masculine horse girls.
 
So how exactly does someone like this go from a well-known bodybuilder to getting a horrible addiction to drugs and doing them daily? Was he already mental?
He wasn’t really known for being a bodybuilder. He was known for being a pussy magnet. Then he started going bald. When you’re a pretty boy every woman wants to fuck and suddenly your looks take a dive, it can destroy you. He doesn’t have anything else to fall back on. Being pretty and doing stupid pranks. Both of which are on their way out.

Most professional bodybuilders don’t give two shits about their hair or how pretty they are. They look like fucking orcs with spray tan, and they’re proud of it. Connor is the reincarnation of Zyzz. A shallow, deeply insecure weirdo with a great body and a pretty face. The problem with this is that you eventually hit the legendary wall and your entire world crumbles to pieces.

The sad thing is that people will end up blaming drugs when millions of people take these every year, have fun, and don’t end up guzzling cum straight from the tap.
 
Bodybuilders tend to have very extreme personalities. They have strange priorities in that they put their looks above wellness, hold unorthodox beliefs and aesthetic ideals, are hyper individualistic and will do any drug and anything to reach their goals, yet often under achieve in other parts of life, but most of all they are often insecure to the point of narcissism. This is also why the online body building sphere is so goddamn entertaining. Bodybuilders are basically hyper masculine horse girls.
I like this but i think transsexuals are the more appropriate comparison.

The average younger MtF is a neurotic masculine brained 'find the hard solution' nerd who decides to become an idealised person that exists in their head who is made out of memes and hyper-real ideals and they believe that becoming this ideal figure is possible because of a completely detached understanding of the relationship between nature, experience and being. No concept of essence or wholeness. We are all arbitrary arrangements of parts, due to a shit gene roll or poor maintenance we can find ourselves unhappily arranged, time to tune up and swap out for new parts until we look like we're supposed to. And of course how we're supposed to look is determined by our mind/feelings, the shape our bodies revert to if not actively resisted can't possibly be a reflection of who we are, because it's so ugly.

Take that paragraph above and read it again with bodybuilders in mind. Tell me if any of it needs changing or is insufficient to cover the phenomena of bodybuilding. I'm convinced one can make the exact same internally sound explanation for the phenomena of bodybuilders and transsexuals. Trannies are unsatisfied males aspiring to become an idealised hyperreal images of female, bodybuilders are unsatisfied bales aspiring to become idealised hyperreal images of male. In a sense we could call them MtM trans. They aren't trying to swap out their sex, but that's not the element that makes a tranny hard to look at. What's ridiculous and wrong is the revolt against the essential truth of the body. The muscles of the bodybuilder and the axe wound of the tranny both need to be maintained by a constant routine of undesirable and unpleasant mechanical stimulation. If this isn't kept up the form appropriate to the natural unforced being of the person in question will start to re-assert itself.

If we accept this much we could even say that gyms are like a kind of publicly accepted dilation-station. You can call me insane if you want, but the early death and suicide rates don't lie. Look at /fit/ and tell me you aren't amazed at the retardation, pathetic desperation and sheer insanity on display. It's a sub-culture devoted to going to war against your own body. As our essence runs continually from spirit to body this naturally drives a person insane. We aren't brains in meat-jars. Everyone who tries to defy this truth pays for it.
 
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There are some parts in there I certainly agree with but in regards to essence I don't. This is something trannies can always allude to as the part being "really" female being hidden somewhere just beyond the frontier of current cognitive science or being metaphysical altogether.
I don't think that's something they got right.
 
I'm really really intrigued about how one "hoards ayahuasca". It's not a single compound like one would hoard LSD or even dried shrooms. As I understand it, it's a volatile preparation of multiple plants and it often is not very shelf stable and why you usually go with an expert (or someone pretending to be an expert to get those sweet sweet USD) to prepare the ceremony for you. It's not about the ceremony per se (though purging your stomach beforehand actually does make a difference), it's about having someone who knows what they're doing, sorta like an expensive Peruvian trip sitter.
 
