But then I get to this line:
And I suddenly lose all sympathy for this dude. He sounds like an asshole, sick or no sick. Dude obviously needs help but holy shit, that defense almost sounds like a parody of a crime drama. "UHHHH NO OFFICER I DIDNT RAPE HER, WE WERE BOTH JUST ACTING YOU SEE", like he was Steve Brule or something.
I'm glad this was mentioned, there's a video with her talking about the assault to him which he recorded and put online. I have a few thoughts on this and would really like to hear other views, because this would help shed a lot of light on his psyche. A bit of background information (for those new to modern Connor lore) is that he will lie in obvious ways that harm his character if they were believed - and he rarely (not never) turns violent.
An example of self-damaging lies he'll tell is right before his recent second institutionalization he told many people
he raped a 15 year old girl. When his friends contacted the woman, she met them and confirmed that she was, 1) over the legal age (and close to him in age) and 2) It was completely consensual, though she claims she did not know how batshit he really was. During this whole ordeal where his friends were trying to get him involuntarily committed they stressed that he has never really been violent, only a danger to himself (and others when he's driving under the influence of ayahausca - which he's been known to dose multiple times daily).
They did, however, mention he became very violent one day when they tried to stop him from leaving his house in California. I believe that was the day he disappeared, claimed to have been kidnapped, and was eventually found and recommitted to the psych ward.
I personally don't think he raped the girl, but he may have been pushy in his delirious behavior. He could definitely degenerate to a point where he would do this, but given his history to say self-damaging shit and his ability to rape most humans but never acting on it, I'm skeptical.
Also, his reaction concerning the girl is very unique compared to when people harass and or accuse him of random things online. He was laughing her accusations off as he does with most things, but he had a rage that came out briefly every now and then. He seemed
insulted that she accused him of this, but also laughing because he believes the whole world is a stage play. He made weird statements about "doing this drug act" because she "accused him of rape during a bad experience with prozac" on the other hand, she claims to have signed these documents while high asf on shrooms and could not legally consent. He followed by saying he has videos of her signing it sober but I haven't seen them, if the videos exist.
No one's really discussed the accusations, but his whole demeanor seems like he's wrestling between being aware (and upset) about the very real situation he's in, and his mania that life really is just a dog and pony show. It's also the only time in a long time people have seen him momentarily act fully sane and lucid when he would deliver his defense. He would say things like, "If I really did this, why wouldn't you go to the cops? Why wouldn't you file a report? Why did you go to the internet?" and brought out a convincing defense, which is impressive given his mental state. He straight up accuses her of manipulation, brings out legal documents she signed to engage in his premasati sex yoga
Premasati yoga, by the way, is mentioned many times in his videos. It's a "type" of "yoga" he invented to balance your energies or whatever. It is literally dry humping with clothes on. Every time you see him weirdly sitting with a woman in his lap with their eyes closed breathing on eachother, that's what it is.
I don't believe I have all of the information on this sex assault allegation or his propensity to be violent, so I'd like to hear other opinions on this.
I'm Being Accused of Rape. Connor Murphy
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Youtube link)
Edit: I'm listening to her complaints in the conversation again and she brought up an interesting criticism. She said he has no boundaries with anyone, and while that can be fun he cannot/will not take other people's feelings or health into consideration. It seems both of them are ill, but this criticism is a summary of what I hear a lot of his friends attempt to describe him
Around minute 15 or 16 she also mentions two medications he told her he was prescribed and taking, one was lithium. He responds by saying, "Oh, no I didn't say I'm taking it. I said I was prescribed it and wanted to know your opinion on it. I'm not taking it
it's all an act" (underlined because he says this all of the time to maintain constant state of plausible deniability)