I'm really really intrigued about how one "hoards ayahuasca". It's not a single compound like one would hoard LSD or even dried shrooms. As I understand it, it's a volatile preparation of multiple plants and it often is not very shelf stable and why you usually go with an expert (or someone pretending to be an expert to get those sweet sweet USD) to prepare the ceremony for you. It's not about the ceremony per se (though purging your stomach beforehand actually does make a difference), it's about having someone who knows what they're doing, sorta like an expensive Peruvian trip sitter.
He had the dried chacruna (Psychotria viridis) in large quantities. He knew he could use a variety of MOAI inhibitors as the second ingredient. It would be more accurate to say he was home brewing a fuck load of DMT instead of ayahuasca.

Ayahuasca is a pretty simply two ingredient mix. He actually prepares his special DMT homebrew in one of the videos, with lots of blueberrys in a blender. He does this to show how he’s taking large quantities of Ayahuasca but not even tripping any more. He believed his pineal gland started making large quantities of DMT on its own after he started consuming this stuff all the time so he was in a constant trip. (Aka, he’s bonkers)

It’s just DMT. You don’t need a special tribal trip sitter, but at least those guys would tell you “fuck no” if you want to drink it several times a day.
 
Yeah, and even what people are describing here as him being "off" and "weird" before drugs is such a far cry from what he's become. If being awkward in a young age meant eventually becoming a cum and piss-drinking, sanpakku-eyed psychotic freak with or without drugs, we'd all be posting from our padded cells while sipping from our cum chalices at this point.
This is true, but being an awkward, socially inept, desperate for approval soul almost certainly makes you more prone to being led into drug use in the beginning, no? Particularly when you live in a place like LA, where your image and social acceptance means everything.

It's a slippery slope. Insecure, socially inept person with awesome genetics and a good work ethic reaches a height of social admiration in the drug-heavy, cut-throat social culture of LA. But they just can't shake that nagging voice inside their head that says, "you're a loser, why would anyone like you?" And so, when cool, hip people offer you drugs, you take them to fit in. Or something along those lines at least. And then you start hanging out with those people, partially because they are "cool," partially because they let you hang out with them, and partially because you have begun to get addicted to drugs. And yet, when you make a comment, you never feel fully comfortable. You see people side eye each other and smirk. You're in the crowd, but you're at the bottom of it, because everyone sees past the muscles to the insecure, socially awkward, obsequious soul inside. And then you compound the stress of being accepted into, but near the bottom of, a social hierarchy in a materialistic city with the stress of your entire career requiring the approval of others and that causes emotional problems and problems in decision making (mammals low on the social dominance hierarchy show greater HPA axis activity. Long term heightened HPA axis activity results in structural damage to the prefrontal cortex and hippocampus and amygdala, which are the brain regions most heavily involved in decision making/cognition and emotionality). You combine this damage to the brain regions implicated in decision making/cognition and emotionality with drug use and latent schizophrenia, or at least the predisposition towards it, and you get a disaster.

So, no, being a socially awkward teenage is not a sentence to being a cum-guzzling Youtube monkey, but being a socially awkward cringequeen and then having your entire career surround getting social approval combined with some latent mental illness stuff is not a good combination.

And, just generally, when you can tell someone in their early 20s is "off" for whatever reason it usually is a decent warning sign.
 
Does anyone else notice the similarities between Connor and a kiwi who did too much cough syrup iirc and did the same things with his parents, even going so far as to call his father and various other people pedophiles? On camera. His name was like nyxnyx but I can't find the guy's username for the life of me. He came back not too long ago to say he was on meds and in therapy and would not be updating again. He also briefly flirted with trans identity. At any rate, holy shit if I ever needed a reason to stay away from psychedelics and dissociatives, those two have proven that tripping is not de wae. I'll stick with weed tyvm.
 
This manifestation of Connor Murphy has been so interesting. I’ve seen a few guys go off the deep end. The body builder bros have always had the most fragile egos. Why do you think people who are “gym rats” post so many shirtless selfies? It’s this fucked up validation they need. Most gym people are neurotic and a bit, if not very narcissistic. There are normal gym people, but it’s a black and white thinking hobby to dedicate yourself to. Connor is interesting since he was a typical bro, his videos are not my taste but he is pretty hot. People who put so much value in vanity end up going off the deep end since it’s not a sustainable skill or anything to have. Being good looking is a stroke of luck that does give you some tools ugly people don’t have. It also can give you a complex like it did with Connor. I don’t have a lot of sympathy for pretty boys/girls getting woken up to the real world. The shock they feel when looks start to become less important in their lives. I do sympathize about him being in a vicious cycle of drug use and has clearly become a wild man. I am interested to see what kind of content he will put out once he gets clean. This drug use has changed his brain chemistry and he’s going to have to live through an uncomfortable adjustment period. I bet he will be feeling pretty humiliated since the content he has been putting out is *cough cough* unique.. lol the frank guy must be a serial killer wtf he’s got crazy eyes.
 
This is true, but being an awkward, socially inept, desperate for approval soul almost certainly makes you more prone to being led into drug use in the beginning, no? Particularly when you live in a place like LA, where your image and social acceptance means everything.

It's a slippery slope. Insecure, socially inept person with awesome genetics and a good work ethic reaches a height of social admiration in the drug-heavy, cut-throat social culture of LA. But they just can't shake that nagging voice inside their head that says, "you're a loser, why would anyone like you?" And so, when cool, hip people offer you drugs, you take them to fit in. Or something along those lines at least. And then you start hanging out with those people, partially because they are "cool," partially because they let you hang out with them, and partially because you have begun to get addicted to drugs. And yet, when you make a comment, you never feel fully comfortable. You see people side eye each other and smirk. You're in the crowd, but you're at the bottom of it, because everyone sees past the muscles to the insecure, socially awkward, obsequious soul inside. And then you compound the stress of being accepted into, but near the bottom of, a social hierarchy in a materialistic city with the stress of your entire career requiring the approval of others and that causes emotional problems and problems in decision making (mammals low on the social dominance hierarchy show greater HPA axis activity. Long term heightened HPA axis activity results in structural damage to the prefrontal cortex and hippocampus and amygdala, which are the brain regions most heavily involved in decision making/cognition and emotionality). You combine this damage to the brain regions implicated in decision making/cognition and emotionality with drug use and latent schizophrenia, or at least the predisposition towards it, and you get a disaster.

So, no, being a socially awkward teenage is not a sentence to being a cum-guzzling Youtube monkey, but being a socially awkward cringequeen and then having your entire career surround getting social approval combined with some latent mental illness stuff is not a good combination.

And, just generally, when you can tell someone in their early 20s is "off" for whatever reason it usually is a decent warning sign.
Dude, you’re talking like Conner became a coke head. Like He was having sinister LA types waving heroin or meth in his face demanding he try it to be cool. This is not what happened.

What he’s done is so fucking bizarre, it’s why people are so gobsmacked. Dude becoming a pill head or coke addict would get very little attention it’s such a tired cliche and happens all the time. What Conner has done is rather unique and much worse.

The drug he’s taking is absolutely not addictive. Conner might be the only man on earth taking ayahuasca daily. Nobody wants to ingest that stuff constantly. Weirdos that want to trip constantly get something cleaner like LSD.

Conner took ayahuasca not to “be cool” but because he was confused and a lot of people promise you will find the spiritual answers you need by taking a trip on ayahuasca.

Addictive drugs offer quick endorphin high - chemical happiness or energy. ayahuasca does not do this, it makes you puke and unglues you from your normal reality. Plenty of people find it very unpleasant.

After Conner’s first ayahuasca trip he experienced psychosis, became suicidal, and got put in a mental hospital. For 99% of the population that would be the last time they ever touch ayahuasca after that result. But for some reason Conner decided after he was released from the hospital that more ayahuasca was the solution to his problem...and here we are today.

Conner didn’t get addicted to drugs, he unglued his mind from reality and induced psychosis via a drug. This is why playing with psychedelics is a bit of Russian roulette.

(Personally I found psychedelics like LSD to be amazing fun, but even I would never ever touch ayahuasca.)
 
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